NeverHealed52Years

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About NeverHealed52Years

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    Doubter
  • Birthday 06/20/1956

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    Female
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    Music, Art, AstroPhysics, Color booking, Sailboat Racing, Archeology
  • More About Me
    Short Version: Have decided to look at reality and stop blaming myself God ignoring and doing nothing about my physical suffering. And find the truth. Was Severely Abused Mentally, Physically, Sexually, Emotionally by both parents and was a very Neglected Child resulting in Numerous Social/Coping, Emotional, Mental and Physical Problems: Overcame all but the Physical problems to become an intelligent, productive, contributing member of society in spite of it all by my late 20's. Fervently and sincerely100%, all-in no matter what Pursued Christianity and God. Mostly but not totally just for the help with the whole mess. Especially overcoming, preventing, reversing, healing numerous physical problems that even my do all I can self care help and high quality medical help could not fix. Not one prayer answered and NO Help from God or Jesus or Holy Spirit in 52 years.

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  • Still have any Gods? If so, who or what?
    Not Sure Have Experienced Evil and Love Entities

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  1. I am overwhelmed because for the FIRST time in 62 years of life I am free to say, think, feel, be and do ANYTHING. And for the first time in my life I can finally find out  WHO I AM. And the icing on the cake!!!! Without all that wasted time reading, studying, listening to the bible and Christian teachings and without all that time and energy wasted praying and trying to figure out what I need to say/do/believe differently (because it isn't working) and  be so guarded and controlled in every way...........

     

    I, yes... ME, has time and energy  to learn ART, Music, Astrophysics, Neuroscience, Life On The Space Shuttle, Gardening, Wildlife,  EVERY other religion/belief system/spiritual practice that is and ever was. And so much more. My public library is awesome...I have found all kinds of DVD's on every subject in the world.  There are DVD series called The Great Courses done by college professors and other professionals, but not dry, boring or overly detailed like taking a college course.  (and no Tests, homework, Class Attendnace  ) They have teaching series on many subjects.

     

    Before deciding to deconvert I started with The Great Courses Bible and Early Christianity  series  by Bart Ehrman and others .  Then  Buddhism, Hindusim  and others.  And about Mythology by Joseph Campbell, Truth about Noahs Ark (they built a ROUND one) by National Geographic. Teachings like these helped hasten my deconversion. Now I am past all that and getting the fun Great Courses that show and tell me about the Great Masterpieces in Louvre/Museums of Art/National Art Galleries/other places I will never be able to travel to see. And many other fun subjects.

     

    But the most important part is I am a ME!!  And it is for the first time OK to be a person!  And the turmoil, chaos and Voices are mostly  gone.

    1. ThereAndBackAgain

      ThereAndBackAgain

      Congratulations!  Glad to see I’m not the only one who loves The Great Courses!

    2. DestinyTurtle

      DestinyTurtle

      It's so good to hear that!! WOO FREEDOM! At times like these Steven Curtis Chapman's "I'm free" plays ironically in my head!