I think I might ditch the asatru and follow some sort of buddhism or deism. Something simple. Maybe nothing at all. I have no time to play the religious games, with all their rituals and doctrines and everything else that gives me a headache. I need something I can relax with. Something I can be comfortable being with my family and others.
Paganism and heathenism, would require more solitude for me, something I have very little of. Plus it's just plain silly the more I read of it. I can see right through it. Man following made up gods. Cursing others man-made interpretations of man-made gods. Squabbling and fretting over the pettiest of shit. And all the superstition and ignorance that comes with it. The bullshit of "magic". All the crazy ass rituals and chanting. Might as well be catholic if wanted to do that.
I do still have great respect for the Asatru followers though. Nice folk, nice morals (except the racist bastards). It's magic is interesting, I suppose the same as paganisms magic, but I find its effects are really just psychological. Still it would "work" then, releasing emotions, clearing the mind and all. In the previous post I had a link to a pratitioner of berserkergang. That "magic" was really how one can induce an adrenaline high in oneself, making you stronger, for a little while. In the practicle sense, I suppose it would be useful for soldiers and fighters.
Buddhism I can live with though. Now which type of buddhism? Here I go again! Most likely it's zen buddhism I like again, but I want to research the others. Maybe I'll end up an atheist. But thats's too boring and they're always so grumpy.
I find apatheism to be a better form of atheism. The point where you don't believe in god, and don't care or stress out that others do. Being able to live your life free from the nagging thought and nagging people. That's where it's at.
Too many atheists it seems spend their lives debating what might as well be the existance of santa claus. And with what fury they do it with too! It's so silly sometimes. And can become quite hateful and cruel. They sometimes end up becoming what they hate. Ah, maybe it's just those wacky internet atheists.