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REM123

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  1. Hi @Kdeaustin, Thank you for sharing your story Like many other people who've replied, I too can relate to your confusion, fear, and anger as you begin transitioning out of Christianity. It's very disorienting and anxiety inducing to begin challenging long-held beliefs about reality as you've known it to be, especially when people that you love (and who love you) still ascribe to those beliefs and tell you that you're just being tested by God or tempted by the devil (neither of which are true, at all). De-converting and healing isn't a linear process, especially if you're someone
  2. @DanForsman, I just saw your reply from back in June! How the time flies! As usual, you've given me a lot to consider and mull over. I imagine that I'll reply in length after chewing on the points and suggestions you made. I just wanted to let you know that your response reached me, resonates, and to re-iterate that I appreciate your thoughtfulness and shared wisdom. Thank you and I hope this finds you doing well
  3. Hi @Joshpantera, I've done that before, but suppose giving myself credit and believing in the capabilities of my own mind is like a muscle that can be strengthened with repeated exercise. Thanks for the reminder and suggestion
  4. Hey Axelle, apparently we do! I can understand your misgivings about prayer and the cognitive dissonance that would occur if one of your prayers was answered while those of others (many in dire need as your quote suggests) weren't, and the questions that would naturally arise. That falls under the same category as having to accept that if god is in control of all things, then he is responsible for the bad as well as the good in the world and that he's worthy of praise regardless of if he decides to answer prayers or prevent unfortunate circumstances because his ways are above our ways, he i
  5. (note: if you see this twice it's because I accidentally posted this in my introductory thread, but it's meant for this one!) @DanForsman thanks for seeking me out and sharing such thought provoking and supportive insight. I saw your response last night and started reading about Harry and his family and decided to I needed to wait until this morning when I was no longer tired to really digest, particularly the bit where you said, “In spite of all these important considerations I think you are avoiding and shielding your christian experience from the very significant responsibility
  6. oops, posted that in the wrong thread!
  7. @DanForsman thanks for seeking me out and sharing such thought provoking and supportive insight. I saw your response last night and started reading about Harry and his family and decided to I needed to wait until this morning when I was no longer tired to really digest, particularly the bit where you said, “In spite of all these important considerations I think you are avoiding and shielding your christian experience from the very significant responsibility it has for your present state. What exactly is the crime you have committed? Why is it that you feel reluctant to turn to the friends your
  8. Thanks for your reply, @TruthSeeker0! Yeah, religion can definitely cause you to see things through rose colored glasses, and make life feel a little less heavy. You don't feel you're carrying the full weight of existence because God is "in control" or "has a plan." When that rug is pulled from under your feet, reality changes. I can understand how you felt your friend had grown negative and critical with their changed world view. I was just so used to being around super positive people. And we were always trying to lift other people up or help others fulfill their potential (ultimatel
  9. Thanks for the thoughtful response @knightcore. It made me feel a bit better the other day and I appreciate it! I think your assessment of what prayer is is in alignment with my own. Now I just need to get to that place of accepting it as their good thoughts, when appropriate. I'm sorry that you have to deal with your mom praying for you not to be gay. I have friends in similar situations and can only imagine how difficult that can be, even when you've accepted that your parents don't understand or fully accept who you are. I'm glad you're that comfortable being yourself and have chosen to
  10. Thanks for the reply @MOHO. Yeah, it's tough because church is such a big part of people's lives who are invested in one. It's impossible to have certain friends without the influence of church, even if those friends aren't preaching at you or judging you. The same way that I wouldn't be who and where I am without my experience or relationships in church, neither would they. That's part of the confusion for me, I guess.
  11. I guess I also miss believing that there was a God to pray to who could heal, whether it was me or someone else.
  12. I'm not sure what it is that I'm feeling or what I'm looking for in posting this. But I recently stopped going to therapy after two years and can only talk to my boyfriend so much about this stuff. I apologize in advance if this is a little jumbled or there's a bunch of run-on sentences! I'm a freelancer and worked with a crew that I work with a handful of times a year today. I first met them when I was starting the de-conversion process, which completely fucked with my head. I met them through someone at my former church and most of the crew were active in church in a nearby town.
  13. I too tried to lay hands on and heal and animal. I was at a park once and saw a squirrel with paralyzed hind legs that made me really, really sad. The part that's embarrassing as I now reflect on this, wasn't just the fact that I actually tried to lay hands on it and couldn't (he out maneuvered me with just two legs), but that I was so heartbroken and had a "revelation" in that moment. I seriously thought that God had used the squirrel to show me how much he loved people, ached for their restoration (as I ached for the squirrel's), and how he couldn't heal them because they were too afraid to
  14. @DanForsman I happened upon another one of your responses on the site and saw that you're a vegan. I hope the video that I posted didn't come across as insensitive! There's definitely a scene in there (aside from her eating bacon) that might be off-putting depending on your reasons for opting for a vegan diet. I just love hearing Razie talk about her experience coming into her own (especially at such a later stage in life) and starting to think for herself. She's intentional with her words and has a lot of spunk! But I wanted to apologize in case that was grotesque or offensive in any way.
  15. Thanks @Lost for your encouragement and comments Writing in one form or another has always been cathartic for me. I can’t say that I’m not ashamed of any of the feelings I experienced as a believer, but I have to acknowledge that for most of my time in church I felt safe, loved, encouraged, and nurtured. I guess I’ve been on a journey of becoming more and more myself over the last twelve years and church was an active and relevant part of that process. It’s hard for me to be super judgmental (although I definitely do have my judgments) about that time in my life because I was supp
  16. Thanks for all of your thoughtful replies and warm welcomes @DanForsman, I appreciate the encouragement and support resources. I’ll definitely check out RFR’s website. I actually googled “ex-Christian meetings” in my area the day that I wrote my initial post, only to have Christian churches (including my former one lol) pop up. I opted to engage on this site after that. I must admit, I’m a little hesitant to jump into another community or in-person support group and regularly bond with people over our shared experiences leaving our faith behind. It feels like it could be a little
  17. I'm not sure if this should be posted here or in testimonies, but seeing as this is my first post I'm opting to post it here. My apologies if this isn't the place for it! This site, therapy, and new friends have helped me battle guilt and anxiety the last few years since I left my former church and my faith in an all loving God behind. I've read testimonies on this site off and on and only recently decided to create a profile. I enjoy writing and being reflective, but for some reason, typing out the chronological sequence of events that led me from skepticism, to being fully submer
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