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Woodsy

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About Woodsy

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    Strong Minded
  • Birthday 03/06/1948

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  • Gender
    Female
  • Location
    Northwest Pennsylvania
  • Interests
    Reading everything, enjoying retirement with my husband in our little house in the woods, loving my three adult children.
  • More About Me
    I'm in my 60s, a wife, mother, and now, ex-christian. I was raised Roman Catholic and then became a full-blown born-again Christian. In the past year, I started my de-conversion and it has been a very bumpy ride.

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  • Still have any Gods? If so, who or what?
    A free thinker!
  1. Me,too,DataLady. And welcome! It's been a year and a half since I started my deconversion and prayer was the first hurdle. When I realized I couldn't believe in xianity any longer, I couldn't pray and I thought I'd be damned. It was a scary time but I got over it and found that life goes on whether you pray or not. Thanks for your extimony!
  2. I like that last comment: I have nothing to prove and everything to discover. Exactly, and how wonderful! WELCOME!!
  3. Saw this quote the other day.... "Courage is the ability to reclaim your life by standing up to your imaginary fears." I think all of us ex-c's are in this quest for courage to some degree, standing up to imaginary fears. I know I am and I hope that my courage can grow as I reclaim my life.
  4. Welcome, Ginko, and thanks for your post. It has helped me immensely. I am one of the "oldies" here and have left xianity over a year ago. As I was reading your post, the part that hit me square between the eyes is your statement about wanting to fit in. Another "ah-ha" moment for me. That totally describes my many years of various forms of xianity from roman catholicism to born-again, bible-thumping, believer. I have spent most of my life trying to fit in and be accepted instead of just being myself. So now, at the ripe age of 66, I'm in the process of becoming my true self with all it's bumps and bruises. And I'm learning that it's all ok. The old "brainwashing" comes back now and then to haunt me. But I'm learning how to stand up to it. Again, thanks for your excellent post and looking forward to alot more.
  5. Thanks Woodsy. My gawd hon, even I go back to read my own letter to keep reminding me every time the fear of hell comes back to haunt me. (which it still does) I still go through periods where I wonder to myself, ''What if I'm wrong''. So many on Ex-c seem to get 100% free of these fears but I'm not sure if that will ever happen to me. This makes taking my last breath even more terrifying. When my time is up, I would love so much to let go of this earth in peace and I am so afraid that I will die in terror because the thought of hell stills plagues my mind. Sometimes brainwashing takes forever to heal it seems. I't's one of the reasons why I still love to read here everyday. Just about every post helps. The newcomers letters show me that I was not the only one in the world to question the christian god. The older I get, and the more I learn about evolution, the more I can see that humans needed to create a god of genocide to justify what they did to each other. The fight on earth still goes on between power hungry human animals. Humans made god in their image. To me? The bible is a book about human behavior. Humans passed the buck and called it 'Yahweh' which means ''I am that I am''. That describes power-hungry humans to me...... 'all powerful', greedy, self centered, smart and stupid....Lol The god of love never existed. It's so good to see you Woodsy. I hope you are staying around for awhile. You always brighten my day!! Big hug to you hon! I'll be around from now on. Got sidetracked a little with caring for my Dad and selling his house, etc. I now realize that I need this group to keep me on track. It was hard this summer. You mentioned you have been studying evolution. Can you recommend some "light" material to read for this old brain? I try to read some stuff but, hell, it flies so fast off this gray head and bounces away! Just don't seem to get alot of that "heavy" stuff. It is so good to talk with you, sweetie. Missed doing that. You always lift me up when I get down.
  6. Hi sweetie! I went back and read your letter which was the first thing I read when I came here almost a year and a half ago. Your letter really defines who I am and who I was. It also gives definition to my struggles. Thank you so much for putting into words what is in my heart and mind. It gives me strength to go on.
  7. You are right! My anxiety is just as you described, thinking that I got it all wrong and I'm going to hell. But when I replay all those facts about how Paul's letters were written before the gospels and he invented the religion. How the gospel writers were not Matthew, Mark, Luke and John. How the OT stories were based on bronze age myths. Etc., etc. And not to mention all the contradictions throughout the whole book. Yep, I'll start a list of easily remembered "bare bones" facts to help when the old anxiety acts up again. Thanks a bunch, Ellinas!
  8. I have a question for you guys....during your deconversion, has anyone experienced moments of anxiety or panic attacks? This summer has been very stressful and I'm experiencing anxiety like never before. I find myself thinking of death and worrying about everything. Asking myself all the "what if" questions. It's been a year and a half since I left christianity and those old, indoctrinated beliefs are still around, messing with my mind. I know I'll never go back to my former beliefs, just can't do that now. Thanks in advance for any responses.
  9. Thanks, Ellinas! It's good to be back. Looking forward to connecting with everyone again. Hope all is well with you.
  10. How is the deconverting going hon? Where do I start? It's been up and down mostly in between dealing with my 89 year old Dad. He stayed with us for awhile until we realized we were in over our heads. He is in a good, assisted living home near us. His dementia is getting worse. You might say that my deconversion was put on a back burner for awhile. I want to put it up front now. There are lots of things I want to share so we'll see. Thanks for asking, sweetie! I forgot to ask....how are things with you?
  11. How is the deconverting going hon? Where do I start? It's been up and down mostly in between dealing with my 89 year old Dad. He stayed with us for awhile until we realized we were in over our heads. He is in a good, assisted living home near us. His dementia is getting worse. You might say that my deconversion was put on a back burner for awhile. I want to put it up front now. There are lots of things I want to share so we'll see. Thanks for asking, sweetie!
  12. Hi, Margee!! Somehow I knew you'd be the first with a hug. Great to be back! Sending lots of those hugs back to you!
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