I feel ashamed of my past Christian behaviour.

[Anushka]

I used to talk and behave in a very weird and messy way when I was a Christian. This was initiated by talking about God to my crazy Christian friend and by listening to Joyce Meyer, Joel Osteen and Terri Savelle Foy and TD Jakes too. All these people are crazy and believed weird shit and I followed, believed and put into practice what they advised listeners to do. 

Joyce Meyer led me to make some very wrong decisions- which led me to run away from home and be bullied by people I met away from home- YES- You read it right- me running away from the safety of my home was a DIRECT RESULT of listening to Joyce Meyer EVERYDAY- for years! Isn't that proof Joyce doesn't hear a thing from God? I hate her! She destroyed my life! There is a Bible verse saying- woe to anyone who gives wrong direction to a blind man.

I supported her ministry financially for months. I won't give her a single penny now.

If God guides her to teach people, why doesn't God reveal attacks to her so that she can inform the police? 

I feel so sad and dirty guys.

I started (again) reading and watching porn and that is making me feel sick and dirty inside. I wamt to stop my porn habit. How do I do that? Help! I read disgusting stories.

I wish I could take a shower and make it all go away.

P.S. I am back home with my parents now who were moderate  Christians before I ran away, but now became CRAZY RIGID PENTECOSTAL CHRISTIANS WHO SAY,BELIEVE AND DO WEIRD THINGS and who give all the little money they have to pastors. They became like this after I ran away. Thanks Joyce Meyer! 

[sdelsolray]

1 hour ago, Anushka said:

I used to talk and behave in a very weird and messy way when I was a Christian. This was initiated by talking about God to my crazy Christian friend and by listening to Joyce Meyer, Joel Osteen and Terri Savelle Foy and TD Jakes too. All these people are crazy and believed weird shit and I followed, believed and put into practice what they advised listeners to do. 

Joyce Meyer led me to make some very wrong decisions- which led me to run away from home and be bullied by people I met away from home- YES- You read it right- me running away from the safety of my home was a DIRECT RESULT of listening to Joyce Meyer EVERYDAY- for years! Isn't that proof Joyce doesn't hear a thing from God? I hate her! She destroyed my life! There is a Bible verse saying- woe to anyone who gives wrong direction to a blind man.

I supported her ministry financially for months. I won't give her a single penny now.

If God guides her to teach people, why doesn't God reveal attacks to her so that she can inform the police? 

I feel so sad and dirty guys.

I started (again) reading and watching porn and that is making me feel sick and dirty inside. I wamt to stop my porn habit. How do I do that? Help! I read disgusting stories.

I wish I could take a shower and make it all go away.

P.S. I am back home with my parents now who were moderate  Christians before I ran away, but now became CRAZY RIGID PENTECOSTAL CHRISTIANS WHO SAY,BELIEVE AND DO WEIRD THINGS and who give all the little money they have to pastors. They became like this after I ran away. Thanks Joyce Meyer! 

 

Joyce Meyer is human sewage.  I'm glad you've finally realized it.

[yunea]

I too made stupid and dangerous decisions based on what I thought was guidance. I went very far with it because I thought I was supposed to, allowing serious abuse. 

 

Just saying you're not alone... Though I shudder to think how many people are currently being abused because they think it's "good". 

[Fweethawt]

You live and you learn...

 

That's the actual figure of speech, by the way.

 

Notice it doesn't say we live and we learn. Because very few do.

 

Move on and get past it. It's all you can do. No reason to feel bad about it. You didn't know any better then -- and now you do.

 

Yay you! 

[hereticzero]

Don't feel too badly. I supported several ministries when I was religious. I often shake my head at myself when I remember the hardship I endured because of it thinking I was suffering for the Lord's sake. When one believes one's self to be buddy with a GOD(TM), it becomes an addiction and weird behaviors occur just like an addiction.

[Margee]

On 11/7/2017 at 9:28 PM, Anushka said:

I used to talk and behave in a very weird and messy way when I was a Christian. This was initiated by talking about God to my crazy Christian friend and by listening to Joyce Meyer, Joel Osteen and Terri Savelle Foy and TD Jakes too. All these people are crazy and believed weird shit and I followed, believed and put into practice what they advised listeners to do. 

Joyce Meyer led me to make some very wrong decisions- which led me to run away from home and be bullied by people I met away from home- YES- You read it right- me running away from the safety of my home was a DIRECT RESULT of listening to Joyce Meyer EVERYDAY- for years! Isn't that proof Joyce doesn't hear a thing from God? I hate her! She destroyed my life! There is a Bible verse saying- woe to anyone who gives wrong direction to a blind man.

I supported her ministry financially for months. I won't give her a single penny now.

If God guides her to teach people, why doesn't God reveal attacks to her so that she can inform the police? 

I feel so sad and dirty guys.

I started (again) reading and watching porn and that is making me feel sick and dirty inside. I wamt to stop my porn habit. How do I do that? Help! I read disgusting stories.

I wish I could take a shower and make it all go away.

P.S. I am back home with my parents now who were moderate  Christians before I ran away, but now became CRAZY RIGID PENTECOSTAL CHRISTIANS WHO SAY,BELIEVE AND DO WEIRD THINGS and who give all the little money they have to pastors. They became like this after I ran away. Thanks Joyce Meyer! 

Anushka, we understand. We understand your anger. ''If we had of known better-we would have done better''. Don't beat yourself up because it's a useless loss of life. Pick up from today and make a new life for yourself. Read this letter that I wrote to the young people a few years ago. Maybe it will help. Your porn addiction is just another temporary 'high' honey. Once you get some nice new, healthy hobbies (like all addicted people should do) you will start to feel happy as you stay away from what makes you feel bad. We're here for you. Keep us posted hon. You got this. (hug)  

 

 

[realityrunt]

On 08/11/2017 at 11:28 AM, Anushka said:

I used to talk and behave in a very weird and messy way when I was a Christian. This was initiated by talking about God to my crazy Christian friend and by listening to Joyce Meyer, Joel Osteen and Terri Savelle Foy and TD Jakes too. All these people are crazy and believed weird shit and I followed, believed and put into practice what they advised listeners to do. 

Joyce Meyer led me to make some very wrong decisions- which led me to run away from home and be bullied by people I met away from home- YES- You read it right- me running away from the safety of my home was a DIRECT RESULT of listening to Joyce Meyer EVERYDAY- for years! Isn't that proof Joyce doesn't hear a thing from God? I hate her! She destroyed my life! There is a Bible verse saying- woe to anyone who gives wrong direction to a blind man.

I supported her ministry financially for months. I won't give her a single penny now.

If God guides her to teach people, why doesn't God reveal attacks to her so that she can inform the police? 

I feel so sad and dirty guys.

I started (again) reading and watching porn and that is making me feel sick and dirty inside. I wamt to stop my porn habit. How do I do that? Help! I read disgusting stories.

I wish I could take a shower and make it all go away.

P.S. I am back home with my parents now who were moderate  Christians before I ran away, but now became CRAZY RIGID PENTECOSTAL CHRISTIANS WHO SAY,BELIEVE AND DO WEIRD THINGS and who give all the little money they have to pastors. They became like this after I ran away. Thanks Joyce Meyer! 

Yeah something about sex preoccupies Christianity. It's something we all crave biologically, and it needs to be addressed. But I'm afraid that religions such as Christianity might just be responsible for the sludge coming out of the world. If you think about it, religion has suppressed our base urge's for so long that our real problems couldn't come to the surface . Now we are seeing the reality of all this suppression, and those problems are all coming out in very sick ways.

 

 

[ToHellWithMe]

We gotta follow our urges, more or less. Porn is relatively harmless anyway.

[Aries256]

We all have been there at some point, however beating ourselves up over it accomplishes nothing. Best action is to get others out of the mental gulag that is religion. 

[Tsathoggua9]

On 12/18/2017 at 11:26 PM, ToHellWithMe said:

We gotta follow our urges, more or less. Porn is relatively harmless anyway.

 

That's how I have always felt about it.