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  1. The thought of the biblical god being real is one of those thoughts that can drive me to instant depression.
  2. The problem is, God would know your thoughts so laying low wouldn't fool him.
  3. Well, since I couldn't exactly hide my thoughts and feeling from this monstrous, disgusting entity and would be hellhound anyways. Why not?
  4. I still get people who come to my workplace while coughing and hacking all over the place just for some trivial non essential item. In one instances, someone coughed and I could feel a droplet land on my face. I had to immediately run to the back and hose myself off. I do wear a mask though but some of our customers are starting to wear thin on my patience. I am one of the managers though and have the authority to kick people out if they get out of line.
  5. I remember skits done during Halloween (targeted at kids of course) where they took you through one room after another depicting scenes of these teens ending up in hell. It was kind of unnerving to me and I was well into adulthood when I first saw that. Yeah, it's child abuse...
  6. Telling a child, someone with a lifetime of potential ahead of them that they're nothing but depraved sinners is the epitome of child abuse. I think the testimonies of the members of this site can attest to that fact.
  7. I don't understand why religions consider women as inferior to men (at least in the Abrahamic ones) condemning them to the background of their society. You would think that having that having the other 50% of the population engaged in spreading the god virus would be to the religion's benefit. The god virus does however mutate and allows for the inclusion of women in leadership positions in the modern world despite scripture. Unfortunately, that's no comfort to many of you ladies who've had your self esteem torn down over the years. The good news is, I've had many female friends here who'v
  8. I wish I could say these episodes were strictly due to my deconversion. I'm not proud of many of the things I've said in the name of politics or other ideological differences. There are a whole string of alienated friends who I will never recover.
  9. It's been a coupe of months since my last update, I figured I would fill everyone on current happenings. Something that I deemed a lost cause occurred, I've shared this with some of you one on one but I've never made a post about it. When I first deconverted 7 1/2 years ago, I had an atheist friend who'm I could be as open and intellectually honest about any topic. The taste of mental freedom that she gave me was a major factor towards my loss of faith and for that I'll always be grateful. However, due to the the worst aspects of my nature (that many of you no doubt have experienced) combi
  10. I wouldn't call them idiots, some of them have had an interesting life. Then they get down there and just give up.
  11. If you spent any time down there, then you are aware of the condition called the "Keys Disease". For those not familiar, it is when people become too comfortable with island living and lose all motivation or desire for intellectual pursuits. In this regard, my peers were some of the most "diseased" people you could ever meet. This was a type of hell that I had to endure for several years and my only reprieve was a bi-annual vacation out of there. Now that I'm back on the mainland, there is this energy around me because everyone is trying to accomplish something and/or better themselves.
  12. It just occurred to me that I never bothered messaging an admin to delete my profile. I'm not fully returning to this site, however I've decided to keep my account and just give everyone periodic updates. Many changes have occurred since my last post. In the beginning of September, I found out that I had to move out of the building I was living in down in the FL Keys. The reason behind this requires it's own post but in a nutshell, I had to find another place to live and fast. Rather than signing a lease and remaining in that small, toxic town, I decided it was time to move on. As many
  13. Well, which mod wants to do the deed and delete my profile?
  14. Also, I wish I could go back to 2012, before the filthy politics crept into the atheist community. Back then, the only time politics were mentioned was when Christians were trying to undermine the separation of church and state. The specter of social justice or left vs right wasn't really upon us and if present, was nothing but faint background noise. Of course, one cannot rewind back the clock in such a manner unless you had the power to put every atom, every particle, and every quantum state exactly where they were 7 years ago. There is one particular person, the very first atheist frien
  15. I'm probably drawing this out more than necessary but I might as well get everything off my chest now while I still can. One thing that Ex-C has also taught me is that there is an immutable aspect of my nature. It is not in me to be a neutral, agreeable, moderate individual. Though I can suppress that for extended periods of time, eventually the polarizing side of me always wins. I have fought this for years and every time this has caused me to emotionally hurt someone, I've looked at myself with disgust. I don't have the energy to fight it anymore and thus, I choose to accept and embrace
  16. @ag_NO_stic there isn't much I can say to your post that I haven't said in our last two years of conversations. I can agree with much of what you've said. It seems that you have also moved on from this website and are forging your own path. I'd like every new member (or lurker) reading this to take note, this fierce mental independence and resilience should be your end goal. Beware of dogmatic ideas that are no better than the religion you just left behind. Do not be emotionally dependent on the group, sure you can have friends but learn to stand on your own if necessary. Your mind is y
  17. If someone makes their whole life about Jesus for example, is it possible to have a relationship with them? Do you really want to be around a person who brings up religion constantly? I certainly don't. This is also applicable to individuals who bring up racism, sexism, patriarchy, etc every other conversation. When a person's identity is tied to their ideology to such an extreme, ideas that are intellectually repugnant in my opinion, there can't be a normal relationship. It's like being around an alcoholic, sometimes they're normal but most of the time they're drunk and unruly. To be fa
  18. I'm still here for a bit longer till I reply to some messages that I've been sent and wrap up all conversations. I understand that the recovery cycle is different for everyone. However, my personal advice is be aware of when each step of the process ends and you're ready to move on to the next. I wen't through an angry phase for example where I bashed Christianity and started many arguments/debates because of that anger. Eventually, I reached a point where I wasn't compelled to do that anymore because those feelings subsided but still did it anyways because I wanted a
  19. This post has been a long time coming, I feel it to be a necessity in order for me to truly move on. I joined this site June of 2013 and it served as a new community after severing ties with my church circles. Over time, I've talked to some incredible people, some I've had the privilege of meeting in person. I've even found relationships here, twice, something that I didn't expect from a forum of this nature. That's not to say that I've gotten along with everyone but that's inevitable when you gather many individuals with separate life experiences all in one place. Many who were with me o
  20. I burned my bible while taking the lord's name in vein. To those of you on the fence, try this, you will see that god will neither strike you down or give a damn because he doesn't exists.
  21. There is nothing worse for mental illness than adding religion to the mix. I have some breathtakingly infuriating stories from my church telling it's members to get off their meds and avoid proper treatment which I've posted in other pasts of the forums. It's seems you can't communicate about this issue with your parents without their toxic Christian indoctrination. Do you have anyone else you can talk or other means of seeking help while you're back with them?
  22. People change, sometimes for the better and sometimes for worse. 20+ years will make a girl that you once fell in love with utterly unrecognizable, this is especially true if she's been infected by the god virus and possibly traumatized due to a horrible marriage. The past is something that's best put away, you're sacrificing romantic possibilities in the present for someone that for all intents and purposes is gone. The most amazing women in my life didn't show up till I was past 30 and I look at the people from high school with complete indifference now.
  23. Later in the bible, you'll find verses (Ezekiel 18:20) stating that the child shall not pay for the sins of the father. Not that it matters though as the whole book is one contradiction after another as anyone who's even casually studied it knows. The original writers of Genesis just needed a reason to state that we had a built in defect. Without this, they couldn't sell us their solution (atonement for sins) so thus, the concept of our sinful nature would have taken root. Christianity wouldn't have survived with the fear of hell dangling over it's believers and you will find that other su
  24. There is a new development now, that is my mother is starting to lose her mind. She claimed that my dad came and visited her today, she felt "a heavy presence" upon here. So yeah, something else for me to worry about.
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