chrisdownunder Posted June 17, 2014 Share Posted June 17, 2014 I waited on him But he didn't arrive at the right time I waited on him But he left me holding the bag all day long I waited on him But the pain grew to much for me to bear alone I waited on him But I lost the two girls I loved more than the world I waited on him But I slowly fell ill and almost went insane as well I waited on him But I started doubting everything he ever said about himself I waited on him But the confusion never stopped and the healing never came along I waited on him But in the end I had to give up, because he left me waiting far to long. 5 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Super Moderator TheRedneckProfessor Posted June 17, 2014 Super Moderator Share Posted June 17, 2014 Sums up much of my story as well. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
chrisdownunder Posted June 17, 2014 Author Share Posted June 17, 2014 Sums up much of my story as well.Yep. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
chrisdownunder Posted June 17, 2014 Author Share Posted June 17, 2014 chrisdownunder, I can relate to your poem so much. I kept waiting on god but he never did anything for me either. What a waste!He only comes if you believe he has come, but even then he is not there. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
chrisdownunder Posted June 17, 2014 Author Share Posted June 17, 2014 Exactly. It's like, he is there but he never does anything for you. Since that's the case then he shouldn't even be there at all.He is a ghost, what do you expect. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
chrisdownunder Posted June 17, 2014 Author Share Posted June 17, 2014 I was expecting him to intervene and help me out in my life whenever I needed him to since he is supposedly all good, all knowing, all powerful, all loving, and etcetera. I guess I was expecting too much. Either that or the bible and christians were lying.I would say grossly mistaken. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
DarwinAdmirer Posted June 17, 2014 Share Posted June 17, 2014 Very well said! Thank you for that lovely poem! This really shows that becoming an ex-christian is not a choice. I was always trying to make excuses for him, but at some point it was enough and there was no way back. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Overcame Faith Posted June 17, 2014 Share Posted June 17, 2014 Well, said, Chris. We all waited and discovered that what we were waiting on wasn't there. Welcome to ExC Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
rach Posted June 17, 2014 Share Posted June 17, 2014 I'm really touched by what you wrote. I can feel your disappointment and heartbreak. It's been just the same for me as well. Always "waiting on the Lord." Even now as a deconvert I still find myself waiting for him to show up and save the day. I was promised all my life that he would. I held on to belief and waited year after year even in the midst of heartbreak beyond what I could stand. But I'm still here nothing has changed, and I have waited far too long. There comes a point, when waiting in the rain for a bus to come pick you up, so to say, you finally realize the bus isn't coming. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
chrisdownunder Posted June 18, 2014 Author Share Posted June 18, 2014 This song inspired it all. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=a-nT14G2V1A Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
RedStar Posted June 18, 2014 Share Posted June 18, 2014 I know that feeling. The xians always say it's your fault if you don't "hear" back from god too which can really screw with a person's head. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
chrisdownunder Posted June 18, 2014 Author Share Posted June 18, 2014 I am deeply afraid for the human race, I think the only way out is down. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Super Moderator TheRedneckProfessor Posted June 18, 2014 Super Moderator Share Posted June 18, 2014 I'm really touched by what you wrote. I can feel your disappointment and heartbreak. It's been just the same for me as well. Always "waiting on the Lord." Even now as a deconvert I still find myself waiting for him to show up and save the day. I was promised all my life that he would. I held on to belief and waited year after year even in the midst of heartbreak beyond what I could stand. But I'm still here nothing has changed, and I have waited far too long. There comes a point, when waiting in the rain for a bus to come pick you up, so to say, you finally realize the bus isn't coming. Are you me? Because you just told my story. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
RipVanWinkle Posted June 18, 2014 Share Posted June 18, 2014 Typical Xtian would say: Why didn't you wait longer? Every argument they put up is an insult to your sincerity and your intelligence. That's because Xtians can't defend themselves without leaving logic and reality behind. bill Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ellinas Posted June 19, 2014 Share Posted June 19, 2014 Apparently only the spiritually (in christian terms, of course) minded can comprehend the inscrutable ways of god. The rest of us poor carnal souls must just allow in the loneliness of our inability to feel the joy of god's love and presence... Such delusion, we suffer,.. (Well, I suppose, on balance, I prefer having woken up and realized that the doctrines I clung to were b*ll*cks from the start!) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
wanderinstar Posted June 21, 2014 Share Posted June 21, 2014 Well written Chris. So sorry you had to go through all that. religion can really be a mindfuck. Which part of Aus are you from? I'm in Perth. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
chrisdownunder Posted June 21, 2014 Author Share Posted June 21, 2014 Well written Chris. So sorry you had to go through all that. religion can really be a mindfuck. Which part of Aus are you from? I'm in Perth. Melbourne. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
traveller2 Posted June 24, 2014 Share Posted June 24, 2014 what a great thread.so many folk with the same experiences.i identify alot with the poem and others responses of yrs of waiting on god.The promise always just around the corner. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Super Moderator TheRedneckProfessor Posted July 22, 2014 Super Moderator Share Posted July 22, 2014 Typical Xtian would say: Why didn't you wait longer? Every argument they put up is an insult to your sincerity and your intelligence. That's because Xtians can't defend themselves without leaving logic and reality behind. bill bill, I often had those thoughts, "maybe I should've waited longer" and god would've eventually showed up. And the feelings I had every time were exactly that: I felt insulted by god. How long would a fiance wait for her wedding day? Two years? Ten? Oh, sure, he's willing to put his ring on your finger; but try tying him down to a date and you'll find he has serious committment issues. I waited thirty years for jesus to show himself to me, but all I ever heard were empty promises--Soon... he'll show himself soon. Serious committment issues. Oh, sure, he's willing to put his ring on your finger; but try tying him down to a date and you'll find he has serious committment issues. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Zephie Posted July 23, 2014 Share Posted July 23, 2014 That was beautiful. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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