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PurpleLilac

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PurpleLilac last won the day on November 17 2018

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    TX
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    People,politics,Spanish
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    Wife,mom of three.

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  • Still have any Gods? If so, who or what?
    Sometimes I still talk to God,whoever that is.

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  1. I used to think it was all probably a big hoax for tin hat reasons. Now I really don’t know what to believe. I do know that the “the end of the world is coming” is very familiar and not in a good way. I’m so tired of hearing that dire warning my entire life.
  2. For me, leaving my fundy church did lead me to exploring other ways to have a belief in god. I went to an episcopal church for awhile. And now,I’m content to live my life without god or religion altogether. I can always try something later if I want to. Freedom is a beautiful thing.
  3. As I generally do,with my family. I was in good spirits and the elder who saw me and looked down only dampened them temporarily. My husband and I hold our school age children during the worship time and I tried to think about other things while the music played as I usually do. I’m not sure what the pastor said after them but I remember thinking “I hope my kids aren’t paying attention to this.” Then there was this baptism testimony thing and the woman said she was broken and could put all her sins on jesus and be clean. The terrible memories rose up to find me and my husband leaned over
  4. It’s a mystery to me right now. I liked Rob Bells “What Is the Bible “ very much when I first started deconstructing religion. He says that the library of books were written by people in their own time and space. Even that little bit of reality was a lot for me last year. I was used to thinking of the books as holy and divinely inspired etc. But then, further research led me to interesting ideas like tribalism,economic and religious splits in Canaan that may have led to the fabrication of the Exodus. The Gospels May have been created and compiled as a deliberate effort to help the Jewish peopl
  5. If you were exposed to Adventures Odyssey growing up,the Christians were kind and well-mannered,honest people. The non-Christians were rude,dishonest and rationalized immature,selfish decisions with phrases like “if it feels good,do it.” That taught me to avoid anything that felt good (is it any wonder Pentecostals lost their mind during worship in an effort to Feeeeeeel Something?) My parents always hired Christians to fix their house,babysit their kids and anything else they needed. I did the same thing up until a year ago because all that brainwashing convinced me Christians were safer
  6. My family lives in a northern state. Dad: We’re the frozen chosen,we get another 5” of snow today. Uncle: Well,we thaw out quickly in eternity. Dad: I’m so glad I belong to Jesus. Me: *posts screenshot of weather* Jesus loves TX more.
  7. Well. We went to the initial meeting where we talked about our backgrounds and our marriage for an hour with a counselor. When it was my turn,I could see the man trying to hold compassion for me and take in my trauma while also holding onto his own worldview. I remember doing the same on occasion. My husband feels that when he talks about his faith,I attack him. And that’s important for me to know because I thought he was simply listening to my impassioned thoughts on whatever it was. Young earth creationism briefly came up because it’s very important to him. I commented that I feel
  8. Weezer,your comments tie into an above poster who mentioned that I am my own god now. I’m learning to be kind to myself. To trust that I can make good choices. My husband is still tied in at least some way to the doctrine of “you are broken” and sin nature. He can’t fully trust himself under that weight. How can he be at peace with his wife deciding I can trust myself?
  9. Your replies are very helpful and I carefully took it in. There is so very much we share in our marriage beyond religion. Meanwhile,I continue to learn how to be kind and patient with myself. My fear has been growing as well as his. He believes in the slippery slope fallacy that if I have no foundation,I am suspectible to doing anything at all if I think it’s my truth at some point. He said that one night and I saw the fear in his eyes. It doesn’t help that my best friend is going through a divorce. I long for the rebuilding of trust between us.
  10. I want to resurrect this as it’s been over three months and I think my husband’s grief and sadness is just growing. We start marriage counseling on Monday because I want to grow old with him. I watched Seth’s “letter to Christian spouse” again above and it just tears at my heart. Last month,my daughter asked me about hell and Satan and I sought to soothe her fears and hopefully hand her a more peaceful,progressive version of Christianity (that she can leave or take as she wills). The tension between us grows as 2020 begins to come into view and politics and Christianity intertwine
  11. Reading this thread helped me today. It’s been about nine months since I woke up and realized I wasn’t a Christian anymore. The main thing that has helped me with full deconversion is that life is pretty normal. People don’t turn into salt. No one is manifesting demons. Really bad things happen in this world regardless of your religion. People are kind and caring and atheists. People are terrible and narcissist and religious. Normal,everyday life doesn’t line up with all the bullshit I was taught. And my increased happiness is undeniable. Lack of guilt and shame and depression and
  12. It was an A/G college as well,yup, Still paying it off.
  13. Wow,I selfishly wish you were still in TX,I would love to hang out with you. I too had a slow deconversion and shed pentecostal xianity last year. I hope you post more often.
  14. I am so ready to never walk in those doors again. But I love my husband and it’s a slow slow ripping of the bandaid. I go most Sundays with him. He knows I can only handle so much. Our family is our shared number one priority and it’s a delicate dance on Sundays.
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