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Anyone else experienced a sort of "mental block" after leaving Christianity? What I mean is that, for example, I'm having a ton of trouble in my cosmology/astronomy class this term because not only am I not familiar with most of the concepts, but I m actually quite skeptical of them. It's very frustrating for me to learn because of this, and ive been driven to tears because I hear voices in my head telling me "this is wrong, you shouldn't be studying this." Makes me want to punch a wall.

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Ah, brainwashing! Gotta love it.

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What you think/feel is not necessarily always correct. Analyze the situation that is going on in your head, as if you were an outside observer of it. Ask yourself if you have anything to be skeptical about, from a logical point of view. If the answer is "no, this is silly", than you must fight through it. It will take practice because the brain is a machine that is constantly being rewired (new neuron connection are being made). Persistence is key. You're strong, you got this.

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Punching walls is sometimes an effective way of dealing with the emotions of the moment.  That's all they are, by the way, emotions.  They are confused because they were conditioned to work wrong.  

 

The joy of the lord is actually not your strength; the joy of your self, is.  

 

Guilt isn't the holy spirit convicting you of sin; it is the normal reaction to doing something you shouldn't.  The confusion is that if you haven't done anything wrong, you shouldn't feel guilty; but you do feel guilty because the christian virus has infected your brain and is controlling your emotions.  

 

See how this works?  Every normal human emotion has been hijacked by the christian religion and turned into a malignant parody of itself.  Joy can only be found in the lord; when it really should be found in your self.  Guilt isn't a useful tool for living peacefully within a social species; it is the chain that eternally enslaves you to the blud o' the layum.  If you're happy, jesus; if you're sad, god's plan.  There are even commandments against jealousy, of all things!

 

Go punch the wall; then get back to your studies.  I expect straight "A"s from you this semester.

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Anyone else experienced a sort of "mental block" after leaving Christianity? What I mean is that, for example, I'm having a ton of trouble in my cosmology/astronomy class this term because not only am I not familiar with most of the concepts, but I m actually quite skeptical of them. It's very frustrating for me to learn because of this, and ive been driven to tears because I hear voices in my head telling me "this is wrong, you shouldn't be studying this." Makes me want to punch a wall.

 

You should be skeptical of them. This is the correct attitude towards science. Be skeptical, but continue studying. In time, you'll come to understand and accept these concepts, or you will realize that they are incorrect and propose a better solution. This is how science advances.

 

I completed a degree in physics while still a Christian. At the start, I was a YEC. I took everything with a grain of salt, and most things with several. But in the end, I had to admit that my assumptions about the age of the universe we just flatly wrong. I tried my damnedest to find a conspiracy amongst the scientists, but there just wasn't one. You'll see this too if you keep at it long enough. So stay skeptical, and keep studying.

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Anyone else experienced a sort of "mental block" after leaving Christianity? What I mean is that, for example, I'm having a ton of trouble in my cosmology/astronomy class this term because not only am I not familiar with most of the concepts, but I m actually quite skeptical of them. It's very frustrating for me to learn because of this, and ive been driven to tears because I hear voices in my head telling me "this is wrong, you shouldn't be studying this." Makes me want to punch a wall.

 

Hi Abijah!

 

If you take a peek at my profile page... http://www.ex-christian.net/user/5764-bornagainathiest/#.V3w9-PkrJD8...you'll see that I'm passionate about and fascinated with astronomy and cosmology.  As a self-taught amateur my knowledge is wide, but not very deep.  But if there's anything you want to discuss or if you just want to talk, please feel free to message me.  Btw, in my book skepticism is a healthy thing.  Doubt causes us to check, cross-check and double-check.  The certainty of faith causes us to accept things without checking.  

 

Thanks,

 

BAA.

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Shouldn't hurt to be a bit sceptical about everything. If you just listen and believe in the science class, how does that differ from the religious indoctrination?

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Anyone else experienced a sort of "mental block" after leaving Christianity? What I mean is that, for example, I'm having a ton of trouble in my cosmology/astronomy class this term because not only am I not familiar with most of the concepts, but I m actually quite skeptical of them. It's very frustrating for me to learn because of this, and ive been driven to tears because I hear voices in my head telling me "this is wrong, you shouldn't be studying this." Makes me want to punch a wall.

 

I experienced several mental blocks during the first 10 years of my deconverson, academic, sexual, spiritual, social. Each had to be addressed and overcome in its time. I hope I got them all now, it seems like it.

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Anyone else experienced a sort of "mental block" after leaving Christianity? What I mean is that, for example, I'm having a ton of trouble in my cosmology/astronomy class this term because not only am I not familiar with most of the concepts, but I m actually quite skeptical of them. It's very frustrating for me to learn because of this, and ive been driven to tears because I hear voices in my head telling me "this is wrong, you shouldn't be studying this." Makes me want to punch a wall.

Yep I remember that, you get the feeling that you can't do anything without God's say so.

 

Come to think of it I still got a few Christian bug's floating around in my brain.

 

OUT!!!

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Yep.  I had that experience when I took philosophy a few years ago.  It was early into my deconversion; I was still attending church (not the abusive one), but having major doubts.  The church had taught me for so long that studying philosophy was bad and wrong and would lead me away from God, so I went into it with a chip on my shoulder and a rather bad attitude, determined not to let it change my worldview.  Many of the topics made me *extremely* uncomfortable at the time!  One exercise we had to do was create a map of our beliefs, from core beliefs working outward.  Seeing it on paper made it crystal clear how shaky my beliefs were, and that really freaked me out.  So I struggled, in more ways than one, to get through that class.  Now, 4 years later, I can honestly say, that class was my turning point; it forced me to deal with my doubts, accept new ideas and ways of thinking, and ultimately is one of the main things that convinced me that Christianity - especially the brand I adhered to - was full of holes and not grounded in sound reasoning at all.  (Lots and lots of circular reasoning, among other fallacies that make up the very basis of Christianity as a whole.)

 

I still have little moments with other classes, but it has gotten much easier to deal with those old, false feelings and beliefs when they bubble up.  It gets easier, I promise!

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Yep.  I had that experience when I took philosophy a few years ago.  It was early into my deconversion; I was still attending church (not the abusive one), but having major doubts.  The church had taught me for so long that studying philosophy was bad and wrong and would lead me away from God, so I went into it with a chip on my shoulder and a rather bad attitude, determined not to let it change my worldview.  Many of the topics made me *extremely* uncomfortable at the time!  One exercise we had to do was create a map of our beliefs, from core beliefs working outward.  Seeing it on paper made it crystal clear how shaky my beliefs were, and that really freaked me out.  So I struggled, in more ways than one, to get through that class.  Now, 4 years later, I can honestly say, that class was my turning point; it forced me to deal with my doubts, accept new ideas and ways of thinking, and ultimately is one of the main things that convinced me that Christianity - especially the brand I adhered to - was full of holes and not grounded in sound reasoning at all.  (Lots and lots of circular reasoning, among other fallacies that make up the very basis of Christianity as a whole.)

 

I still have little moments with other classes, but it has gotten much easier to deal with those old, false feelings and beliefs when they bubble up.  It gets easier, I promise!

Still, I'd be interested to see maps you could draw now. Interesting isn't it what things look like when you draw yourself into a religious box with everything else outside of it - at least that's how my christian map turned out. New maps are fun, where we are now.

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Yep.  I had that experience when I took philosophy a few years ago.  It was early into my deconversion; I was still attending church (not the abusive one), but having major doubts.  The church had taught me for so long that studying philosophy was bad and wrong and would lead me away from God, so I went into it with a chip on my shoulder and a rather bad attitude, determined not to let it change my worldview.  Many of the topics made me *extremely* uncomfortable at the time!  One exercise we had to do was create a map of our beliefs, from core beliefs working outward.  Seeing it on paper made it crystal clear how shaky my beliefs were, and that really freaked me out.  So I struggled, in more ways than one, to get through that class.  Now, 4 years later, I can honestly say, that class was my turning point; it forced me to deal with my doubts, accept new ideas and ways of thinking, and ultimately is one of the main things that convinced me that Christianity - especially the brand I adhered to - was full of holes and not grounded in sound reasoning at all.  (Lots and lots of circular reasoning, among other fallacies that make up the very basis of Christianity as a whole.)

 

I still have little moments with other classes, but it has gotten much easier to deal with those old, false feelings and beliefs when they bubble up.  It gets easier, I promise!

Still, I'd be interested to see maps you could draw now. Interesting isn't it what things look like when you draw yourself into a religious box with everything else outside of it - at least that's how my christian map turned out. New maps are fun, where we are now.

 

 

I don't even know if I could completely map anything out right now.  Sure, I have my beliefs, and they are pretty solid, but they are much harder to define in concrete terms because they aren't a carbon copy of a prescribed set that everyone (Christian or not) is familiar with.  It is harder to define in terms that make sense to others a worldview they've never experienced before (at least intellectually/experientially).  But yes, it would be interesting to map it out now and compare/contrast the two.  They'd be vastly different!

 

It's funny...  Now that I think about it, I am pretty sure I didn't put "god the person" in the center of my map; I think it was something like "god's unconditional love."  It was more a characteristic OF god than god himself.  That made it pretty evident right there that my views were shifting and mind broadening.  I still believe love is the universal at the core of my beliefs....it just isn't centered around or contingent upon god anymore.

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