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crazyguy123

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crazyguy123 last won the day on December 7 2014

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About crazyguy123

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  • Birthday 11/17/1992

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    Science Fiction, Chess, religion, song writing, and music
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    I've been an ex-Christian since September of 2011.

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  1. Well, they haven't actually said that yet, but what I said in Discord was that I suspect it might happen. At the very least, I got my debate opponent to at least recognize the fact that I have investigated their claims, even if I rejected them as being true. I will just have to see how things turn out.
  2. Yes, he does have better things to do, such as joining us in the Lions Den. It would be nice to have some fresh Xian meat to chew on.
  3. It always feel great offering advice to a newbie on this site. Reading their introductions remind me of when I first came here. It's hard to believe that was almost 7 years ago...

  4. The most important thing that I can say is that they probably never will understand your position and it's unlikely that you will ever be able to change their minds about it, either. Only they can do that for themselves, if they ever begin to doubt and question their beliefs. The best things you can do for yourself are to keep learning as much as you can, so that you have facts on your side, in the event that you are ever backed into a corner, and to find a way to be at peace with yourself. The second can be a difficult thing to do, for those who were deep into Christianity when they had their eyes opened and everything fell apart. I don't really know enough about your particular situation to offer more advise than that, so I hope it helps. With that said, welcome to ex-C! You're on the dark side now, so enjoy the cookies! We have lots!
  5. It sucks getting errors like that when trying to post something, but thank you for trying! It means a lot!
  6. Before I get started with explaining my situation, I first want to thank @LogicalFallacy, @TruthSeeker0, and @disillusioned for helping me out in the ex-C Discord the other day. I was going through a very rough time and your advice and encouraging words helped me to get through it, when I had already begun to think that there was no way that I could. As you guys know, I have been struggling with major mental health issues for a while, such as severe depression that included suicidal thoughts and feeling like I was worthless and without hope. I also had to deal with the feeling of being angry, all the time. It was like it never went away, even when I tried to distract myself from it. It has led to me experiencing intense moments of rage, which resulted in me lashing out at people, both at work and in my personal life, and I am on the verge of losing my job over it. I even had to be hospitalized last year for this and I was getting dangerously close to having to go there again, before I decided to come back here. The biggest factors at play here have been stress at work, being surrounded with toxic people and not knowing how to get away from them, losing my mom two years ago, and other personal issues that I have struggled with my whole life that made everything else worse. As a coping mechanism, I went back to religion, but not Christianity. I still knew deep down that the old religion is harmful and just plain wrong, so instead, I ended up worshiping the imaginary devil known as Satan. For a while, I had managed to convince myself that it was all real and could feel what I thought were demons trying to possess me. Now that I have come back to reality, I realize that none of it was real. I don’t feel like I saw or heard anything out of the ordinary, so I don’t think I was hallucinating, but I experienced physical sensations that made me think it was happening, similar to how Christians think the holy spirit does things to them when they are at church. It also made things worse that I sought help from religious-minded individuals who tried to push their religion and crazy conspiracy theories on me, because at my worse moments, I was vulnerable enough that those things were able to stick and make me paranoid. It likely would not have gotten so bad, if I would have come back here a lot sooner, to get a nice, big dose of logic. Trying to bottle it all up and deal with it on my own was the worst thing I could have done, but that is what happened. Now, after having said all of that, I do want you all to know that I am doing a lot better than I was the other day, when I ranted about all of this in the Discord server. I am seeing a very good therapist, who I first started seeing after all of the devil-worship BS happened, to help me sort through all of the underlying issues that I have been dealing with. Unfortunately, any progress I made with her help was slowed down drastically by not getting rid of the stupid people around me, who were putting so much stress on me in the first place. I finally got to the breaking point where I was sure everything was going to fall apart, but somehow, I came back from it and found myself back here again. I still haven’t yet found a medication that works yet and I have seen two psychiatrists, but they haven’t diagnosed me with anything, so I feel a little lost there. It feels like they just want to throw pills at my problems, to make them go away, but I haven’t had any success with them. The only thing that has really helped in this case, is smoking weed when I need to (Marijuana is legal where I live now, praise the Lard!). On the plus side, I am through with trying to please everyone. I know I can’t do this because it is impossible and I’m going to start cutting people out of my life. It won’t be too hard to burn those bridges when they are already weak and on the verge of falling apart anyway. Even though I had felt the need to debunk all of the conspiracy theory BS, I don’t see any reason to burden myself with that, when there is no need to try and change anyone’s mind about it. I tried to explain all of this as clearly as possible. It’s been a very difficult time and I feel like I have hope again, which is a huge step forward from a few days ago. I don’t need to “get right with God” like the nutters said, I just need to be at peace with myself and get the negativity out of my life for good. I actually feel like that is possible now. It’s been a long time since I have posted here, but it’s good to be back again.
  7. Hey guys, it's good to be back again.

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    2. Orbit

      Orbit

      So glad you're back!

    3. TrueFreedom

      TrueFreedom

      Nice to see ya, crazyguy.

    4. crazyguy123

      crazyguy123

      Thank you for welcoming me back in. I just wish it was under better circumstances that I came back. It's surprising how a person can recover from a toxic religion, only to have a huge setback when they go through a mental health crises.

       

      Your support is very much appreciated!

  8. You would only do that if you were Yahweh. Awesome post Yunea!
  9. *gets horny thinking about Jesus coming inside of him* Damn... It looks like I'm not making it into heaven after all. Oh well, it's not like I was going there anyway. See you in Hell guys. That's where all of the fun will be happening anyway.
  10. I also think Sauron is an asshole for creating the one ring and causing so much suffering in Middle Earth. Good thing he, like Yahweh, is imaginary.
  11. crazyguy123

    BAA

    After having been out of the loop for so long, it was a shock to come back here and find out about this. Even though I didn't know him personally, I was always fascinated by the things he posted, even though half the time I had to spend hours doing research to understand what he was talking about. I also had a lot of respect for how calm he was when arguing with religious fanatics. Other people would get worked up, but he would still be the voice of reason, even in the Lion's Den. I fully understand what his friends and family are going through. I lost two people that I cared deeply about last year and it's still difficult sometimes. His beautifully written "good-bye" message that he left behind for his loved ones was difficult to read, because it made me think about my own experiences. These forums will be a very different place without him but at least he gets to be a part of the universe now.
  12. I've thought for a long time that all of those fun things the pastor used to rant about all the time during church services, are quite enjoyable. Does that mean I want to sin? No, not really. It means I like doing things that religious nuts like to tell me are sinful. Christians probably can't tell that there is a difference between those things, but as long as we know it, then their preaching is meaningless to us. It makes them fun to chew on when they're in the Lion's Den though. OM NOM!
  13. A Gnostic Christian is still a Christian. They are just another version of Christians, but are still Christians.
  14. He doesn't understand because the hand of the Lard is using him as a sock puppet and is speaking BS through him! Accept Kryasst today!
  15. I do not want them to worry about me. The stress is only going to worsen their failing health so no good will come from it.
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