Well, I've wanted to write since I was a kid. I've done some writing in school mainly, but haven't gotten around to writing something lately. I think I have finally melded my writing voice and a subject I am passionate about. I am even working on another subject too! Anyway, special thanks to AnnaNymity for her encouragement and help. This piece and the other are dedicated to her. (The other is a surprise) Hope you enjoy. This is just the introduction. I may expound on it, but I wanted Anna to be able to read this especially. I am open to constructive criticism as I intend to publish this. Thanks!
< For Anna >
It is neither seemly nor acceptable in today's society to question, much less abandon, Christianity, so I write these words now with much trepidation. The mores against questioning this established religion are especially strong if once you have accepted the religion as your own. To defect is unthinkable. Yet it does happen. In fact, it happened to me and I would like to share my story.
Why? Why don’t I just keep my thoughts to myself? Why do I share my story? The most important reason is that I, and others, have discovered that Christianity is a harmful thought-system and it needs to be exposed for the danger that it is. Also, I want to add my voice to those who have gone before me; those who have dissented and written about their exodus without malice or derision regarding their former faith. For there are many, mainly atheist, writings that are so callous in tone as to turn off a searcher in their quest for answers.*
It is my hope to reach you who are questioning Christianity yourself, as well as those who are devout, in hopes that my story will resonate with you and will expose the threat I see in the Christian mind-set.
Ten years ago I never thought I would be writing something like this, for I was a Bible-believing, born again Christian. I believed it all. I accepted the Bible literally and believed in Jesus for the salvation of my soul and was grateful for his sacrifice for me on the cross. I was an avid churchgoer and put my time and talents into serving the Lord. I was a praise-and-worship singer and I participated in Vacation Bible School whole-heartedly as a true believer. I dedicated my life to Christ and Christianity. My house is still decorated with remnants of my former faith, which I left eight years ago.
I say this to hopefully convince you that I was genuine in my belief and I loved and pursued the Lord with an open heart and with all my heart. Because of my genuine reverence for the church and the faith when I was a Christian, this turnaround has been tumultuous and no words can adequately explain the loss and pain I have gone through in this transition to being an ex-Christian. But I will attempt in this writing to convey some of what I have experienced to the best of my ability.
I cannot thank you enough, gentle reader, for your consideration of my words and your sharing of my experiences. I will not attempt to de-convert you. I will only expose you to what I have seen so that you can make up your own mind. I can say this without compunction, for I do believe the Bible is correct in stating that the truth shall set you free. However, one must observe the truth with a clear, rational and open mind; the truth is obscured and not visible to the clouded, deluded and closed mind. As Thomas Paine said in The Age of Reason, “To argue with a person who has renounced the use of reason is like administering medicine to the dead.” My hope is that you will approach this material with full use of your reasoning faculties and consider what I have to say objectively.
* I am not an atheist. I believe in God. I do not believe, however, in the God of the Bible. I will endeavor to expound on the distinction within this text.
© 2012 Sharon Jessen
Edited by sjessen, 09 July 2012 - 04:00 PM.