Death for me over the years has rarely been difficult to process and move on. I've buried quite a few, only mourned a couple. The two I mourn are now memories I guard so earnestly a mother bear could not rival my ferocity. These two people immediately bring on the wet eyes and short tight breaths when I just so much as think on their lives, their influence, and my loss.
This past January I experienced a third loss of someone very important in my life. It's hit me very hard, and I am surprise
All things end. It's true. You will die. Your kids will die. Their kids will die. All life, eventually dies. Even our Earth will die, and our solar system, and even, one day, our universe. As they say, all good things, eventually, will come to an end. I don't know if anything exists beyond our universe, or if anything will continue to exist after our universe ends. Maybe, it doesn't. Maybe, this is the only time life will ever come into existence, and after this, there will be no more.
****I wrote the following around the time I quit attending church. Not sure links still work and I admit there may be flaws in my calculations. Very long and verbose.****
This is a story, an example of probability, possibility and the delusions that many believe.
There is a family that goes to the church that I sometimes attend. I do not know them. Perhaps we have passed in the halls or the worship room. That’s about it though. They are believers, hardcore holy-rollin
Okay, please don't roll your eyes and think "Here we ago again. Another blog about police brutality, police states in America, and racist bashing." I'm not going to be analyzing the events of Ferguson, per say. I am writing about a larger picture here. No speeches about how important it is to train our public servants to be more tolerant in the face of natural human behavior. No diagrams showing how our tax money inappropriately funds militarizing of the police forces across th
One of the more frustrating times in my discussions, is when I'm expected to defend a position of non-belief. I have been accused (several times) that the atheist position does need to defend itself, and claiming it doesn't because atheism is a response to a truth claim, not a truth claim in itself, is disingenuous. It doesn't seem at all contradictory to my religious friends that there's no need to defend against not believing in unicorns, mermaids, or fairies. The reason why there's no need to
I'm going to use this entry to keep track of the books/websites/youtube channels that have been recommended to me during my time here, those I've stumbled across myself in my search, and whether I have read/listened to them. As time goes on I plan to create at least an entry for each book I read, youtube series I watch or website I visit.
If you think there is a book/source that I am missing in my search for the truth then please recommend it in the comments and I'll be sure to add it to my
I was taught that you earned respect first by belief, and then by your works. That you must live the example you preach to others, and to fail to do so required public shaming amongst your family and fellow church goers. The stigma of being "that church member" was enormous, so the day I was caught wiping a huge booger on the bottom of our metal flip out chairs, I panicked, running for cover in the bathroom.
Now, I was only 8 years old at the time, but my supposed friend Obi, saw me do the d
So, firstly you may have noticed that I changed the name of my blog. This is a temporary name till I think of a cool one. I changed it to this as the Latin one was starting to feel too pretentious for me to bare. Still throwing ideas around, I'm sure I'll find something.
Anyways, on to the content of my post. I was reading something of Sapolsky's quite awhile ago now and he remarked how humanity has learned to delay gratification for insane periods of time, even hypothesizing that the concep
It seems over the last decade we have more things to be afraid of. Between the advent of engineered disease, and surreptitious attacks of mind boggling computer viruses that could potentially bring down banking systems globally, it would seem we need to look at everything we encounter with a fearful eye. Hidden within the plastic liner of that Doritos bag lies a potentially fatal flake of packaging ink that could find its way into your brain and start making you eat the brains of your children!
Being overweight sucks. I don't particularly feel disgusted with myself being overweight. I don't feel like I'm a piece of shit being overweight and I never realized some people feel that way about overweight people until fairly recently in the scheme of things. I hate it because it makes life harder for myself and I worry about dying at an early age or getting really really bad side effects.
What does annoy me about myself is that I am wanting to lose weight, but I have done nothing but gai
This question is usually posed to me after an ongoing discussion has come to a complete standstill and both parties are ready to call it a day. That's when someone will ask me, "What evidence would convince you in a God?" This is the question I get after spending countless hours interacting with someone about the problems with subjective testimony and the need for verifiable objective evidence.
What is the problem with subjective testimony? Ordinarily, there isn't a problem with subjective t
So back in February of this year, I stepped on a scale and noticed that I weighed more than I ever had in my life and I was not happy about it. My life was already in chaos because I had made the decision to deconvert from the faith I had followed for the vast majority of my life and I was a father to a one year old little girl. Things in my life were very crazy.
But something about my weight at that time really concerned me. My father died at 46 years of age and I was about to hit 41 in a c
In the general public, there is an expectation when discussing the infighting amongst atheists, that there will never be a concrete movement away from God due to lack of cohesion. That because of atheists’ insistence on individualism and no clear rank and file, atheism in itself, is a flawed logic doomed to go out of style.
Obviously, the only flawed logic being applied is the assumption that atheism needs a concise rank and file, that it is necessary to form some type of dogmatic guideline
When I was 13 or 14, there was a television show on one of the networks. There was a guy on, I don't remember who now, but he claimed that we all have powers of the mind. If we think hard enough, if we focus our energy, we can unlock these powers, he did various demonstrations. He talked to audience members and told them about their personal lives. He claimed to have read their minds. He also performed other stunts. About midway through the show he said, "I'm going to demonstrate to everyone out
So in group yesterday we were handed a paper with "the story of the butterfly".
A man found a cocoon of a butterfly.
One day a small opening appeared.
He sat and watched the butterfly for several hours
as it struggled to squeeze its body through the tiny hole.
Then it stopped, as if it couldn't go further.
So the man decided to help the butterfly.
He took a pair of scissors and
snipped off the remaining bits of cocoon.
The butterfly emerged easily but
it had a swollen body and shriv
What if I'm wrong for not believing in a God? I get this one a lot. Philosophically, it's the same question that Pascal is posing in "Pascal's Wager". If you live your whole life believing in a God, and it turns out there is no God, you've lost nothing. If you live your whole life not believing in God and it turns out there is a God, you've lost everything. This is the way the argument is framed when discussing it with friends. The argument in itself is deeply flawed.
The first flaw is in th
"The Lord spoke further to me, saying, ‘I have seen this people, and indeed, it is a stubborn people. 14‘Let Me alone, that I may destroy them and blot out their name from under heaven; and I will make of you a nation mightier and greater than they.'" (Deuteronomy 9:13-14).
It seems God is saying, "I'll destroy them if you give me permission and quit pestering me".
"Turn from Thy burning anger and change Thy mind about doing harm to Thy people. 13“Remember Abraham, Isaac, and Israel, Thy
I've been absent from this forum for a little while, hoping that perhaps a short break would help me order my thoughts and calm the internal battle that has been raging within me for some time now. Unfortunately, such a ploy hasn't worked all that well and I find myself back here, hoping that pouring out my thoughts in this entry might help. So here goes.
I find myself torn, my thoughts wrenched between the attachment I have to my faith and the information that I have been absorbing within t
“So, you’re an atheist. What does that mean other than you think you are a gift to the world?”
“How can you call yourself an atheist and support abortion?”
“Atheist men tend to be misogynists.”
“Where do you get the right to determine what is right or not? You’re an atheist!”
Any of these sound familiar when someone cannot accept or understand your lack of belief? The examples above are the most common arguments/insults/comments I receive when my atheism is brought into the spotl
For me, the first logical argument of morality seems to extend from the golden rule. We act morally towards others because we would prefer to receive those same actions. Quick examples would be stealing, lying, or physical abuse. We can recognize that it is better to live in a society where those actions are discouraged, so that those actions aren't perpetrated against us. I believe it was C. S. Lewis that made the claim that the first form of morality that kids understand is fairness. I see the
So many things to rant about, so little time. I'll just stick with the above as the topic for today I saw a forum post about marriage, and it compelled me to write my thoughts on that topic, and "families" in general.
From a very young age I remember I wanted to be married by the time my mother had me (at age 26). It seemed like a good age. I pictured going to high school, meeting a girl and taking her to prom followed by me getting a job after school, settling down and eventually getting m
Decided to scrap my prior blog, and start anew. I don't want to ramble on about Christianity anymore. It is easy to get lost in all that negativity from the past, but in truth, it wasn't all bad.
That said, I was thinking today about what life might have been like, had I had atheist parents. No church. No talk of evil and sin. No Jesus camp. No guilt over forgetting to abstain from meat during Lent, etc...
And all that sex I missed out on!
I suppose the road less traveled, is oft
I joined American Atheists yesterday to support their legal work on the separation of church and state in the US. I'm still not comfortable with telling strangers or acquaintances who ask that I'm atheist, though. Well, that's the blog entry; I'm new to this and don't have much to say.