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It Gets Better All The Time

Posted by NEWsong , 22 April 2012 -

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I am really happy where I am at now. I realize that the "past is in the past" and the "life" I knew as a christian was just a waste of real time. I did learn much about myself and why I married an abusive husband and why I have endured the abuse from my current borderline personality disordered spouse; whom I really love. I have learned...

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Seeing Myself...honestly.

Posted by NEWsong , 09 April 2012 -

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It's amazing to me to realize how differently and more honestly I have seen myself in the past 8 months or more. Surprisingly, I never felt the need to "cling to" my new identity as an ex christian like I had when I first became a christian in 1985. It has been more of a comfortable easy chair feeling and kind of like a sweet and soft...

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In My 6Th Month Of Deconversion

Posted by NEWsong , 02 March 2012 -

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death of parent, deconversion and 3 more...

My mom passed Sept 16th. This just happens to be the same day as a junior high schoolmates birthday, one I have celebrated for many years now, we just got back in touch on Facebook a few months before. Unlike my friend who I had lost contact with for many years, I had either seen my mom or spoken to her every day for the past 30 years. While she was...

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I Really Hate The Religious Agenda And How It "kills" The Spirit

Posted by NEWsong , 24 February 2012 -

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religion, spirit

"I am a deeply religious nonbeliever -

this is a somewhat new kind of religion."

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Being No Longer Deluded Has Helped In Other Areas Of My Life

Posted by NEWsong , 15 February 2012 -

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personality disorders, abuse and 1 more...

I have had another epiphany. Upon deconversion from christianity, I see that I have been DELUDED and in denial about my loved ones borderline personality disorder as well. I have been wondering for the past year WHY he has acted in ways and raged and "lost all mental control" and allowed his emotions to engulf him to the point of not being...

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Thinking About Love...

Posted by NEWsong , 13 February 2012 -

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I have known love...and I KNOW LOVE now. I have loved many people who have since died and I am grateful to have known and loved them even though "they are lost to me" now...their memories comfort me.
This Valentine's Day I think of precious loved ones that I will be sending only a "valentine from my heart to...

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I "came Out" For The First Time Today!

Posted by NEWsong , 09 February 2012 -

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deconversion, coming out

"Coming out" is a term that is not exclusively for those talking about their sexual orientation or preferences but also for the EX christian who is "coming out" of hiding that fact that they are NO longer "of the faith". I found this to be the term used for ex-christians who have "deconverted" on the wonderful...

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Reality Vs. Fantasy

Posted by NEWsong , 06 February 2012 -

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reality, fantasy

I really have to say that I started this draft for this entry yesterday before reading and posting in the Lion's Den...

There is a christian song that I heard years ago that made absolutely NO sense to me

and many other christians at the...

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Following My Bliss

Posted by NEWsong , 05 February 2012 -

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I've really enjoyed and gotten much clarity about religion from watching Joseph Campbell "Power of Myth" DVDs. I think I started watching them in April 2011. I had been working through emotional issues of dealing with and divorcing a "religious controller and abuser" and had not been influenced by "the church" for about 6...

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Was I Really So Dense?

Posted by NEWsong , 02 February 2012 -

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denial

I really enjoy Ex christian.net...I never "envisioned" myself as an EX christian...maybe more of a NON Christian after many years, several DECADES of "living the christian life" and living it well, or so I thought.

I realize HOW DENSE I was mentally and intellectually. I KNOW that I was DEEP IN DENIAL about the domestically abusive...

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