Not sure if I posted in this thread when I made this account. That was several months ago. Its taken me this long to make peace with the fact that indeed, I'm an ex.
I still struggle, I still wish I believed. I remember reading something that someone once said, a famous person I believe - that he "missed Jesus". I know what he meant, now.
I've researched, read and re-researched and it's just not something I'm on board with anymore.
I was raised Christian, and as a kid I even led a bible study. I went to church/Sunday school every week and felt such peace at times, especially when I would pray.
Now Im searching for that same peace but from a different place, I guess.