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Why didn't I snap out of it sooner

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Tension In My Mixed Marriage

Posted by roadrunner , 05 April 2013 -

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I came out to my wife as an atheist a while ago. Shortly after she was accepting of it but she was undoubtedly very hurt by this. She was expressing frustration in that she didn't have the answers to questions that I was asking but I wont seek the help from people that have the answers. This is frustrating to me that she can live in ignorance of anything...

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Back In Church

Posted by roadrunner , 17 February 2013 -

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So I'm back in a new church now (for my family's sake; I've explained this i the past) but its different. I have a new identity. Im the thinker/doubter. I enjoy this role. While I havent said Im an atheist ( yeah I flaked out.....but everyone was so happy to see us and they assumed we were saved and we all played along) , I have voiced that I have serious...

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Secret Mission

Posted by roadrunner , 28 November 2012 -

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This may sound silly but now its not so much I do things to keep peace as much as I find myself now 'collecting data'. Seeing different churches how people act is anybody actually thinking, how twisted was the sermon, was he accurate with his history, who is clapping, what kind of car does the pastor have, is that guy over there an atheist, These...

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Thrown Under The Bus

Posted by roadrunner , 24 November 2012 -

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So you know my mom wife sister, father in law and brother and a few friends know I don't believe anymore. Otherwise I'm relatively quiet about nonbelief. About a month ago during a small family cookout my wife said "Can we go ahead and bless the food" and looked at me. I said grace and after everybody left I told her how insulting I though...

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Life As A Non Believer

Posted by roadrunner , 11 November 2012 -

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Today I was flagged down while walking through a strip mall by a homely old lady. At first I thought it was a request for money and I got excited because I never have cash but I had cash today. When I looked closer the lady had a limp and a lazy eye and she didn't want any money. I already have a soft spot for the handicapped but she asked me to help...

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Church Experiences Now

Posted by roadrunner , 03 September 2012 -

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So I still go church just to keep the peace. My wife is on me like a hawk watching as I don't bow before eating or go to bed. To make matters worse in church we are going through Abraham's life and we made it to Lot. Most atheists know that anyone who questions yahweh's moral compass will fall off the bandwagon at Lots story.
We did get a brief...

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4 Months After The Bomb Was Dropped On My Wife

Posted by roadrunner , 20 August 2012 -

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Ive been really open with everything about my journey but I rarely emphasize the internal struggle aspect of the situation. Not with belief (of course not) but with problem of how to proceed from here. Ive never been so torn about anything. Having to admit to my family is going to be devastating. Im not so much worried about my immediate family. My sister...

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From: Update After Coming Out Of The Closet With The Wife

Posted by roadrunner , 19 May 2012 -

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Things did go much better this week. I have refused to read certain literature because i feel they are biased toward christianity. It like having a belief and then going out and finding evidence to support it. this premise means you...

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2 Weeks Out Of The Closet

Posted by roadrunner , 24 April 2012 -

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2 weeks out of this thing. My sister now knows about my disbelief. My wife an sister are thick as thieves. So We went to visit not long ago and one night when there was just the three of us they inquired about my skepticism. They actually spent more time wanting to talk and tell me their testimonies rather than listening to me which is pretty annoying when...

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So To Get It All Out We Are Writing Letters

Posted by roadrunner , 16 April 2012 -

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Its kinda backwards but mu coming out brought up a lot of questions for her. Some of which would have been answered had I done this sooner. I threw this together and its what I gave her.

I am not a writer, I have always been more a speaker so I am sure I
will struggle through this letter.
Though I am not quite sure of the date (we'll say 2009 just to...

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