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About Insightful

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    38 year old male
    3 year crisis of faith
    Ended early 2015 with shift to agnosticism

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  • Still have any Gods? If so, who or what?

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  1. Thanks for sharing... And Welcome! I'm sorry for all that you endured - especially all of the judgment for leaving an obviously unhealthy marriage. I, too, first lost faith in Providence. I always believed IN SPITE of all of the mounting inconsistencies i kept observing within the Bible and between the Bible and reality. But I chose to keep trusting despite my doubts. Once my faith in providence crumbled, i no longer had reason to rationalize away my doubts in order to sustain belief... I am a happy agnostic - fortunate to not be angry. Something that helps me not be angry at "God" is that i am now 99.9999% sure that if some version of God exists, it's not the fundamental-evangelical-bible version that let me down - that god does not exist, so there isn't anyone to be angry at... I hope that made sense. Anyway, glad you are here. I hope that, with time, your anger can pass - so that you can more fully enjoy this precious but fleeting existence. Maybe in a reply you can talk more about the details of your anger - get it all written out. It can be healing.
  2. Well written! Sorry you didn't receive any replies back in November. Thx for sharing
  3. Welcome ZP! Thanks for sharing your story. Glad that you are finding your way - sounds like you have a strong, clear mind.
  4. Totally! I still miss the music - and I've been out for seven years... Granted that some of it is really bad music, I still long for the songs that I grew up with - either because I like them musically, or they bring back good feelings and memories. I still listen to some of my old favorites every now and then. Just a couple of days ago, I was making breakfast and wanting to listen to "Colored People" by DC Talk - so I pulled it up on You Tube. And I still really like the Beyond Belief album from Petra. I wore out 2 cassettes of that album as a teenager, listening to it hundreds of times a year on my walkman - so it's pretty etched into my being... Of the many kinds of Christians out there, I still find myself drawn to the ones who are Christians because they honestly want to live a life that is noble, good, and worthwhile. I get that they are wrong in what they believe, but I share their values of wanting to live a good/true/noble life - even if we totally disagree on what that is. So I find a sort of odd comfort with the genuine yearning for truth and goodness that SOME Christian artists display... Maybe this means I'm a messed-up ex-Christian? haha!
  5. Wow - that's crazy. I wish his ignorant defiance didn't cost him his life... Hopefully others will observe and learn, though, sadly, probably not. Thx for passing that along.
  6. I get what you're saying - as a former Christian myself, I have definitely seen my regard for women change (improve) dramatically post-deconversion. Seeing the way that bibical ideas harm women makes me want to, all the more, make sure that the women in my life (and in the world) are treated justly and equally.
  7. And... 30 minutes ago the governor of Florida just declared that religious gatherings are exempt from the stay-at-home order because they are "essential". Just. Wow. No words.
  8. From an outsider's perspective, it is quite fascinating. One of the very main practices of Christianity is gathering together. And, due to the coronavirus outbreak, they will not be able to gather in churches on their most holy day - Easter Sunday. If I were a believer still, this would have caused me to doubt God's existence. Why would he allow the events of the universe to result in Christians NOT getting to go to church for a couple of months, including EASTER of all days?!! I wonder what they will say... maybe they will praise the advent of the technology that enables them to "meet" remotely... But it's all really odd right now if you are a Christian, right?! And it's also really odd that most of them won't even think twice about it...
  9. ^This!! At least for me. I'm married to a believer as well and for the first 2 years, i thought she was angry because of my BELIEFS, but it was the impact on her social life that was the main issue... It's awkward/shameful in that world being the one married to the unbeliever...
  10. Welcome Leia! Becoming a father of two daughters made me a feminist as well. Is NIFB a nondenom independednt fundamentalist baptist?
  11. Insightful

    New athiest

    Hey now, I was taught in my charismatic Sunday School that circumscribed pentagrams are a no no.... =p
  12. This idea reminds me of Eccl 9:10, my favorite book of the Bible as a non-Chistian... (and Margee's too =)) "Whatever your hand finds to do, do it with all your might, for in the realm of the dead, where you are going, there is neither working nor planning nor knowledge nor wisdom."
  13. I'm so glad you found someone to share your life with - someone your brain chose. I love that. Thanks for your post!
  14. Thanks Citsonga - great article and very insightful.
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