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  1. Yes. For me it would have to be Laveyan Satanism though. I have looked at a preview of it on amazon and it sounds like something that might work out for me. Lavey's works seem philosophical in nature but they also seem to show a true understanding of the way that the world works. But any other form of Satanism is a no go for me. Laveyan Satanism is also atheistic in nature, a plus if that might describe you. Or even agnostic.
  2. I have checked out one of the sticky notes on this forum and have tried to see if my library carries the books and it does not. I will also have to wait to buy it. Anyhow I do need some immediate advice on how to get myself out of a rut. Y'see things are looking quite difficult in life now. I've got several months until I can join the military (too long a story to explain here) but for now I need some immediate solutions. 1. Job-I just got booted from my low-paying (7.25/hr. for 10 hrs a week) job and it was my first real one so I am kinda in a bind on what to tell potential future employers on my resume. 2. Finding freelance jobs for students-At my last job I discovered that I hate working around people. Not a shocker since I am introverted and have always preferred to do things alone. 3. What are secular ways you deal with life's issues? 4. How have you found purpose in life/ Sorry for the long question. Thanks! :3
  3. Interesting point. I didn't know that, But when you do consider anglo-saxon history it is a little ironic how Christinaity stuck with them and how you got artists creating images of bible saints in their own likeness, especially since none of the bible characters were white (or as far as I know)
  4. I can definitely relate to this. When I left Christianity I started to get my first jobs. They weren't all that great, but had I stayed with my old church and followed their advice to only get jobs to fit in with the church schedule I still would be unemployed.
  5. I also didn't like the whole Adam and Eve thing. And it's because of this story that many women have been oppressed worldwide and throughout the centuries. Where would we be if this lovely thing wasn't spun up out of someone's imagination? And then some churches twist this around to make it sound like all the women are sinful.
  6. I have some family who are into the "Jesus Name" flavor of Pentecostalism in Indiana. The women wear their hair up like lamp shades and are forbidden to wear pants and makeup. They are a very legalistic lot and also tend to "make shit up" on the fly. Everyone in my family who are mixed up with that particular brand of church live pretty messed up lives. There's no changing them and their devotion to these churches is very cult like. Hah had hair like lampshades lol. Ass. of God. lol. There are a ton of those churches where I live. That is actually a fairly common-name for a church. Also don't forget the 'First Baptist' or 'First anything really.' Very pretentious-sounding.
  7. I read the article and it made a wonderful point. And I do think it is ironic to have women Christians too.
  8. I'll give my two cents. One of the reasons that some people left religion and/or ultimately rejected belief in any God is because they happened to fall on some hard times. when you are a religious person, say a Christian, and you constantly pray and pray for things to get better, and put all your hope into this being, and then to either have nothing change for the good or things even get worse, some Christians might opt to disbelieve in a God altogether. That sort of describes me. And depending on how difficult the challenges were for that person it is understandable why they may feel angry. After everything most of us are taught about the Christian God it seems out of character to us that he would ignore anyone, much less let financial ruin wreck their lives among other things (i.e. starving people in the world, Hiv, war, poverty, etc.) so to get no visible response after someone has been seriously praying and believing in this God can seriously leave some frustrated, or betrayed.
  9. "Sleigh Ride" by Johnny Mathis has got to be my favorite Chrismas song. "Feliz Navidad" is very repetitive but a little catchy. "Sleigh ride" by Tlc and that one Christmas Rap song by Run DMC are among my modern favorite Xmas songs.
  10. I know there are few exceptions. As far as I know I'm the only African American Atheist (Well..i'm actually a little mixed but mostly black) i know of. All the African Americans I've talked to have at some point made a mention of God and me needing to put him first in my life whenever I converse with them. And even popular Black movies ( i.e. Tyler Perry) are pumped full of religion.
  11. Lol. Just goes to show that many Christians do not know their bible as well as they think they do..or should.
  12. Sure why not. I think my input would be good since I am in a demographic that tends to be religious and would be something a bit out of the ordinary.
  13. Sleeping in lol. and reading...doing whatever I usually do on the weekdays.
  14. Although I had been exposed to Christianity all my life, I'd been a skeptic since I was 12. What ultimately killed my faith was my own skepticism. I constantly prayed and lived the Christian life, and I didn't see any real results. And given that I am in hard times, I simply told myself that I didn't have time to waste around and wait for something that is never going to show up or happen. So I resolved to live life the way I wanted.
  15. Since October 2013. Not very long. I started out as an agnostic, but I've had my doubts about religion for years.
  16. Most of my grandmother's side of the family are Catholic. And some of her children are starting to follow in her footsteps. The Catholicism they follow seems to be of the liberal variety. And for a short moment in my life my mother tried to raise me and my siblings as Catholic. I've even attended mass lots of times. I will never forget how sickening it was.
  17. I could relate to a lot of what you guys said. Apparently most of the people in my old church thought that if you didn't speak in tongues you weren't 'saved'. They also frowned upon having Tvs and even going to the movies since they believed that there was only evil on the television. There was also laying on of hands as well. And even I genuinely believed that I could receive a healing if I kept praying to this God. It never happened. And my life even got worse as I continued in that church. Now there was no dancing in the church, but I have been to a fair amount of churches like that. And some people would also be running laps around the room as 'evidence' of being 'filled with the spirit'. I simply ask this question out of curiousity. Is anyone here familiar with a ranch of church called the Door/ Victory Chapel?
  18. Given that the most religious group in America tends to be black, I find that it is ironic that there are even Black Christians, given their history. First of all, Christianity is not native to Africa (and according to information about the bible I believe that Christianity originated in the middle east). Most of the native religions found in Africa are far different from Christianity. Secondly, Christianity has been used to justify things like slavery (where it was practically imposed on the slaves), racism and segregation. given all this you would think a particular group would turn away from a religion like that. What are your thoughts?
  19. Also, I am curious if any of you went to The Door/ Victory Chapel/ The Potter's house Christian fellowship (not TD Jakes). Thanks!
  20. Looking back now at all the years I spent as a Christian, I would have never imagined that I could ever come to describe myself as an atheist. My journey out of religion and ultimately into atheist was one that was perhaps several years in the making. Considering that I am a minority and a college-age female, a demographic of people that is likely to be religious, I am something of an exception. Though religion was not really discussed among me and my mother and siblings growing up, I nonetheless has a fair amount of exposure to Christianity. I often was tagged along with my mother and relatives into Baptist or apostolic churches. I would remember not really paying much attention at all in the service. As soon as we walked out of those church doors, anything pertaining to religion wasn't really discussed. My mother was at best a nominal Christian. As I became older, I also had some exposure to Catholicism since many of the family members on my grandmother's side are Catholic. For a short bit I had recalled my mother trying to force Catholicism down me and my siblings' throats. I didn't take any of it seriously. The idea of praying 40 different times multiple times a day to some saint and of confessing your 'sins' to some guy wasn't cutting it for me. I thought it was all really silly. Luckily, my mother came to her senses and a few weeks later wasn't busy shoving Catholicism down my throat. I had been in and out of the foster care system tons of times, yet each foster family I went they were always Christian, and of either the Baptist or Apostolic variety. Around 11 I had really begun to pray, yet at the same time I wasn't entirely unsure of what to think about 'God'. It was also at this point that I had suddenly become skeptical of all of the bible stories. Ultimately, my skepticism would later prove to be the undoing of my faith. At 12 I simply could not fully believe in all of the things in the bible, such as Jesus walking on water, Jesus also being God and the Holy Spirit, Jesus' Resurrection and him turning wine into water to name a few examples. Each of these claims seemed contrary to reality. It is ironic that children are taught that Santa and the Easter Bunny are make-believe when they reach a certain age, yet it is also acceptable for people to hope in a being that no one has ever seen or can be sure exists. I had a fairly rough upbringing my teenage years, with my mother constantly moving and me being picked on at school. Yet through it all I still continued to be as faithful a Christian as possible. Around 14 or 15 I had gotten suckered into supporting many of those Tv preachers. I have to admit some of them did have really good messages, and one well-known one in particular had such a good, watered down version of Christianity that even a non-religious could appreciate, so as long as this concept of God is taken out. I had continue to go down the path as a Christian and even giving up all forms of entertainment that I considered were bad for a Christian. It wasn't until I was 19 that I had found a rather extreme church (or cult if you would rather) that I liked. For about a year I went to a Pentecostal Church that goes by a few names depending on the location. My old church believed in speaking in tongues, they fasted so that they could 'hear from God' better and went on countless outreaches that cost heaps of money, something that isn't easy for a college student. My faith began to dwindle more throughout my first year in college. And for a bit I even quit college because I had thought it wasn't God's will for me to go where I was going. I also sacrificed other things in order to 'please God': A good military career (I purposely suggested to a counselor that I be sent home from bootcamp because I really believed that God didn't want me there), time I could have spent going to college (it'll now take me a little longer to finish), certain friendships and almost...my dream of becoming an artist. It was when I realized that when the pastor and several others in the church decided that it apparently wasn't in God's will for me to pursue a career as an artist that I had woken to my senses. Suddenly, life no longer became appealing. Everything I had to do...it had to be something pleasing to God. I got absolutely no support from that cult church on pursuing my childhood dream. I would sacrifice a lot in order to become a successful artist, but no way was I intent on giving it up completely like the others suggested. Also, nearly all the women quit their careers in order to become housewives, and since it was discouraged that I make opposite sex friendships (most of the friends I make happen to be male) for fear that something more could happen (by the way I am asexual and I've never had the desire to sleep with my friends). So I was stuck talking with those boring housewives every time I went to that cult church. As time went on I had stopped going to church outreaches and events. Not only was I financially struggling at home, but all that darn time I wasted at church I could have been doing something productive, finding a job and learning practical skills. In October of this year, I had mad the conscious decision that I would no longer be attending church. And at that moment I had realized that the term Agnostic fit me better. As time went on I read into atheist forums and blogs and I began to question many of the things I once believed. It all eventually lead me into becoming an atheist. Now I feel so much more liberated. Even though I am still financially struggling, I realize that fate is in my own hands. I plan to join the military, go back to college and pursue friendships with all kinds of people, irregardless of what they believe or what their lifestyle is like. The only difference is that I will not be putting all my hope into some being that never really came through for me. I have learned that living for now is the best thing to do and to make the most of it. Practical solutions and reasons are much better to me than blind faith, and being too easily swayed by fairy tales. Thanks for reading! :3
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