Let me first express my gratitude to all who have contributed to the format of this forum. The testimonies of others who have walked this road is encouraging.
I was converted to Christianity in November of 1991.
It was a very emotional and enthusiastic conversion. I read and memorized countless scripture. I prayed incessantly. I wanted everything I did to be a reflection of the new life within me. I led home study groups and taught Sunday school. I eventually influenced my wife and children to accept Jesus. I devoted my thoughts, words and deeds to serving Jesus.
There was one problem, though. God was silent in me. Others spoke of the "still, small voice" of God in them. I never heard it. I only heard my own thoughts, wondering why he was silent. I confided in others and was told that I would learn to hear his voice.
Then there was the problem of the supernatural stories in the Bible. Noah, Jonah, Job, etc. I just figured that God was big enough to violate nature's laws without consequence.
Fortuneatly, the "still, small voice" of reason in me began to get louder. The louder it became, the more contradictory and outlandish the Bible appeared.
I announced my Atheism last year. Family and friends ostracized me. Grandchildren I've never seen.
There is a certain amount of anger in me associated with my gullibility in accepting things without rational forethought.
I've never told this story before.
Thanks for reading!