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About Deathportal365

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    Psychology, rock music, comedy, classic cartoons
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    I am in the process of deconverting. I have been a "lurker" and "waverer" for a few months now.

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  • Still have any Gods? If so, who or what?
    Unsure as yet, but leaning towards no!
  1. What Are You Listening To? (Music)

    Not gonna lie, the Priest show was painful. I almost left. I had intended to wear ear plugs, and forgot them. So I just got punished. I think it was one of those deals where every band was the louder than the band before it, and they headlined so they had to put it over the top. Testament opened, then Motorhead was louder, and Heaven and Hell was even louder. Priest turned it up to 11. As I age, I find that I enjoy playing music at home more. I can play it loud if I like, or not. And I don't have to deal with hordes of drunk people and overpriced food. Ha.
  2. What Are You Listening To? (Music)

    @Citsonga I will definitely have to check it out! I heard a track or two on Sirius XM and liked what I heard. Incidentally I saw Judas Priest about 10 years ago, and it was without a doubt the LOUDEST show I have ever seen. Even louder than Manowar (whom I think were at one point in the Guiness Book as the world's loudest band). \m/
  3. Things Fundies Say On Facebook

    Here is yet another one from the usual poster in my feed. Below the picture, the original poster who shared it wrote "you know what.....Fu#k it. #Team God."
  4. my thoughts for today

    Seriously! I think back on some of the stuff I used to say and believe and cringe. Here's a good one: the ol' Pascal's wager: "I'd rather spend my whole life believing there is a god and find out there isn't than live my whole life believing there isn't a god and find out there is." At this point, I'm like, if there is an all-powerful god, just make yourself plainly known. Not this fuzzy crap about cultivating a relationship, or studying his "instruction" manual and finding the "right church." Funnily enough, I went to a Southern Baptist college for undergrad and the old joke was that "the Word" was slang for your pillow. So "studying the word" on Sunday was sleeping in during church!
  5. my thoughts for today

    I think it's a scam because it tells you that an invisible entity--one none of us, Christian or not, have ever seen--is more important than your family, whom you are charged with providing for and raising. At the end of the day, no matter how much you pray, it will be yourself, or another human, who will do whatever work is required. Take the case of a person who has cancer: if they beat cancer, it won't be because the invisible entity rained down blessings. It will be because of highly trained doctors, nurses, surgeons, medical science, and one's own perseverance. I'll go so far as to say "God" isn't a tangible entity known by a single person on this earth. Yet "his" followers will undoubtedly substitute their own idolatry for reality when reality is uncomfortable. THAT is why Christianity is a scam.
  6. Things Fundies Say On Facebook

    Here's another one from my childhood friend-turned-fundie:
  7. my thoughts for today

    You're welcome! I occasionally just post things here that rattle around in my head for a while. I'm glad when they resonate with others! And, thank you for your condolences. I should have paused for a moment and offered them to you for the loss of your sister. On that subject, in the time since she passed, how often did you hear "praise Jesus! He healed Jennifer!" or something to that effect? I heard that a lot after Josh died. Now I view death as a common, unfortunate outcome associated with cancer. And whether there is something beyond this life or not, I find the notion of giving some absentee entity praise and glory in the midst of profound grief to be missing the mark, to say the least.
  8. if you speak it, it happens - the dark side

    I was working at a Barnes & Noble when that book came out. Supposedly Christian old ladies were buying it in droves because Oprah featured it. Man, those ladies could rival the Bill O'reilly/Mark Levin crowd in their vitriol if you ran out of whatever book Oprah was promoting at the moment. I remember a bunch of old ladies buying "A Million Little Pieces" because Oprah featured it. Only to find out later most of the story was made up.
  9. Thoughts on Jack Chick?

    I remember one I read when I was a kid where a saved man went to heaven but was chastised by God and reminded of the people he didn't witness to who died and went to hell. I can remember feeling a twinge of guilt that people could literally suffer eternally because I didn't tell them about Jesus, and their torment would be on me. A couple of years ago I found one while digging through stuff at my parents' house that said psychology was evil and group therapy was a tool of Satan. Yeeesh.
  10. my thoughts for today

    I will plan to read Kendall's story when I can. These thoughts have been on my mind for a while. I too am still closer to the beginning of the deconversion process than the end. Although, if I'm honest with myself, the wheels fell off the wagon when my best friend died of cancer in 2010, at age 29. I believed--as did he--that God would heal him. We prayed endlessly that he would pull through. If the prayer did anything good, it was this: he and I both kept a positive attitude through it all, and he fought to live with everything he had. No thanks to "god" needed. My friend's fighting spirit was his own. His sister died almost exactly a year ago. Their sickly, medicated parents still believe in the power of prayer to heal (and claim they've seen it), that god can and will intervene and circumvent inevitability because he loves them. I want to tell them, if Christianity were true, you'd still have to acknowledge that you have lost more children than god. When you realize just how pervasive human tragedy and suffering is, the "great sacrifice" of Christianity is minimized. Many, many people have sacrificed far more than one person being executed (who supposedly rose anyway!)...if Jesus was really crucified, it wasn't any more of an ultimate sacrifice than anyone else's. It was likely just another day.
  11. I just realized...

    That Easter is on April Fool's day this year. Ha!
  12. Things Fundies Say On Facebook

    Thoughts on this one? Why does god need to be involved at all?
  13. My Answer Was No!

    I haven't told my parents either. That's a tough one, balancing the desire to be honest and authentic with also keeping the peace. They are getting older and my relationship with them has not always been the greatest, but it is the best it has ever been now, and I genuinely look forward to holidays and spending time with them now. I don't want to rock the boat, nor do I want to break their hearts.