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    College alumni for six months looking for people who feel the same way. Been a Christian for five and half years now, and I am honestly fed up with it. Need people who get it.

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  1. What's sadder is that we live in a society like this. Where there is so much hurt and pain that we feel the need to rely on something like Christianity.
  2. Thoughts On Crying?

    Fair enough. My college group was a mixture of both. It wasn't a bad (shameful) thing to cry, but there was obviously an insistence on the 'proper' role of Manhood. Also, it was usually just in the context of small group or a worship service.
  3. Thoughts On Crying?

    It's bullshit. Plain and simple. Now, I agree that crying over everything is absurd (unless youre a child), the fact that men AND women are conditioned to treat crying as a weakness is stupid. Many people dont know how to manage their emotions as a result. Culture of stoicism. One of the refreshing things about Christianity at first was the allowance of tears among men. I cried my eyes out during some of those small groups. I keep thinking about the movie 'Fight Club' where this guy was so desperate to let his emotions out that he chose to attend support groups irrelevent to his life. That's fucked up commentary right there.
  4. I love my mother to death but hearing her 'praise God' for any little good thing that happens is just so stupidly annoying. I hate how 'God' gets off scot-free for every little thing. Please dont bother reminding me that God isnt actually real. Just assume I mean the idea of him. Im currently living at home with my mom, so I keep my opinions to myself. But man...part of what fuels me in the gym is just my hatred for the idea of God. If he exists, then why the hell does all of this shit and confusion exist? It's maddening. If I were to earn a great opportunity, God would get the majoriity of credit. How the hell does that work? Blows my mind.
  5. One of my favs was this: "Christ knows what it's like to suffer and you are in excellent company."
  6. The start of a wasted life?

    I was almost one of those young guys who threw their lives away as well. Two years ago, I was so sure I wanted to choose ministry as a profession. I was so sure that I chose to stay in my hick college town one year after graduating to really see if it was what I wanted to do. After becoming disillusioned from the faith, I realized how much of a life I could be having. My mom never supported my earlier inclinations to become a missionary. I see now that she was right. Deep down, I knew I didnt really want to be a missionary. I just felt guilty doing something else when 'soul-winning' was apparently the highest calling one could have. It bothers me that many of my old friends and acquaintances are stuck in that world. I'm glad I was able to see what a gigantic sham it all was. What's sadder is that many college freshman are about to move into that town being convinced to join 'small groups.' The next generation of brainwashing is becoming more powerful. This time, many young people are being fed up with "rules based" Christianity and jumping into "radical" Christianity. The relationship versus religion mindset. It's the same thing given a fresh coat of paint. It's sad to know that more and more college aged students will be suckered into it all. It was a nightmare to leave.
  7. Thoughts On Crying?

    Hi y'all. What are your thoughts on the act of crying? Many adult people (at least in America) seem to look down on it. Some say it's childish, especially for men. Many people are more accepting of women crying than men. I've heard the phrase: "Seeing grown men cry" used in a derogatory way. It seems that tears are only reserved for the most absolute of tragedies to be considered 'acceptable.' Nobody would bat an eye if you cried over a son or daughter dying. However, tears from a panic attack are a different story. This becomes more subtle because not everyone would understand this pain. I regularly fight the urge to cry all of the time. I'll let them flow when I'm by my absolute self, but in public...I never show them. My mom has shown negative connotations toward crying. While she's no stranger to tears during stressful times, they seem to be reserved ONLY for that. She'll often roll her eyes if a character cries during an apology (in a movie). This has made me hesitant to come to her with my emotional problems. I wish this society was different in handling their problems. We live in such a stoic society where we're told that tears are weak and children's stuff. I just don't get it. It causes a culture of repression. At what age did tears become a bad thing? The idea is absurd.
  8. Being weird for Jesus

    I'm still learning what it means to have boundaries with people. As a Christian, that didnt exist. All that mattered was showing 'the love of Christ.' I'm also learning that going on a simple date doesnt have to potentially lead to marriage. People CAN date just to have a good time. Back in church, you always needed a serious intent before dating anyone. This stifled me personally and made me neurotic as hell. LOL.
  9. After leaving the faith, I felt like I lost almost 5 years of maturity, if not more. I suddenly felt like a child, angry and frustrated at the world. Gone was my calm sense of self that everything was going to work out because of God. Instead, I struggle to regain my sanity on a daily basis. This affects me somewhat at my job as well. I'm learning to take it one day at a time. I'm realizing how much of a journey life really is. I won't wake up in a day and suddenly be 100 percent okay. As long as I'm at least 1 percent better each day, that's honestly enough. Exercise, focusing on hobbies/goals and self-improvement are the main ways I see out of this depressed funk I've been in all summer. Even if it's just for 30 minutes, stepping into the gym is a huge deal. Etc.
  10. Being weird for Jesus

    Tell me about it. I was hesitant to date anyone because I was afraid that it'd be scrutinized by the whole church. That's not a good way to live. I could never just feel comfortable talking to a woman out of fear of being 'judged' or monitored by a pastor. All of the women at church were closely watched by father-like pastors. I've been in small groups where guys 'confess' to spending too much time alone with a girl. This is out of fear of 'committing adultery' and temptation to sleep with her. (Usually in the context of a romance). Pretty stupid stuff.
  11. Reflection

    For me, it was not only coming to this website, but realizing that the facts about evolution made too much sense. I questioned a god who was willing to allow so much seeming evidence for it if he was against it. We have scientists who have dedicated their lives to researching evolution. Why wouldn't God just perform a miracle to shut them up? Why would God just allow so much confusion to blind us to the possible truth. The answer for me? It was all just a big fat lie.
  12. Asshole Makes Me Stand Up In Church

    That's awesome that you attend for your mom's sake. I can say a very convincing prayer just to comfort my mom. Assholes will be assholes. If the pastor is reasonable, I'd talk to him and let him know that his actions are alienating people from coming to the church. If he responds rudely or dismissively, then either suck it up (sadly) or maybe even talk to your mom about it. Does she care that you choose not to stand? In my college church group, many students had different ways of worship. (Some kneeled on the ground, some simply stood up, some laid on the ground, others danced..etc) Your mom seems pretty relaxed to not say anything to you about reading a non-Biblical book during service. Does she believe you're there on your own accord?
  13. New Game: You Might be an Ex-Christian if.....

    You might be an ex-christian when you can spot a manipulative 'invite' to church from a mile away. Friend: "Hey man, I'm going to church and I'd really like you to come. (No options to actually say no). Possible responses: 1.) You know how I feel about that. 2.) No, I'm (insert excuse) 3.) No thank you and in the future, please don't ask me again. If I go, it'll be on my own accord. 4.) Fuck off. Most of the time I'll either give a 2 or 3 response. You'd really have to piss me off badly to get a 4.
  14. New Game: You Might be an Ex-Christian if.....

    Stuff like that is what I went nuts for in college. (Shaking my head)
  15. New Game: You Might be an Ex-Christian if.....

    If you roll your eyes when people praise God for your good fortune, you might be an ex-Christian.