traveller2 Posted August 16, 2015 Share Posted August 16, 2015 What was the first "sinful" thing you did? Obvs deconversion may not hav happened all at once but at some point you must hav done something perhaps to celebrate that you formally would not hav done?I've been trying to think what I did but I cannot recall ought spectacular.Strangely and coz my own faith was quite legalistic my thing was that now i was no longer a christian I was going to watch "lost" from start to finish. Not quite sin of the century but i felt this was as a wordly evil tv show and alot of folks I knew talked about it I'd have a watch of it after all i was now free to do what i wanted without god looking on with a frown. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Geezer Posted August 16, 2015 Share Posted August 16, 2015 I left religion because I found sufficient evidence that convinced me it was all man made. Sin had nothing to do with my decision & I have made no significant changes in my lifestyle since leaving Christianity. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Ellinas Posted August 16, 2015 Share Posted August 16, 2015 When I left, the concept of sin ceased to mean anything. So, I haven't sinned since... 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest sylensikeelyoo Posted August 16, 2015 Share Posted August 16, 2015 I was already "sinning" all the time. I just stopped feeling guilty about it. But if I had to pin it to a particular sin, it would be two. Watching porn and smoking weed. At the same time. giggity. Oh and gay porn specifically. So yeah. You show me a chick that's getting her kicks from ganja and gay porn and I'll give you someone who's not bothering ANYBODY. 3 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Moderator TrueFreedom Posted August 16, 2015 Moderator Share Posted August 16, 2015 The first thing that I was tempted to do was cheat on my wife, but I have yet to physically do that. I guess I stopped feeling guilty about porn. Meh. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Moderator Margee Posted August 16, 2015 Moderator Share Posted August 16, 2015 I was a bad, bad girl......... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Autumn2909 Posted August 16, 2015 Share Posted August 16, 2015 Its been a very long process, and its not complete for me yet. But one of the first things I enjoyed doing was reading whatever sparked my interest and curiosity, without worrying it might 'lead me astray'. This has lead me to lead works of other religions/ belief systems, atheist and humanist works, science publications, anything I wanted. So Liberating! 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
00LukeMan Posted August 16, 2015 Share Posted August 16, 2015 I didn't start doing "sinful" things, I just stopped feeling guilty about things that were not hurting anyone. However, I am now free to do things that would previously have been forbidden, such as read about satanism. When myself and two Christian friends were in a bookstore, they were giggling over the fact that it had a book entitled BDSM 101. My reaction was something like "Yeah? Okay" and after a moment's reflection "Where was that? I'd like to give it a look." (Turned out to be full of very practical information, mostly about how to keep everyone safe) The realization that morality is determined by how you affect others rather than whether you are obeying divine commands meant that I could be more fully me. There was no celebration, just an immediate lifting of depression and guilt and a renewed enthusiasm to live and help others. 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Eugene39 Posted August 16, 2015 Share Posted August 16, 2015 I'm not sure of the order that these occurred in, but the guilt about masturbating eventually stopped, and I tried drinking and smoking. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BlindReason Posted August 17, 2015 Share Posted August 17, 2015 You know, my life really isn't all that different. Strangely enough, I'm still pretty much the same person I was before. I think/hope that maybe I judge others less for their "sinful" actions. Before, I may have thought that my friends' actions were harmless and not a big deal, but that Christian circuit would still fire. I was supposed to rebuke them. I usually couldn't, just like I couldn't bring myself to proselytize. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
disillusioned Posted August 17, 2015 Share Posted August 17, 2015 I had a huge moment of realization shortly after I deconverted. Christianity had been false all along. It wasn't as if it had suddenly stopped being true; it had never been true. One of the things that this entailed was that those things which had been good before were still good, and those things which had been bad were still bad. So I didn't really change anything about the way I behaved. Of course, by the time I stopped believing I had already functionally left many of my Christian practices far behind me. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
JCW Posted August 17, 2015 Share Posted August 17, 2015 I broke my contract with my university and drank. I had already decided I was ok with drinking but I still wasn't suppose to do it as long as I was on contract with my Christian university but that commitment didn't mean anything to me anymore Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
EyesOpened Posted August 17, 2015 Share Posted August 17, 2015 When I left, the concept of sin ceased to mean anything. So, I haven't sinned since... This was my thoughts as well. The concept of "Sin" was created by the church to keep people under control. After my deconversion I realized this and my though patterns kept changing slowly over time(and still are). There were a lot of things I was limited to do in my life due to Christianity. But I will play along with the question. Mine would have to be saying FU to the Trinity just to blow off steam from getting fooled so many years of my life. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
bdp Posted August 19, 2015 Share Posted August 19, 2015 I got a hand job; I was over 40 and had never been with a naked woman so... 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Bhim Posted August 20, 2015 Share Posted August 20, 2015 Once I decided to deconvert, one of the first "sinful" things I did was commit idolatry with impunity by engaging in the regular practice of Hinduism. Those evangelical bastards had successfully deceived me, in my earlier days, into believing that the religion I grew up with was a pathway to eternal hell. Therefore I was determined to live as contrary as possible to the vile teachings of Jesus. 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
yunea Posted August 20, 2015 Share Posted August 20, 2015 In the beginning of my deconversion, I told Jesus in prayer that if he respects my free will, he was not allowed back in my life again. That was an important step for me. Later when I knew I had become agnostic, I stopped feeling guilt over many little things I'd already done for a long time that were "sin". Then I spoke some blasphemous stuff on this website. That felt good. Then I stopped having a problem with people listening to anti-Christian black metal. In fact I may give it a listen myself one of these days. Heh. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Geezer Posted August 20, 2015 Share Posted August 20, 2015 Oh yeah, I stopped being concerned about someone seeing me in a liquor store buying booze. And we keep our booze & wine out in the open now at the house instead of hiding it inside a cabinet. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Tsathoggua Posted August 20, 2015 Share Posted August 20, 2015 I never really felt too guilty about much of anything, but I suppose I felt a bit more free to indulge in my passion for my "superheroines-in-KO-peril" fetish as the last vestiges of Christianity faded away. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Voice Posted August 20, 2015 Share Posted August 20, 2015 The first thing I did (and it was during church service, the church hadn't thrown me out yet) was eye up a very hot woman head to toe, recognizing her hotness. I got busted too. One of the elders saw me. The look on his face said 'there it is, we were right, he IS of the devil.' Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
RisenTree Posted August 20, 2015 Share Posted August 20, 2015 The first? Hard to say. Was definitely one of listening to music or playing video games that I had kept myself away from, or, of course, secks. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
TheOutsider Posted August 22, 2015 Share Posted August 22, 2015 In the beginning of my deconversion, I told Jesus in prayer that if he respects my free will, he was not allowed back in my life again. That was an important step for me. Later when I knew I had become agnostic, I stopped feeling guilt over many little things I'd already done for a long time that were "sin". Then I spoke some blasphemous stuff on this website. That felt good. Then I stopped having a problem with people listening to anti-Christian black metal. In fact I may give it a listen myself one of these days. Heh. Might I recommend a fine sample of Genitorturers? I quite enjoy Lecher Bitch, first heard it in Vampire the Masquerade: Bloodlines. It felt enjoyably wrong to listen to, kinda like how you might have watched, or read, or listened to something you knew you shouldn't, but you liked it anyway? Yeah... But I was still a not very good christian at the time. As for the topic at hand, I, like others, stopped feeling guilty about porn, and related activities. Not all that exciting, at least if you're not me. No killing sprees, or cannibal style baby back ribs, or robberies, lots of blasphemy... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Jeff Posted August 22, 2015 Share Posted August 22, 2015 Lack of guilt is so nice 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
SerenelyBlue Posted August 23, 2015 Share Posted August 23, 2015 I'm not a big sinner regardless of religion. This may sound tame, but one of the things I did was listening to trans compilations. I was always told it was the devils music used to put suggestions in your mind. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
traveller2 Posted August 28, 2015 Author Share Posted August 28, 2015 SerenelyBlue mine was tame too!I thought the same re alot of tv shows that I knew I'd like but couldn't coz they were satanic or demons would get into my person cause of them etc.i think on a day to day level that paranoia was the most draining.If I'd really followed christian rules to remove everything from my life that might attract demons then I'd be left with the bible and that's about it. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Lilith666 Posted August 28, 2015 Share Posted August 28, 2015 Can't remember the exact first sin I committed after de-conversion; I should have filmed it and toasted myself. I did start watching horror movies, which I wasn't allowed to do unless it was Psycho, which somehow isn't sinful. And reading books with cursing, sex, anti-biblegod content, or anything else Christians don't like. And being forever on the Internet looking at anything about paganism, Lilith from Jewish folklore/feminist symbol... I tried to get into witchcraft, more for the thrill of committing sins than anything else. Man, that was fun. I would almost like to be Christian again for a week so I can have a little of that high of being able to do virtually whatever I want without guilt or other emotional restraints. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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