MarieMonteiro

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    I became a Christian when I was 19, I am now 25 and Christianity has done a lot of damage to my mental health. I am looking for support and help to get out of this belief system.

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  1. I will, thank you! I have read a few things already about dating etc. I am digging in the old testament just now, I was more focused on the new until recently. But I will have a look at the YouTube channel you sent. No offense, don't worry. I understand that for somebody who has the mental skills to get out easily, it might sound weird that somebody else struggles so much. It's like with everything else, for example, I have a very good memory, and I have difficulties to understand how some people cannot memorise anything. Same thing. But thank you for all your advices anyway. And that's what I appreciate with this site, is that many things are being debunked, it's great for people like me who are in the process.
  2. Thank you everybody for all your comments. I would tend to agree with @TruthSeeker0 on this. I have been reading some testimonies, and some people just leave the faith without looking back, some others remain in fear for years. I wish I could be of the first group of people, but I have been struggling so much, that I believe I am part of the latter group, unfortunately. Hence I am helped professionally, but it'll be a process. Hopefully I'll reach your level of certainty soon. I have been reading about Daniel, and I have been looking into this gematria. But what got me out of the doubt for this, is simply that the calendar the person used is the Jewish one, which is defective. So that solves it. Anyway thank you all for your advices, I appreciate.
  3. Thank you for your answer. I am already being treated (medication, etc). And I am not here to get help for my mental health. But to get opinions on things in the Bible that troubles me, from people who've already been down this road. But thank you anyway.
  4. Okay... That was weird.
  5. You still did not explain what was a humongous fungie, so I still have no clue what is it that you suspect that I am. I'd love to know though, honestly.
  6. Well, that could be the explanation, but that is actually the opposite. I want Christianity to be wrong so much. Not to get too much into details, but I insulted the holy spirit after two years of depression because of Pentecostal teachings that screw me up. Found out about the blasphemy of the holy spirit a few months after I cursed it. Ever since, I am not living anymore, I am anguished and suicidal all day long. So that is why those codes terrify me, because I am very afraid of Christianity being right.
  7. I have no clue what is a humongous fungus... If it is some English slang, I am French, so English is not my native tongue. And why would you think I am humongous fungus? Whatever that means..
  8. Thank you for your answer. I know that if I was rational, those things would not really matter. But I am terrified. I have this "what if", all the time... Especially about Bible codes or gematria. I am afraid that somebody somewhere finds a code or a gematria sooooo precise, that only divine inspiration could justify it. Unfortunately I cannot check that. Recently I discovered a orthodox Jew, a kabbalist, who believes in Bible code and gematria and that led him to believe in Jesus. Those things freak me out.
  9. Let me try to put it back in black : "Daniel 12:11 - And from the time the daily sacrifice was removed and the silent abomination placed, is one thousand, two hundred, and ninety.This is the past in the past tense, even for Daniel. A little bit of arithmetic from both history and the Qabbalists will validate this fact: egyptan exile .... 210 from exodus to first temple .... 480 first temple.... 210 babylonian exile .... 70 second temple .... 420 Subtotal : 1590 the daily sacrifice was removed 6 years before the destruction of the second temple ..... -6 + Verse 11 of Daniel .... 1290 sub total (1590) - 6 = 1584 1584 + 1290 = 2874 total A = 2874 So, now you may ask, "Why all this arithmetic?" The critical clue is provided by another verse:Daniel 8:14 - And he said unto me: "Until evening and morning, two thousand and three hundred, and the holy ones shall be exonerated."Now, the Hebrew word used here for eveningis - erev, and the Hebrew word used here for morning is - boqer. The total numerical value (Gematria) for these two words adds up to 574. So, let's do one more bit of arithmetic: gematria of Hebrew word morning + evening .... 574 number from Daniel 8:4 .... 2300 Total B = 2874Behold! Voila! There it is: Total A = Total B." what is going on here is that this person started counting the years from the exile of Jacob to Egypt. Plus she added the numbers Daniel gives in verse 11 AND she removed 6 years because Daniel precises that it is when the daily sacrifice was removed, which happened 6 years before the destruction of the second temple. She then goes to verse 8 and adds the gematria plus the number Daniel gives and tadam, she gets the same result. How do you debunk this thing? What would you say that makes it invalid or not a proof of the inspiration of the Bible? I am a young deconvert and any of those kinds of things raises my anxiety level.
  10. Ah sorry, it was already like that when I copied it and did not find a way to remove it. I know it's annoying.
  11. Hello, This appeared on my facebook, and I would like some opinions from ex Christian on it: "Daniel 12:11 - And from the time the daily sacrifice was removed and the silent abomination placed, is one thousand, two hundred, and ninety.This is the past in the past tense, even for Daniel. A little bit of arithmetic from both history and the Qabbalists will validate this fact: Egyptian exile.......................210 From Exodus to First Temple....480 First Temple.........................210 Babylonian Exile......................70 Second Temple.....................420 --------------------------------- Sub-total..........................1,590 The daily sacrifice was removed 6 years before the destruction of the Second Temple..................................(6) --------------------------------- Sub-total...........................1,584 Add 1,290 from v. 11............1,290 --------------------------------- Total A..............................2,874 ===========================So, now you may ask, "Why all this arithmetic?" The critical clue is provided by another verse:Daniel 8:14 - And he said unto me: "Until evening and morning, two thousand and three hundred, and the holy ones shall be exonerated."Now, the Hebrew word used here for eveningis - erev, and the Hebrew word used here for morning is - boqer. The total numerical value (Gematria) for these two words adds up to 574. So, let's do one more bit of arithmetic: Gematria of Hebrew "evening"+"morning"................ ...574 Number from Daniel 8:14......................................2,300 -------------------------------------------------------- Total B........................................................2,874 ============================================Behold! Voila! There it is: Total A = Total B." How do you respond to that?...
  12. Thank you! That helps. Do you know if she was an orthodox Jew (before being a Christian) or if she went to yeshiva or studied with a rabbi? I would be very curious to hear about someone who got out of it. I searched online but could find no testimony. The very few teachings I saw were so deep in their meanings (gematria, hidden prophecies, etc) that I was impressed. But, I am not a skeptical person, on the opposite, I am of the super gullible kind. Ugh.
  13. Hello everybody, The title of this question does not describe exactly what my question is about, but I could not put it any better way. So my question is, has any of you ever been to the messianic, hebrew branch of Christianity, or even noahide or orthodox jew, studied with a great rabbi, went into deep, deep meanings of the Bible (hidden prophecies, Kabbalah, gematria etc) and still rejected everything afterward and became an agnostic/atheist? Thank you
  14. What types of experiences? Just like the one you hear in Christian churches with "God told me" and it happens in such a way that it could only be a higher spiritual power?
  15. Thank you all for your answers. Do you have examples of people from other religions experiencing things like that as well? I have been searching online but I always end up on Christian testimonies. If you had examples that would help me! Thanks!