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  1. Hi Ex-Pastor. I applaud your courage, and how dignified you have handled yourself. I hope this will be a time of healing for you, and a chance to re-examine the world for what it is. It's still a wonderful feeling to be able to say "I don't know" when bombarded with questions from christians who believe they have all the answers. I see it in their eyes as I'm saying it since deep inside, they know that is the most truthful answer to many of life's mysteries. I wish you all the best in your new found life! Kevin:
  2. I hear you Spaceman. I was embarassed to admit I was a christian. Now I find myself even more embarassed to call myself an atheist. It's not quite so embarassing as listening to christian jargon like that airbourne pastor you spoke to. I am constantly interupting my wife during a conversation, asking her to explain what certain christian jargon (henceforth known as CJ) like "slain in the spirit" actually means. Of course she knows that I *know what it means*, but as christians we never really questioned these strange phrases. Anyway, welcome and I look forward to hearing more stuff from you. Kevin
  3. Hans. I can only add my feelings of sadness and admiration, in the way you have handled this whole painful episode in your life. Reading your story just makes me angry the way christians are told to expect their prayers to be answered, but are not given rational reasons when this doesn't happen. Take care, and lots of love and hugs to your family. Kevin:
  4. I am currently reading Joseph Campbell's The Power of Myth. This is a great book which explains the myths about various religions from different cultures. He is an academic, and it takes a while for me to understand what he is trying to say, but I am impressed with his grasp on life and its mysteries. Kevin:
  5. Hi Willy. I hope you are doing fine and stronger from the trials life has brought you. Your honest questions have kept you searching for answers, and have brought you where you are today. My thoughts are with you. Kevin:
  6. If that's the case, then I don't feel so bad Pitchu. There are indeed wonderful people who do good deeds for no other reason than to be kind. I can see that one of the reasons god was created was to *help* us not to be so selfish, and for some people that is not a bad thing. Kevin:
  7. I see what you are saying here SN. One of the things I have come to realize is that I will not find peace by arguing about the non-existence of god. Especially if christianity is to be a chapter in my life that I put behind me. I meet my old christian friends, and immediately my defenses go up, and I'm prepared to do battle. My sadness when I look at the world has nothing to do with god, but for some reason he seems to get the blame! Time to move on (mentally) I think. Kevin:
  8. Although I know this to be very true, part of me wishes I was still a christian. I could watch the atrocities on TV, switch off and know that god would make it right. It was all part of his plan. Pain now, peace later. Rather like going to the dentist. I would so love to be proved wrong right now. That god, any god, would come to me in the quiet of the night and tell me that everything is going to be alright. I would not need to know any more than that. I would be a happy man. I would rejoice for everyone. Instead, I have this intense feeling of sadness and emptiness inside me. I hope it will pass soon. Kevin:
  9. It takes a leap on *no faith* to finally admit after that last miniscule drop of hope has gone, and the excuses have ceased to work their magic, that if christianity doesn't make sense, then it really doesn't make any sense. Kevin:
  10. I’m so glad that I am not the only one who feels like this. My departure from Christianity has left me feeling lonely and isolated. A few Christian friends still keep in touch, but I feel as though I have Aids. A big part of my life has now ended, so I am trying to make the best of what I have left. I know that I am wallowing in self pity, but I’m quite enjoying it! I have put on a brave face these last few months towards my friends and family, and it has worn me down. They are eagerly watching me to fall on my face, and go running back to god, which would confirm that everything they believe in is true. It’s good to have the support from you guys here though At least you can relate to what I’m going through. Kevin:
  11. I have just been reading my Testimony and thought I would give a brief update to those interested: I have tried to retrace my steps to find the reasons for wanting to become a Christian. Various events which occurred 8 years ago and even before, left me frustrated with life.I reacted to the injustice in the world, and felt there must be some redemption for those who are denied a decent life. I envisioned a kind of super judge, who would make those responsible, pay for their crimes (I still dream of this). I realized God was the only one who could make it all happen. Since I don’t believe that anymore, it has left me in despair somewhat. God was going to make everything turn out right in the end. If not in this world, then in the next. I could begrudgingly accept the pain and suffering that some people had to go through in this world, if they were to be rewarded in the next. Everything would indeed turn out alright in the end. I don’t know where that leaves me today. I am free from the chains of religion, but I want to feel my life has a purpose. I don’t know where the next step will take me. I still take everything one day at a time, and am very cautious, about “believing “ in something new. The most common question that people ask me is: “So, what do you believe in now?” They look surprised when I tell them “Nothing”. I am content to leave it that way for now. Kevin:
  12. I'm doing fine, and thanks for asking Reach. I have dropped by here a few times just to see how things are. I would say I'm a total atheist now. I have no reason to believe in any god, although I still have a need to believe in something. Not sure where that will take me though at this point. My family has accepted that Dad no longer goes to church, and we do our best not to get into religious discussions. Our church staged the Heaven's Gates Hell's Fire drama over the weekend, and I agreed to go with my wife after her friend cancelled. It was hilarious! The fear tactics had so many people accepting Jesus at the end. It was quite sad in a way. I have this place to thank for freeing myself from the shackles of religion. I will drop by now and then since it will always hold a special place in my heart. Kevin:
  13. I don't want to drive any of our christian pals off either, but I cannot see myself being quiet if the subject of religion were to come up. We would very soon be on the "no not them!" list. I am a bit of a loner, so most of the people we know are more friendly with my wife. The only thing we have in common with some of them is religion, so I expect to be treated like a leper pretty soon. Kevin:
  14. That's quite a site Spamandham. Lots of books I've never heard of before. It will be interesting to read how christianity was influenced early on. Kevin:
  15. I know exactly how you feel Curt. We are not part of the *club* anymore, eh? I listen to my wife on the phone, explaining to our friends what has happened. I feel like I have molested someone, and been interrogated by the police. When I told one of our friends at work (we both work at the hospital) she clutched her chest, and recoiled in horror. I started laughing because it all looked so dramatic! She was still clutching her face when I left her. I am currently reading Bob Ingersoll, so that is keeping me sane amidst all this madness. Take care. Kevin:
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