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About Margee

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    Learning how to be an ex-Christian and be comfortable with it!
    This is my 'Please Forgive Me' letter - It is my testimony and I hope it helps someone....You'll have to copy and paste.
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    Hi! I've come to you for a little help. I was a 'Fundi' for 30 years. I took the bible literally. The more I studied, the more questions I had. I became known as the 'pastors worst nightmare'. I asked too many questions. They (the church) continued to tell me just to have faith. It's been 3 years since I've gone to church. Nobody knows how I feel. How do you tell your friends and family that you don't believe anymore?

    It's been a long time coming. It all started when I read Charles Templeton's book,''Farewell To God-My Reasons For Rejecting Christianity''.(He was Billy Grahams dearest friend) His book answered just about every question that I ever asked when I belonged to the church, but they would not answer because they couldn't. I even went as far as having 3 phone conversations with Charles before he died and he sent me his autographed book.

    I have bargained, begged, cried, screamed and 'prayed' for God to give me the 'sign' that 'he' exists and it has not happened. I have prayed to 'him' in agony I've said to 'him', 'Don't you see, you're ready to lose me, don't you care'? I have gone as far as leaving letters to 'him' under my pillow (to reveal himself to me in a dream) so 'he' could see how sincere I am! How's that for being crazy?

    Sincere is what I have been! And I'm darn angry now!

    I started to study websites like 'evil' and 'Why God won't heal amputees?' I have dabbled with the law of attraction, psychics, astrology, energy fields, and every new age 'thing' a person could try to find a faith that might be more reliable than the christian god.

    If I ever even dreamt that I would be writing this letter.... The girl who studied her bible for years - I would have told you that the devil had complete control of me! I tried and tried and tried to make sense of this for all these years. I have heard horror stories of 'suffering' even within our own community of the church (let alone the whole world) and I always asked this God ; ''Why-Why-Why, can't you do something?? Can you not see what's happening down here? Can't you see how cruel nature can be? Don't you see what all these 'Holy Books' are doing to people down here? Can't you see the rapes, murders - the insanity of it all?''

    How does one deal with the pain of no God? My search is almost over - but - what now? So I don't believe in God anymore.... What now? How does one deal with this? I've read that some of you are 'free'. I don't feel that way. No afterlife - no seeing my only sister who died 13 years ago - no seeing mom or dad? No reward for trying to be so good all these years? How does one deal with this 'Dark Night of The Soul''?

    Thank you so much. Sincerely, Margee

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  1. I don't know how you do it

    Thought you despised all the bible stuff?
  2. Progress?

    She's on her way my friend!! This is the beginning for her. Fingers crossed! Just stay nice and calm!
  3. History of the 'F' Word

    My favorite......
  4. History of the 'F' Word

    For those who like to meditate....
  5. History of the 'F' Word

    Rotflmao!! @Geezer, what a great way to start the day...laughing.....Thank you!
  6. I don't know how you do it

    I'm out of being able to give points right now. Bill's house is a great place to meet people who share the same problems. Yes, they believe in a higher power and this is important to many. That is why I feel that Rose might not want to be fully deconverted. Yes, I do know the statistics about how many fail the 'program' but I also know that tons and tons of people in my city had stayed sober due to the program.' It's even quite popular for a person now to believe in their 'higher self'. The self that would cause no one harm and could learn to make good choices about their lives. That is the theory I use when I am helping someone in the 'program'.
  7. Atheist Angel

    It is disturbing. You were a psychopath? And how did you get better from that? (moderator's hat is on)
  8. .... wtf. Try the laundry pod challenge!!!

    You're killing me tonight! Jeeeeeuusss!
  9. .... wtf. Try the laundry pod challenge!!!

    Lmao! I hate those roundabouts so bad!!! I don't care if I land up in China, just get me off the stupid roundabout. They're putting them all over the place here...
  10. Atheist Angel

    I don't think you want to be convinced at all and I think this thread might be better off in the spiritual section of Ex-c. I would advise people to take his claims above seriously. He may need to hold on to his beliefs for a while. Rose, you may be better off going to meetings to get the help that you need while working along with your doctors..
  11. History of the 'F' Word

    Sitting here peeing my fucking pants....... you fucking nut!
  12. Atheist Angel

    I'll leave this up to the other moderators but it might be worth a little discussion. But remember my friend, if you dare to go into the may never come out the same again.........
  13. History of the 'F' Word

    Me too. No.... not that fuckin' expression. I fucking felt the same fucking way when he wrote that fucking statement....... Older...fucking help us out here will ya.....
  14. .... wtf. Try the laundry pod challenge!!!

    But Vig...these are grown up people doing this...not the little children. They know what it is they are eating!!
  15. This is excellent BO. Made me shed a tear tonight. I didn't work my whole life taking care of the elderly but I had 3 years of it with my MIL and I have never in my life experienced such exhausting and rewarding work! I would have never believed in a million years that I could change diapers and remove false teeth! It's true what he said in the video. I would walk into her room and she would be sitting with her head back and a big smile on her face and I would ask her, ''Whatcha thinkin' about?'' and she would tell me she was remembering golfing with her best friend or family affairs and all the good times. She taught me so much. I learned so much from her and I will be forever grateful.