GraphicsGuy Posted January 16, 2008 Share Posted January 16, 2008 Hmmm...another thread by me...feel like I'm starting a lot lately. Oh well. Anyway, I've been feeling better the last number of days. Maybe the poetry was more therapeutic than I thought possible? lol I mean, I haven't had a number of good days in a row for a long time. Things aren't getting to me as much. The usual rage feels largely disappated. I'm starting to socialize slightly more than normal. I'm accepting of myself. I'm finding new avenues of healthy(er) expression. My sleep is getting more restful - even though I sleep less now (4 to 5 hrs a night). I've started to just stay up until I'm pretty much exhausted. This way I don't just lie awake for hours and hours with my mind rambling on and on. I go to bed between 2 and 3 am and I'm asleep within 10 minutes. Really tired right now, but feeling good nonetheless. All the crap is still right here inside me, but it's starting not to matter so much... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
The-Captain Posted January 16, 2008 Share Posted January 16, 2008 Well I only know you vicariously through the internet, but you seem pretty on the level to me.Like we say all the time, that anger is perfectly normal and maybe needed .Steps o' grief and all that perhaps, denial, anger, acceptance (or however that goes). Now that you mention it though Im feeling ok myself, better even.....content I guess? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Rhia Posted January 16, 2008 Share Posted January 16, 2008 Maybe you're beginning to move on - but one way or another, I'm glad you're feeling a bit better! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
mwc Posted January 16, 2008 Share Posted January 16, 2008 I can't speak for you but I always feel worse as xmas comes and a lot better as it goes. Same thing (but less so) with easter. There's also that general anger/rage/whatever that comes with your specific circumstances that will just tend to diminish over time (time heals all wounds kind of thing). mwc Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
bellsybop Posted January 16, 2008 Share Posted January 16, 2008 I understand where you're coming from. I find resolve in coming on here and reading and posting. But I also have trouble sleeping at night. I don't know why but it started after I found myself. Sometimes I think my brain is free to think and just doesn't want to stop. I don't feel stressed out by any means though. Maybe guilt and all that junk makes us tired and we don't feel that anymore. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
GraphicsGuy Posted January 17, 2008 Author Share Posted January 17, 2008 Sometimes I think my brain is free to think and just doesn't want to stop. I can relate to that. I used to sleep to escape from everything. I couldn't wait to get to bed some nights and never wanted to get up. So I think part of my anti-sleep complex now may be partially rebellion to this previous attitude. I don't want to run away from life anymore. I want challenges, I want to face it all head on, I don't want to miss out on anything. Now, I'm disappointed when the day goes by so fast and I have to sleep again. I used to be thankful for days like that...now they're a curse... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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