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About cb1500

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  • Birthday 03/14/1997

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    Cars/trucks/automotive stuff, engines, landscaping, camping, roadtrips.
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    Religion is a major source of anxiety and fear in my life, and the deconversion process hasn't been easy for me.
    I've been an Ex christian for a few years, and for a few reasons. One reason is that I finally decided to look into the teachings of the Bible, and have found them to be either complete nonsense, or horrifying. I was also convinced by religious teachings, that I had committed and "unforgivable" sin, and that I had no hope. It was when I came to the realization that nothing about God makes any sense, that I was willing to let this Christian nonsense go. I am disgusted by religion, especially Christianity, and the hypocrisy that goes along with it.

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  1. Thanks for the links. I actually have been officially diagnosed with OCD, and I will be joining a program to get help with it within the next few months.
  2. Thank you so much for the kind words. I've been feeling a lot better lately. I honestly thought that I wouldn't make it through this, but it seems like I have.
  3. Thanks. That's what I miss the most too. We started having trouble getting along a little bit before the religious shit became an issue, but that is what really divides us now. Just another reason to dislike religion.
  4. Just wanted to give a little update. The therapy and medication is definitely helping me stay positive. The intrusive religious thoughts seem to be getting less frequent and extreme. Unfortunately, I just had an argument about religion with my sister. The conversation started with us just trying to understand each other and get along better, but it ended up turning to religion. I tried really hard to be respectful, but she started using the same tired old apologist excuses, and it just went downhill from there. It would be really nice to get along with her better, I just don't know. Religious fundamentalists genuinely freak me out. On the plus side, I didn't have a major panic attack after the conversation like I would have before I started therapy. That does not change the fact that I still have a really strong negative reaction towards religion.
  5. Thanks. The past couple of days have been pretty good. I also just started therapy, and even the first session helped get me into a better mood. The sun came out today for like the first time in almost two weeks which helped as well. The last two weeks were just pure garbage, and I hope I never go that low again. I'm glad to hear that you, and so many people on here have been able to get over this fear. It's amazing how many helpful resources there are these days for people like us dealing with this crap.
  6. Well, I just got back from the group meetup. The people there were nice and supportive, and It was really good to be able to talk with people who have the same mindset. One of the group leaders is a former minister who's now an atheist, so that was very interesting to see. I don't feel quite as alone anymore.
  7. Yeah, you're right. I kind of have a hard time expressing emotions like that. Not too long ago, I probably wouldn't have even considered going to one of those groups to talk about anything, and I would have kept it all in.
  8. Not a problem at all, I will gladly share how it goes.
  9. I'm trying so hard to stop thinking about it, and I'm going to start surrounding myself with as many like minded people as possible. I just joined another atheist/freethinker meetup group that's local to me.
  10. My group meetup for Recovering from Religion is tomorrow, but I'm just feeling really crappy tonight. I'm extremely terrified about the blasphemy thing again and just feel stuck and hopeless. I don't really know what to say or why I'm posting this, but I'm honestly ready to just break down crying. I nearly passed out last night from a panic attack.
  11. I will certainly let all of you know how it goes.
  12. Thanks for the new replies. I was feeling a bit better for a while after the holidays, but the anxiety came back strong over the last week. Next Monday, I'm going to a Recovering From Religion group meetup ( which I'm nervous about since I've never been to anything like that), and my doctors appointment is a little over a week a way. I'm so sick of feeling like this and having two conflicting "voices" in my head. Agree 100%. I wouldn't be going through any of this If I wouldn't been taught that garbage to begin with.
  13. I was actually thinking about genesis yesterday. It certainly is comforting to realize that the entire bible falls apart without genesis and "original sin" being valid. This is a big part of my issue right now. My job involves landscaping and snow removal (I love being outside), and business has been really slow lately. That is giving me way too much time to think about this kind of stuff. Friends haven't been around, and there just isn't much going on right now. Thanks, I will definitely keep coming back. Nothing worse than feeling alone, and I really appreciate these replies.
  14. The way my teachers would go back and forth between saying "god loves you" and then mention the punishment of hell was extremely confusing, and probably traumatizing. Also, being reminded a million times of how "unclean" we are by teachers and pastors did quite a bit of damage to me. I'm hoping the medication gets rid of the intrusive thoughts. The last couple of days have been a little better at least. Exactly. There's nothing loving about it. I remember feeling pretty disturbed when my religious teachers would try to justify what happened in that story. Yeah, my mechanical interest started with lawnmowers at a very young age. I remember a time when I was trying to figure out how a certain type of automatic transmission works, and I absolutely couldn't fall asleep until I understood it completely. That's part of my problem I guess, not knowing something bothers me way too much. Honestly, messing around with cars and other mechanical stuff is probably what keeps me sane and distracted from other worries.
  15. I remember being very shy and anxious as a kid for no particular reason. Lots of things bothered me and freaked me out. I also remember having a lot of obsessive compulsive type of issues. Everything had to be done a certain way, or I'd be thinking about it for a week. Most people around me thought it was silly. These days, I still constantly second guess everything I do, whether it be the wording of a text message I'm about to send, or buying the right part for a car. There's got to be some kind of chemical imbalance going on. I think the shyness may just be part of my personality. As far as drama is concerned, there was definitely some drama from my mom. She had a tendency to overreact to things. Other than that, I've always felt very comfortable around my parents. They've always been very loving and supportive, and they were never really strict. My dad takes religion with a grain of salt. My mom, on the other hand, is more religious, and made me go to church and religious schools. The first time I heard the Adam and Eve story in kindergarten, it was honestly quite scary to me. I couldn't understand why we were being punished so severely because someone ate an apple. The idea of hell was extremely wrong and worrisome to me, even as a kid. There was a period of time when I felt it was necessary to carry a bunch of religious books and junk around with me when I was in grade school. That was part of that obsessive compulsive issue that I mentioned. I hope this all makes sense.
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