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Margee

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    Learning how to be an ex-Christian and be comfortable with it!
    This is my 'Please Forgive Me' letter - It is my testimony and I hope it helps someone....You'll have to copy and paste.

    http://www.ex-christian.net/topic/44259-please-forgive-me/
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    Hi! I've come to you for a little help. I was a 'Fundi' for 30 years. I took the bible literally. The more I studied, the more questions I had. I became known as the 'pastors worst nightmare'. I asked too many questions. They (the church) continued to tell me just to have faith. It's been 3 years since I've gone to church. Nobody knows how I feel. How do you tell your friends and family that you don't believe anymore?

    It's been a long time coming. It all started when I read Charles Templeton's book,''Farewell To God-My Reasons For Rejecting Christianity''.(He was Billy Grahams dearest friend) His book answered just about every question that I ever asked when I belonged to the church, but they would not answer because they couldn't. I even went as far as having 3 phone conversations with Charles before he died and he sent me his autographed book.

    I have bargained, begged, cried, screamed and 'prayed' for God to give me the 'sign' that 'he' exists and it has not happened. I have prayed to 'him' in agony I've said to 'him', 'Don't you see, you're ready to lose me, don't you care'? I have gone as far as leaving letters to 'him' under my pillow (to reveal himself to me in a dream) so 'he' could see how sincere I am! How's that for being crazy?

    Sincere is what I have been! And I'm darn angry now!

    I started to study websites like 'evil bible.com' and 'Why God won't heal amputees?' I have dabbled with the law of attraction, psychics, astrology, energy fields, and every new age 'thing' a person could try to find a faith that might be more reliable than the christian god.

    If I ever even dreamt that I would be writing this letter.... The girl who studied her bible for years - I would have told you that the devil had complete control of me! I tried and tried and tried to make sense of this for all these years. I have heard horror stories of 'suffering' even within our own community of the church (let alone the whole world) and I always asked this God ; ''Why-Why-Why, can't you do something?? Can you not see what's happening down here? Can't you see how cruel nature can be? Don't you see what all these 'Holy Books' are doing to people down here? Can't you see the rapes, murders - the insanity of it all?''

    How does one deal with the pain of no God? My search is almost over - but - what now? So I don't believe in God anymore.... What now? How does one deal with this? I've read that some of you are 'free'. I don't feel that way. No afterlife - no seeing my only sister who died 13 years ago - no seeing mom or dad? No reward for trying to be so good all these years? How does one deal with this 'Dark Night of The Soul''?

    Thank you so much. Sincerely, Margee

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  1. Damn tootin' Brother and most of them are smarter than men so don't be actin' all cool around here...... Get your shit together and start acting like your god would want you too. Man up. You're 'brilliance' looks stupid. (hug)
  2. Hi Mrjukes. I'm so sorry you are feeling so bad right now. Take your time. I want you to know how much I understand what you are going through so I will post my testimony that I posted when I first arrived here at Ex. I hope you will understand that this letter I wrote speaks for many, many new people who come here. We understand what you are going through. Take your time. Do a lot of research. There are hundreds and hundreds of articles that our intelligent folk have presented to us as to why the bible is such a fuck up. It's not that it doesn't contain some points of wisdom from the ancient
  3. Ya got a way's to go sweetie....... I gotcha beat cause my god is a god of love and hugs......so I'm closer than you.... Love and hugs to all of you .....
  4. Awesome Steviejay. I just pinned this for all newcomers coming to Ex-c. Thank you for the time you put in to this post. Fantastic.
  5. Hi lost. I'm so happy to see you back at EXC but I am so, so sorry that you are here under such sad circumstances. I am so sorry to hear of the death of your very special man friend. Sudden death is like the biggest punch in the stomach that one can ever experience. Don't be too surprised if your mind is in a bit of trauma shock. Honey, lots of people get involved in what can be a messy relationship. We are all human. You had some things that you shared together that were special. These are what I call the bittersweet relationships. Whether these relationships are right or wrong, y
  6. Margee

    Need help

    I believe that I got all that information from this site: https://www.evilbible.com/ Hope that helps!!
  7. I'm 5 foot honey. You hold him down and I'll punch his face in. You must never phuck around with a short, cranky woman...especially the ones that looks like sweethearts.....
  8. @freshstart A huge ((hug)) honey. Get as much rest as you can during this..... and thank you so much for helping in this horrendous situation.
  9. I went to Walmart the other day (yes Walmart!! Lol) to see if we could get a better deal on groceries and it wasn't any different than any other time I have been there. I haven't been out there for over 5 weeks. People were bumping into each other, cranky, ('specially hubby! Lol) some with masks, some others without. They certainly did not count how many were in this store. We will never go back. Our province (community) experienced Canada's greatest mass shooting a couple of weeks ago and they will be looking into if the lockdown set him off. It paralyzed us all. We are lucky no
  10. @TheRedneckProfessor Here is the civil war we are experiencing in our community and it goes right along with Dave's excellent message. I think this list was meant to be funny, but it's not.It's exactly the messages they (the experts) give us from day to day because they don't really know. It causes a lot of dissension among the people. Great article @webmdave. Thanks. In case you were wondering... Here are the official Coronavirus guidelines: 1. Basically, you can't leave the house for any reason, but if you have to, then you can. 2. Masks are useless, b
  11. OMG Dave I was just going to write this out!! It's perfect for me. All my customers are gone right now and I don't miss them one bit. I love them, but I don't miss them. I've had 45 years of socializing and I could care less if I ever seen any of them. But I love them. (Still feeling guilty after all these years for feeling this way ) So quarinteening for me has been such a nice break.... no people, no lipstick, daytime housedress and nighttime P'J's.....no bra for the last 6 weeks! Going for walks everyday with no traffic to fight, getting a few things done around the ole' shack, researching
  12. Welcome to ex-c IAMFORTRUTH. So good to have you here. \You are in the right spot. We understand everything you are going through. Keep reading and posting all your questions. Someone is always here to help you. Looking forward to hearing more from you!
  13. So true, they are trying so hard to move fast. The rebelling that is going to start happening (Which is already has) is going to mess the system up that they want to eventually wean us into. I think we're in for some real dumb stuff with the revolutions. I also believe we will get a total lockdown before this is over (because we have people who won't follow directions and take this seriously here) and I have prepared for it. Our Premier tells us everyday how we will slowly open things while we still maintain distance and move on from there. For instance, we got word last night that our campgro
  14. Goodpoint @TruthSeeker0. As I've been researching the best I can, I have found out that the main cause of the virus attacking certain people (age does not matter) who are compromised.(That would aslo include dear little babies) The list goes on. Everything from Cancer, obesity, diabetes heart problems, malnutrition from eating all junk food, etc. A lot of folk will have to be isolated. I even heard one doctor of health say that America (Although I would stick Canada in this category also!) has the absolute worst eating habits (mostly the young generation) and that if their bodies are not wel
  15. Agreed Dan. I have tried so hard to find some reliable sites and scientific papers on this virus but i think you are right. We will find out later what we should/could have done but I know they are doing their best. Nobody was prepared for this. We only had weeks to move fast. My heart bleeds for all the deaths. We had 3 more from our nursing homes today. Actually, the nursing homes and staff are taking the biggest hits. The others that have been tested for covid seem to be doing fine and many are recovering in the hospitols.. I don't care if they are in their 80', 90's, they were
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