Not Doing Good
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Goodbye Jesus
Things are not going well at all and I am in a very depressed condition once again. In bed all day today and haven't stopped crying. The spiritual atmosphere at home is at a fervor and it is very detrimental to my fragile mental state. A-mum is preparing for the most important event of the year for her, which is a Christian religious conference, so she has to spend a lot of time (many months actually) preparing materials and then she will act as teacher for a part of the conference. I am in
A day in the life. A day in the life it's been. As I've told you guys before, I work as a maid in people's homes. Well let me tell you about a common fucked up scenario in the life of the independent female worker. A man contacts me about working in his home. When it comes time, I give the man a call-back. To see if he is still interested in hiring me, and for a meeting in which we would go over the details of the job. And so I call the man. And his wife answers the phone. Ok, fine. "H
So I slowly find out about a crush that a severely emotionally troubled man might have on me. This is a man I mean, in regular life I mean not on the internet. And I have absolutely no problem with "emotionally troubled" individuals because I know myself to be the most emotionally troubled person I've ever met. But the difference between me and this guy (I'm going to call him, for a nickname, Trouble), the difference is that I know myself to have serious problems and I know my limitations and
I am having trouble about knowing who to establish relationships with and who to avoid. I don't like having shallow relationships with people. I'd rather have a few, sincere friends rather than a lot of shallow friends. Anyway there are a couple of men that I am on the fence about.
On the one hand, that we have a lot in common and the potential for a great friendship is there based on the commonalities in personality that are there. It's a rare thing when your personality just seems to
It's holiday in America today this is Independence Day and it's all about celebrating the cut off of America from Britain a very long time ago. I've heard fireworks going for two days now in fact I hear some now just out my window. I really don't observe this holiday. I'm certainly not a red,white and blue Yankee and I've never waved a stars and stripes flag before. England will always hold a better portion of my heart. But this is the holiday I find most annoying, and not that I mind Americ
It's been about two years now that I've been talking to dad before I go to sleep. Which wouldn't be a weird thing except the fact that dad's dead and has been dead my whole life. Before I started these "interactions" with my father it used to be biblegod I would "speak" to. After finding out that biblegod is a sadistic maniac we could no longer be buddies. Sometimes it seems like dad interacts back with me, or maybe I'm crazy, but I do believe in the supernatural and perhaps a psychic conne
So what is a person to do, who for whatever reason, does not have an escape from pathological religion? When I talk about pathological religion- well to me there are two sorts of religion. One sort is the normal kind where the person is still able to function in reality. The second sort is the kind that is extreme and usually involves psychological disturbances and the potential for injuries and violence. The typical relief for the oppressed person is to leave the home or to leave the enviro
I don't really know anything about blogging !! Just looking for a place to throw down some thoughts and not expecting anybody to read it. Struggling lately, really just in turmoil on the inside. You know how those magicians in the old times would "cut a lady in two". She would end up split right down the middle. And with his magic wand- boom and she is back together. Well I'm quite in a state of being severed in two, and I haven't nearly got myself back together yet, and there isn't quite
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