eXcelInferno Posted April 13, 2015 Share Posted April 13, 2015 I have a follow-up to my written testimonial. I wrote a song while in the midst of my deconversion and I want to share it with you guys. Please do me a favour and listen to it with headphones, it sounds MUCH better than through the laptop/phone speakers. It is by no means a professional recording nor a polished final product, so here's hoping it remains mostly within the walls of this site... I had to post it on SoundCloud because the file was too big to attach directly onto here. PLEASE DON'T STEAL IT!!! Have a listen below: https://soundcloud.com/infrno191/rift Here are the lyrics: Rift I don't know. You promise goodness and forgiveness and kindness and love. Does it show? You've got everyone hoping they can change things so they'll be enough. Then there's me. How dare I risk my status in your eyes and theirs? Can it be That this way of thinking does more damage than it repairs? Take me as I am. I don't understand. Is it me or you that's causing this rift in my own head? Can you love me for who I am? Can you see past traitor's hands? If those who speak about you can't love me... How can I love you? I was blind. It's hard to see things when you're damned every time that you try. Humans like To hold on dearly to the things they can't fathom as lies. Then there's me. They can't believe I pushed so hard that I fell. I can see They want to change me but they fear me and they'll never tell. Take me as I am. I don't understand. Is it me or you that's causing this rift in my own head? Can you love me for who I am? Can you see past traitor's hands? If those who speak about you can't love me... I know I started the war. They say you died for me, But did you really cause I sure don't feel free. I tried to live for you, Never got anything back... And I'm sorry that I can't... I'm sorry that I can't... I'm sorry that you can't... Take me as I am. I don't understand. Is it me or you that's causing this rift in my own head? Can you love me for who I am? Can you see past traitor's hands...? I'm sorry that you can't. I'm sorry that you can't. If you can't... I just simply... can't... 5 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
FreeThinkerNZ Posted April 13, 2015 Share Posted April 13, 2015 Awesome, well done! I especially liked these lyrics: If those who speak about you can't love me... How can I love you? I deconverted because I no longer believe biblegod exists, not because of the way xians treated me. But it's true that they seem to have difficulty loving people who may be different or who are gay or whatever. They say "love the sinner, hate the sin" but we all know that really means "judge and disapprove of the person who doesn't conform to my religious beliefs". They don't love us. There's nothing special about being a xian that makes you kinder, gentler or more loving. The opposite is usually the case. 3 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
eXcelInferno Posted April 14, 2015 Author Share Posted April 14, 2015 Absolutely. Thanks FreeThinker. This song has bitterness towards both God and the Christians that were in my life. Both influenced my deconversion and both caused pain during it... That is what this song is about. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
★ Citsonga ★ Posted April 19, 2015 Share Posted April 19, 2015 Great song! Thanks for sharing. From your style, I think you would like Shelley Segal. Check out her "Atheist Album" if you haven't already. Enjoy the journey ahead of you.... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Moderator TrueFreedom Posted April 19, 2015 Moderator Share Posted April 19, 2015 Very nice! More, please! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
EyesOpened Posted April 19, 2015 Share Posted April 19, 2015 Great song. Keep them coming if you can, i rather enjoyed that song. Thank you for sharing it with us. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
eXcelInferno Posted April 22, 2015 Author Share Posted April 22, 2015 Thanks guys! More, haha... Specifically about ex-christianity? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Deidre Posted April 22, 2015 Share Posted April 22, 2015 Really like it. That would be interesting to see a new genre of anti-Christian contemporary music come about. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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