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  1. The response I keep seeing on facebook goes something like this: 'This is what happens when you take god and prayer out of our schools', 'I say we bring back prayer in schools NOW', 'We have turned our backs on god and now he is turning his back on us'.... just to name a few of these idiotic, thoughtless responses. I have to fight to hold back my responses to these. I don't want to debate with these people. Really, what good would it do? Not one decent parent I know would turn their backs on their children, regardless of anything they might or might not do. Why don't they apply that same logic to their god? These kids did not deserve any of this...these innocent children. Who is really in control in the minds of people who continue to let their god get away with murder? Is their god in control, or is their devil? How many more innocent people have to suffer and die before their god "returns" to claim "his own"??? Bring back prayer in schools? Which god are your children going to pray to? Are you sure they are praying to the right one? It's all so completely ridiculous. What I really want to say is this: "Fuck your god. Where is he? How many more people must die while he stands idly by and does nothing to help? How much longer are you going to let him get away with this? When will you realize that your "loving god" is an "absent god"? It's up to us to protect our children. It's up to us to make sure that this NEVER happens again."
  2. Hope you get to feeling like yourself again soon, puddn.
  3. Same here. Always seeking but never finding. I was never able to distinguish my own thoughts from "god's thoughts". Always wondering if I was doing the right thing, and if I was pleasing "god". Now I know those thoughts were mine all along, and I can do what's right because I have the morality to do so, and I don't require some outside invisible deity to motivate me.
  4. You know, I read your post earlier today, and I was going to respond but didn't quite know what to say. I've been seeing these little "signposts" as well. I like the way you call them that, because, call it coincidence, call it whatever you like, but I just have a feeling that I am going down the right "path" in my life now. It's funny, but little things that I've encountered or learned, heard or seen seem to be connected in such a way that it seems some true meaning is unraveling for me since I've left Christianity. I'm free to find my own way now, and that is such a beautiful and freeing thing. I don't have any gods. I don't pretend to know that there is or isn't a god. But, things are happening that seem to connect, and seem to be guiding me in a certain direction. Where is it coming from? I have no idea. Coincidence? My crazy way of looking at the details and connecting them in ways significant to me? Could very well be...but there is a certain peace in it that I have never experienced before and can't quite explain. None of this may make sense to anyone here, but thanks for sharing your experience, I have had similar feelings lately.
  5. . Most persons do not see the sun. At least they have a very superficial seeing. The sun illuminates only the eye of the man, but shines into the eye and the heart of the child. - Emerson

  6. Here's one (false claim) : http://en.wikipedia....ki/Paluxy_River And another link that might be helpful to you (link below actually mentions Paluxy River as well): http://www.talkorigins.org/faqs/homs/a_anomaly.html
  7. Thanks for sharing your story with us. How lucky you are to have your wife by your side who can support you. I know the feeling of dread that comes when you think of telling your parents. I'm going through that as well; having to hide your new self because you don't want to see someone you love hurting so much... It's hard valuing truth so much, yet having to hide it from everyone. Welcome to the site!
  8. Welcome Legato. I hope you'll find that this site is a place of solace and a place to find support in dealing with the horrible effects of the Christian upbringing. Consider yourself a better person for stepping away from that madness. You may have a lot to learn, but at least you are taking steps in the right direction. Hope to hear more from you.
  9. This. Now, I know that should not stop me from having meaningful conversation with someone who believes differently than I do. But it seems that a good bit of the time when these conversations do take place, religion or god talk creeps in, and I think it's for this reason that Ro mentioned. When religion comes up, I tend to shut down - because I am not ready to reveal yet that I don't believe in their god anymore. This god that is the center of their being, this god that is everything to them, is nothing more than a horrible story book character to me. So it's becoming difficult, and I find myself in avoidance mode more often than not.
  10. Possibly, but I just happen to live in one of those most religious regions.
  11. I know Margee. I do feel different...I don't consider it a bad thing because I don't want any part of that life anymore. Still, I have to deal with certain aspects of it at times, and I guess I'm learning how to sort of just put it to the side and focus on more important things now. Thanks for the hug, I need it! Thanks par. Hope you get to feeling better soon! I'm pullin' for you too man! I am that way, always have been. Thanks for offering to listen, I really do appreciate that. This is a great site, and I'm thankful for it and for all of you willing to come and share and listen. I wouldn't have come this far without everyone here.
  12. I understand. I'm learning, I guess.. I know that a lot of this might be just the way I'm looking at things. Thanks, Legion.
  13. I just wanted to write about something that's been on my mind quite a bit lately. Maybe it will help me a little to get some feelings out. I've quietly deconverted from Christianity over the past year or so; only those closest to me have some idea of what I've been through. Only one person, my sister, knows the full extent of it. She's taken it well, and has promised to keep things quiet and not tell anyone else in my family, who are all Christians. After a couple of conversations with her, she asked me not to talk about it anymore. She started questioning her own faith a little at this point, but I don't think she is quite ready to confront the issues head on. A loss of faith would be devastating to her, honestly I don't think she could handle it, and I feel bad for even telling her sometimes, because it made her question. I've made the decision to remain quiet about my non-belief, because of certain situations and people in my family. I don't see the need to put them through any unnecessary pain because of it. So, I don't talk about religion or god. I constantly avoid the subject and church as well. I avoid the subject completely with my husband after a couple of fights after I revealed to him about my questioning. I can't help but feel isolated from everyone in my life right now. While they are clinging to their faith, all the while I am despising it - keeping my feelings pinned up inside. I wish I didn't think about religion so much, but I find that I do. I'm noticing that I am beginning to withdraw a bit...and I'm not sure what to do about this. I don't mind solitude sometimes, and I definitely need my share of it, but there are times that I long for deep, meaningful and honest conversation. Conversation that isn't met with harsh criticism or anger or bitterness. I'm really trying not to let this be an issue with people in my family or in my life. But damn, I sure do feel lonely at times. Anyone else in a similar situation? How do you deal with these feelings of distance from your family and friends?
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