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  1. Boring Songs: Bored To Death by Coconut Records (Theme song to the awesome show "Bored to Death".) Bored In The USA by Father John Misty I'm Bored by Death Angel Bored by Deftones So Bored by Wavves I'm Bored by Iggy Pop Not that these songs are boring listens or anything. They just share a theme...
  2. During my hiatus I've begun to regularly consume a certain herb of questionable legal status. I was sitting in the storage area underneath my residence, smoking a bowl in the dimly lit area with only my new puppy for company. I had some chill EDM tunes playing on my phone. It was a quiet night on the plains, a little chilly in the unheated underbelly of a relic. Wrapped in my jacket, preparing for lift off... I realized how insignificant humanity is. Now I can't turn that realization off. We think that we are so freakin' special, each and every one of us this wonderfully unique creation. They tell us that in church, they tell us that in school, and those of us that grew up during the era of the self-esteem cult can never escape it. Until one day when we reach terminal velocity and crash through the ceilings of our own minds. Blast through the lowest orbit like a SpaceX rocket and smash the expectations of this boring Earthbound existence of all mortal beings. Picture it! This world all a dream! What we see isn't real and what we feel is all lies! We are led around by our desires and we deny it. I saw it and now I'm sick. Mentally unwound. Oh, sure...it all seems so glorious to pull at the strings of the carefully woven tapestry that attaches us to the realities that we know. But let me tell you, it's not so much fun as it is sobering. Once you really realize how fragile it all is and how much of life is thinly veiled bullshit controlled by faraway string-pullers, it kills you. In some deep way that I can't touch, I'm already dead. Just like Jesus. I can't understand why people follow a dead guy. A murder victim. Isn't there someone out there who's alive, who survived? 2000 years and we're still talking about a guy who died and supposedly came back to life only to ascend to a plane of existence that we can't verify yet we trust? I don't think that people throughout time were idiots or anything. Just that they were forced to pledge alligience to a dead guy to avoid their own deaths. Coerced belief never lasts. I think there's a genetic component to belief resistance that takes awhile to be bred out. Early adapters build persuasive but exclusive cults with elaborate traditions that only those that are born into the faith can understand. I've always found Judaism to be an interesting case because only Jewish women can give birth to Jewish children, even sons. If you read the OT, you see that is what is behind the subjugation of women and why the OT guys were so hung up on virgins, purity, idols, etc. I suppose that's why I don't understand the fascination that some people have with being Jewish like Jesus. You can't technically become Jewish. You have to be born Jewish. Female converts to Judaism can have Jewish children, but stopping short of conversion means that you aren't Jewish and therefore, your children aren't Jewish either. Yet they want to claim that they are "truly Jewish" and all that. Of course, I've always been technically minded. That is why faith is such an issue for me. It's not that I can't entertain fantastical ideas, it's that I can usually find faults with said fantasties. Whatever gets you through the day, I guess, but I'd rather explore my own depths than seek an intimate relationship with a dead guy. This is the first part of a rambling rant that I wrote in my "relaxation time" journal recently. I thought that maybe this would resonate with some people in the ex-c community. No idea why my mind turned to faith. I don't focus too much on my lack of belief or whatever these days...
  3. Crunchyroll is a streaming service. Kinda like Netflix, but they only do anime and Asian drama series, mostly. I use it sometimes. I like other sites for streaming anime better though.
  4. Showed up in my recommendations. Sometimes I like to watch old commercials. Makes me feel closer to my inner child, I guess.
  5. Excellent piece of work. The OT has a lot of weird nonsense in it. Most mainline Christians never study the OT beyond Genesis, Exodus and Isaiah with the exceptions being in the form of devotional blurbs. The few sects that do study the OT (such as my former church) are Yahweh defenders and shameful apologists who justify all of the evil atrocities found therein with simplistic notions of 'lessons learned the hard way' and 'tough love' and so on.
  6. I have a migraine. There are many things that cause migraines. Mine is likely caused by stress.
  7. I'm voting for Demon Sheep this election cycle.
  8. I tried to take a nap earlier but I kept thinking about this documentary I watched last week. It was about China, filmed before they became all modernized. It was kinda beautiful in a way. It had this weird music in the background too. Now I want to re-watch it but I don't think I have the patience for it. It's one of those dry artsy documentaries.
  9. Tasty noodles are my life. Seriously. These are my cheat treats. I love hot noodle soup. This is the superior Ramen. Uber Ramen. Some variations: Chicken-y Noodles Noodles with Floating Soft-boiled Eggs Noodles with Floating Fried Eggs Mushroom Explosion Noodles Veggie Noodle Soup Kimchi Noodle Soup Tuna Noodle Soup Frittata SHIN RAMYUN IS LOVE. SHIN RAMYUN IS LIFE. ALL HAIL SHIN RAMYUN.
  10. Well, I kinda found a life. Not really. I just got distracted.
  11. wheeeee. one boring post an hour 'til I hit 1,000+ posts. Or get a life. whichever happens first.
  12. Most girls seems to have nice handwriting. I've been told that mine looks pretty cool. Your exgf's sounds attractive. It was, just like her. Haaaaaaaa. Can't believe it's been almost a year since we were serious already. Hot damn. Anywaaaaay.... I'm chewing gum. Juicy Fruit to be exact. Not a fan but someone left it in the shopping cart that I used at the store. Finders keepers, blah blah blah. Also, I find the Coneheads State Farm commercial to be annoying and outdated. Like, does anyone under 25 even know about that movie? The only reason I remember it now is because of "Kodachrome" at the beginning with the montage of their daughter growing up.
  13. Takes a bit to start but wow...takes me back. I called the alternative station and requested this song quite often when I was in high school. I recently rediscovered this song when I found that CD for my first love in the closet at my parent's house. Maybe I should just make a playlist on youtube and share the whole mix with y'all...some songs I can't find though. Such is life. Lyrics: The barrenness of waves and the grayness of the sea Never lost or ne'er been misguided We'd have ne'er reached seas so shining Or come from out of a hansom in Camden To a bar in the basement While all the while it rained Or come around to the friendliest of faces Handsomest in ugly places Or come from out of the tunnels we dig in To see that tunneling's not living And working doesn't work Or come to find that loving is labor Labor's life and life's forever Or come to see that keeping's not giving You get what you've given You get what you deserve And in the midst of all of the action Maybe only there found satisfaction Chasing sea-foam dreams Around another dirty old town Parallel run streams Toward the gray ocean from the green ground 'Oed und leer, das meer But look beneath the glassy surface All the songs you hear Down there they have a purpose All in all we cannot stop singing we cannot start sinking We swim until it ends They may kill and we may be parted But we will ne'er be broken hearted
  14. This message was written by hand. My handwriting leaves a lot to be desired. Do serial killers really have bad handwriting? I found my exgf's handwriting very attractive. Her script was microscopic and incredibly neat. She dotted her i's with x's and drew little birds in the margins. Kind of wish I had made a font of it.
  15. I have inherited a living swiffer.

  16. At my grandmas funeral. :-/

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    2. EyesOpened

      EyesOpened

      Sorry to hear this. Condolences.

    3. FreeThinkerNZ

      FreeThinkerNZ

      Aw, so sorry for your loss. I have heard you talk about her so often. :( :(

    4. seven77

      seven77

      thanks to all for your kind words.

  17. So I've been having gastrointestinal issues. I've lost like 15lbs in the past few weeks. I'm pretty much a recluse anyway, but this shit is really turning me inward. I am living in fear of shitting my pants in public everytime I leave home. Some days are better than others. Today hasn't been too bad. Just a few episodes this morning after breakfast. I didn't walk the dog or work out today because I don't have the energy. Seriously. I am fucking drained. Plus this goddamn heat. Ugh. It's like 90 here today. And humid as fuck. The city is doing work on the streets near my home and the loud noises are driving me batshit too. I just want to curl up into a ball, bury my head in the pillows while watching documentaries on YouTube. But I can't. Because as soon as I get comfy, I have to shit. I can ignore the urges, but only at my own peril. As in, do I really want to take a shower and do laundry? I can avoid all of that if I just make it to the bathroom on time. FML. Otherwise, life has been ho-hum. Nothing to report other than my gastrointestinal system is fucking me out the ass. Literally.
  18. I took a walk this morning. It had just rained and there was a nice breeze. I feel like I have purpose. I've been contemplating zen and what that means to me lately. Is it just a calming peace? Anyway, my chihuahua chased a rabbit into some hedges. She got stuck and I had to spend about 10 minutes untangling her from the base of a twisty old shrub. Silly dog.
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