Antlerman, on Nov 12 2007, 05:20 PM, said:
Certainly you can speak as yourself. You have questions that many people raise, Christian or otherwise. It’s about an exchange of ideas, and hearing perspectives
Thank you!
Antlerman, on Nov 12 2007, 05:20 PM, said:
I’m going to need to expand on this and clarify. The terror is that we are alone….
The terror is realizing that as we stare into that Void, hoping to see God, what we sense out there is our own face staring back!.…We alone are responsible for the existence of heaven or hell; the true nature of a God.
It's this whole anxiety over that realization that people escape from in creating God to mask that face from us.
Has this been your personal experience or are you quoting someone? I ask because this sounds a lot like Paul Tillich in
The Courage to Be. He talks a great deal about the “Terror of Non-Being.†For one of my courses I had to study this book. In addition, I had to do a special project on this particular chapter. I was seriously puzzled about the terror (or was it horror?) of non-being. I forget the details of my thought processes at the time but I could imagine absolutely nothing more horrifying than what I had lived through and survived. Finally, after much self-analysis, I concluded that the life my family and faith community forced on me was the existence of non-being. And they condemned me for not liking it, and for not thanking them for doing me the favour.
This is the utmost crime against humanity. To say I shudder at the thought is understating it. I cannot put the feeling into words. Many people seem to think that the lowest possible point a human being can reach is self-destruction. That’s wrong. A person can sink so low that he or she does not realize that he or she has a right to die. The day I realized that I had a right to feel hurt was a day of major enlightenment for me. Insight broke upon me like never before. If I had a right to feel hurt then I had been mistreated in major ways all through my life. And I had been made to feel guilty for not loving it. The rage this evokes at the injustice is too great; I have to block it out. I’m telling you these things to give you some perspective as to whom you are talking to.
I come out of the horror of non-being. I did not know that it was abnormal. I thought I just wasn’t made for that particular lifestyle. And when I finally allowed myself to be who I was—when I committed myself to be who I was, and put concrete plans into place to make it happen—I had a new birth experience to rival the best of the born-again stories of fundy churches (and my church preached against these experiences!). So powerful was it that it sent me into a spiritual tail-spin from which it took me seven years to emerge. By now I kind of wonder “What was all the fuss about,†but at the time I was in such a serious search for God and truth that it seriously upset EVERYTHING I knew and understood about reality.
The thing is, I did not know what else to call it except the new birth. Yet it happened exactly at the moment when I hung up the phone after making plans to leave the Old Order Mennonite church for a modern Mennonite church. Here was my conundrum:
- I had just turned my back on God and all I had been taught to hold sacred.
- The new birth can come only from God.
- If it was the new birth, God must exist.
- It could not be the new birth because people went to hell for leaving the church.
- If it was the new birth, then the church was wrong and that was plain stupid. There were too many Mennonite churches. If one Mennonite church was right, they were all right. If one was wrong, they were all wrong. Obviously, they were either all right or all wrong. I had lived too many decades with the stupid in-fighting and I was NOT going to judge.
- If God was real, then hell was real, too.
- There was no evidence for God except that I kept finding him in all the places my old church said he definitely was not, such as at university or in the modern Mennonite church.
- And then he showed up in the Lutheran seminary where the professors did not believe in hell. Hell, this was confusing!
Today I understand that the “new birth†I experienced was euphoria, pure and simple. And this can happen to anybody for any reason. I believe it can happen when a person finally resigns the fight and submits to the church, if one is the submitting type of personality. For me, it could not happen this way because I am not a submitting type of personality; I am an independent loner who feels most free and real when alone in the universe.
I cannot understand your terror of being alone. This is outside my experience of life and outside my comprehension. For me, being alone equals peace, calm, serenity. How would I feel if I knew I were the only person left alive on the planet? It depends a great deal in what condition the planet and I are left in. It would be hell not having anyone to share ideas with. Otherwise, I want to be alone.
Post 12
Now I will look again at your Post 12 of Nov. 10. Let me summarize the main points.
- The religious language that inspired earlier culture can no longer inspire today.
- To be whole, the human must incorporate the aesthetic and the rational.
- If we want to explore the human experience element of the religious we should not examine the findings from science or psychology.
I will address each point in order.
Religious Language and Inspiration
Antlerman, on Nov 10 2007, 12:56 PM, said:
Though it may have once inspired in its original cultures, it has becoming stained by the insistence of the religious on its factuality. Now my rational mind is in conflict with that particular language of myth used to express the aesthetic.
I challenge the implication that religious language cannot inspire today as it once did. I will flesh this out more as I go.
Antlerman, on Nov 10 2007, 12:56 PM, said:
You see? I feel these experiences are a part of the human experience, and there’s nothing wrong with using a language system to express that. But the language system that has the symbolism connected to the physical reality of this world, does both the language and human beings a great disservice. Rather than making modern humans free to appreciate transcendent beauty as part of their humanity, the religious are requiring a violation of the rational mind in order to use that language!
I object to your use of blanket statements here as though your particular experience of religious language necessarily applies to all modern humans by virtue of applying to your personal situation. I bold-faced the statements in question. I think we need formal studies to document our statements if we want to make statements about the general condition of humanity. I would refer you to the
Keirsey Temperament Website for information on basis differences in what inspires human beings. Keirsey’s Temperaments have been tested by the best psychological tools available. More below on the value of science and psychology with regards to the human experience.
The Aesthetic and The Rational
Antlerman, on Nov 10 2007, 12:56 PM, said:
To me the word “spiritual†means being whole. Being whole means fully experiencing both a rational view of the world, while appreciating its beauty with the heart.
I understand this argument is being made to defend your being atheist despite your intense visions, visions that for many humans would suggest the existence of the supernatural. As it is stated, this argument can be overthrown quite easily.
I agree with your definition of being whole. I disagree with your implication that religious language cannot be redefined in one’s mind to indicate the aesthetic and the rational. Or, as in the above quote, to inspire. My question to you is: Why can you not redefine the God of the Bible to mean that which you experienced in your visions? What you describe is expressed in Christian language, though some eastern concepts may be latent in it. Given that Christianity originated from the East, this is not surprising. Perhaps I am mistaken, but I think you could take your concept of God into pretty much any fundamentalist, or non-fundamentalist, church and become a member in good standing.
Because you have had a deeper experience than most other parishioners, you will have a different definition of many of the religious terminology than the average parishioner. You do not have to share your deeper understanding. Let’s say a geologist with a PhD and a farmer with very little education went to look at a rock in the farmer’s field. All the farmer knows or cares is that there’s this rock in his field that he has to plow around because the rock cannot be moved. The geologists sees part of an extensive rock formation that may have major implications for the evolutionary history of the local area. He knows not to mention this to the farmer because the farmer and his friends would laugh him out of the county.
Are the farmer and the geologist not participating in the same reality? Are they not talking about the same bit of matter? I think they are. Both are sane and both can live in the same county and both can discuss the rock insofar as they have common experiences of it. These common experiences may include such properties as the rock’s colour, texture, and temperature under varying weather conditions. The regular parishioner is like the farmer; you are like the geologist. Common experiences of God that the two of you may share may include the feeling that God is rational, comprehensive, and beauty. (I base this on your description of the one vision.) Thus, if you keep your mouth shut and your pants on—in other words, keep private those things that should be kept private, you can be a Christian and believe the things you believe.
Mystery versus Science
Above I summarized the main points of your post. Here are Points 2 and 3:
- To be whole, the human must incorporate the aesthetic and the rational.
- If we want to explore the human experience element of the religious we should not examine the findings from science or psychology.
I see a very serious inconsistency between those two points. I think science and psychology belong in the rational category, which you admit is required for the human to be whole. Science anchors the mystery, if you will. I used my experience of sensing the presence of another human body close to my own as evidence that extra-sensual phenomena exists on which religious systems could be built. We use science to dispel the mystery and superstition. Many Christians today no longer believe that this particular experience is mystical. They understand the electro-magnetic charges that move between living bodies to inform one about the presence of another living body (forgive me if my scientific terms are stone-age or worse; I think you know what I am getting at).
Understanding the electro-magnetic science behind the experience in no way diminishes the experience. Likewise, understanding the science of the inner workings of the eye and brain that allow for vision in no way diminishes from the experience of the pure joy of seeing colour and line and symmetry. Likewise, Keirsey’s Temperament Sorter, a personality theory based on Myers-Briggs, provides the outlines of personalities. For the overlap or interface of the human experience and science,
here are some discussions on Myers-Briggs. As you skim the index you will note that it’s basically dots to be joined, and that when joined, these dots produce a brief profile. This is then filled in by human experience. For an example of a real human being both of us know,
here is an post by Amethyst of exC. She tells us her that Myers-Briggs type is INTJ. She also tells us how an INTJ experiences the work world.
You ask:
Antlerman, on Nov 10 2007, 12:56 PM, said:
Scientifically these things can be analyzed through psychology. But here’s the huge difference, they cannot be understood or communicated experientially though tools of science. That’s the tool of language, poetry, art – the words of the human heart, not literal, but metaphorical. How does one convey the meaning of hope with an analysis of it?? You don’t. You can’t.
I disagree. While the terms
science and
psychology may not be exact equivalents of the term
logic, they fall in the same category of the rational. When I am emotionally crushed beyond hope, when life has lost all meaning and no hope remains that meaning can ever be regained, when the last spark of life has been extinguished and I feel unworthy even of death and hell, this is where cold logic can and does provide hope. Cold, hard, sterile, stainless steel logic tells me to take one more breath. Then one more. And one more. To keep on this way. Forever. This requires all the energy my body possesses. But logic tells me that this will carry my body through the crisis. And it does. The second attack does not last as long because logic reminds me that last time I survived.
It is true that I am using the poetic language of the heart and metaphor to communicate my experience. However, psychologists could communicate the same experience via their technological language just as efficiently. I don’t know that language so I can’t speak it. Possibly you don’t understand it so it would not be useful if I spoke it, even if I knew it. You mention communication. Common language is imperative for communication. Art and metaphor and music are culture specific on extremely sophisticated levels. It is totally impossible for me to communicate with members of mainstream culture (which includes you) via contemporary art and music because I don’t understand the “languageâ€; they are meaningless—just so much sound and colour, a nuisance if you will.
I understand the more common metaphors because they are part of written language, and much of my interaction with mainstream society is via written language. But the more casual metaphor and slang of private messages—not to embarrass anyone, but I understood about half of one of your recent ones; the gist was evident from the context. Technological language, however, is different in that there is direct relationship and concrete consistency between the etymology of the word and the underlying concept of its definition.
I’m not sure how clearly my point is coming across. I’m trying to show that, no matter what the theoreticians say, in my personal experience it is quite common to extrapolate from the rational to the experiential or vice versa, that science and psychology go hand in hand with the communication of the aesthetic and life as it is experienced in the human heart. I’m saying the reason for this is that the language of science and psychology, while technical and somewhat difficult to learn, is specific and consistent whereas the “language of the heart†such as metaphor, music, and art is culture specific to such a degree as to be meaningless when communicating across cultures.
I am not sure what question to put forward at this point for further discussion but I am sure you will have some response to some part of other of this. I look forward to whatever it is.