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Ex Christians Who Suffer(Ed) From Disorders


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Hello to all! I am just wondering if there were any ex chrisians (or still are christians) who had to deal with some type of mental disorder such as anxiety, depression, panic, bi-polar, OCD. OCD made being a christian for me a living nightmare and my trust in god so much worse because I felt like I wasn't trusting in him enough to let him take it away, and if so please share stories! :shrug:

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I didn't suffer from any disorders. However, religion, especially christianity, is often the cause of these disorders.

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I have had an anxiety disorder since I was a teenager. My fiasco of a communion didn't help matters. I'm also beginning to suspect I'm schizoid.

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Depression, anxiety, social phobia for me....fun stuff.

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Depression and anxiety disorders out the wazoo. Gets especially fun during thunderstorms...

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I developed a horribly anxiety disorder toward the end of my faith. It goes up and down, sometimes I honestly feel like I have psychosis or something but I will hopefully be seeing a therapist soon

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I am going through a wave of depression right now. It's pretty bad at times. I recently gave up on being a Xtian so its the emotions are still really raw. I have been so tired lately and when I am not tired I get raging anxiety. It doesn't help that my husband is always telling me its a product of separating myself from "God". I would def. see a therapist, but as for me I know it will pass and I just need to learn who I am as a person. Aside from getting help, I would get out and have fun. Do something you wouldn't have normally done and just let go. Laughter is always the best cure. Another thing that has helped me is reading the bible. I know it sounds funny but I read it for what it is and not screwing with the context. When I feel guilty or scared of living without the Xtian faith, I read the crazy books from the OT and that usually helps. One more thing, pick up a good book. One that is not too intense or hard too read. When I start feeling all goofy, I pick up a funny book like the Stephanie Plum series by Janet Evanovich (as a woman it makes me laugh out loud) and it helps make me think of something else. Best of luck to ya :)

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I have a genetic predisposition to depression, so I have had it ever since I was in elementary school.

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Yes, I suffer from depression. I've been on an herbal supplement for about 6 months that helps quite a bit. I also get pretty anxious after social interactions. Like I'll be fine while I'm interacting and as soon as I get home I start to panic that I said something wrong or did something wrong.

 

I totally blame xtianity for both right now - being raised in that type of home environment gives me no confidence in any "secular" (as my family would still call them) interactions. I feel like I don't know how to behave around people.

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I have Schizoaffective Disorder Bipolar-type, and DXed with OCD, but I don't believe it. Had ADHD as a kid.

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Bipolar Disorder, undiagnosed during my fundie years, that was made MUCH worse by my involvement in the Cult. :ugh::vent:

 

I'm doing better these days generally than I have in the past, but I'm just now pulling out of a MAJOR bipolar depression. Those hit hard every once in a while, but thankfully not often. I still have issues related to the psychological abuse I endured at the hands of the Cult, outlined nicely in this article:

 

http://www.jimmoyers.com/Religion/Psychological_Issues.html

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Yes, I have depression and anxiety issues. I believe in God but the church people are very rigid and horrible people to me. I may believe in Jesus but its not the type of thing that seems to go with going to church. I am trying to work that out. If I was to become or be a Christian, I would not tell people bible scriptures to answer their problems but common sense. I do not want any friends that are robots to be my friends that put that mindless junk on me. but i still believe in God and such, go figure.

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I can only stand being in a catholic mass to hear a sermon, no communion. No protestant churches as they think they are the only way adn others go to hell.

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For the record, I have met a lot of people like myself almost exactly but none of us seems to have any real answers, most of my friends are newage, thatis their answer.

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I can only stand being in a catholic mass to hear a sermon, no communion. No protestant churches as they think they are the only way adn others go to hell.

 

I thought the Catholics also thought that they are the only way and all others go to hell, have they changed their tune on that one?

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I thought the Catholics also thought that they are the only way and all others go to hell, have they changed their tune on that one?

 

My girlfriend's from Italy. She says that hell is virtually not talked about by the Catholic church in Italy, and that the idea is considered retrograde and barbaric. I told her that "fundie" Catholics exist in this country that are just as hardcore (about hell and whatnot) as Baptists or Pentecostals, and she said she'd only ever met one such person and that everybody thought he was mentally ill. Literally, they thought he needed help.

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I experienced some major depression near the end of my christian life, had to go see a therapist. And I've not been tested for this, but I'm pretty sure I have some kind of social anxiety or phobia. It presents itself differently. And it makes my body sick. Hmm, maybe I should get that checked out. Nah, I think I can deal. I first started noticing this and some obsessive-compulsive behaviours in high-school. It got really bad through college when I first started dealing with losing the faith and tapered off near the end. Not so bad now, only traces of OCD and since I'm not forced to be around people (like going to church) I don't really deal with social anxiety that much. But I'm not depressed anymore! I just have down days, I enjoy them and then move on.

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I was discharged from the Air Force with a "character and behavior disorder". I have also suffered from anxiety for a long time. I'm on new meds for the anxiety. My old doctor would give me xanax like candy, the doc I have now wants to try other drugs. I hope they work, sometimes I catch myself in the middle of a conversation and next thing I know everyone is staring at me like I"m crazy. I guess sometimes I get a little to excited/angry during conversations. That may be one reason I don't like large groups of people. :shrug:

 

I'm not sure how much of my disorders I can contribute to being born and raised in a Baptist home and now an Ex-C-ist, but my brother seems to be normal and he is still in the cult.

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I was discharged from the Air Force with a "character and behavior disorder". I have also suffered from anxiety for a long time. I'm on new meds for the anxiety. My old doctor would give me xanax like candy, the doc I have now wants to try other drugs. I hope they work, sometimes I catch myself in the middle of a conversation and next thing I know everyone is staring at me like I"m crazy. I guess sometimes I get a little to excited/angry during conversations. That may be one reason I don't like large groups of people. :shrug:

 

I'm not sure how much of my disorders I can contribute to being born and raised in a Baptist home and now an Ex-C-ist, but my brother seems to be normal and he is still in the cult.

I'm beginning to think that jsut about everybody on the internet has some sort of anxiety/depression thing on some level. Not like "stfu, you don't have Asperger's, now quite looking at Wikipedia and find some porn or something" more like, people who regularly post on the internet tend to have problems being social face-to-face period, or are anxious about some aspect of themselves. On Ex-C nearly everybody seems to have anxiety or depression (the numbers don't seem to be much different from other forums I've seen) but a lot of people here seem to have OCD and bipolar disorder too, a far higher number than any other forum. It seems that the OCD, depression, anxiety, and bipolar-ness made Christianity a bazillion times worse for them/us. I'm one of the few here who isn't totally fucked up by it (though being raised in a "lukewarm" Baptist-ish family helped), but I still have depression and anxiety that still makes it hard for me to completely let go. And I've been out for almost 4 years.

 

 

It's weird for me beign out for so long. The only time I really think about Christianity anymore is when somebody mentions youth group, or when I come here. Or, oddly enough, during thunderstorms. I grew up hearing "God is watching you!" so now I'm scared that if I fuck up, God is going to fuck me up. Even though I don't think there is a God. Or a heaven, or a hell. During thunderstorms, though... arghhhhhh. Christianity+God's wrath+storm phobia= utter fucking madness. I'd be fine if it weren't for that damn storm phobia.

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I seriously believe that Christianity gave me mild to medium schizophrenia for a while, especially with this spiritual warfare BS. It started going away after I finally admitted that Yahweh and Jesus are bullsh*t and started piecing my life back together.

 

I know I have some degree of Social Anxiety Disorder from being sheltered due to my mom's insane notions about the world. (Off topic, but she is one reason I believe religion is child abuse)

 

However, now that I realize that, I am forcing myself to get out of the house and engage in social activities (such as Tai Chi class and some dance classes). I've had mixed results, but the results have been better than just staying home. At least I've improved my ability to interact socially (a few of my long time friends have commented on this). It's still not where it would have been if I hadn't been mentally raped by Christianity, but I'm getting better. So it is possible to break free, but it takes time, effort, and desire.

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I think almost everybody has stress and anxiety disorders of some kind. Bill Maher talked about this a little while ago. I've kind of made a bit of a study of this subject through the years; I've always been anxiety-prone but currently don't need any medication. Still, a lot of things bother me, and I just can't let go of my fascination with human psychology and religion. Even though I'm out of the Christian zombie cults, I can't forget the absolute confusion and mind games that so many Christian people I used to know like to play.

 

Religion doesn't work on people unless it's backed up by manipulation, propoganda, head games, and cunning forms of psychology. When I read the testimonies and stories of members here and what they've been through, I can certainly sympathize. Even people who are strong-willed and have resolute personalities can be battered down, needled and made to feel anxiety and other things under the yoke of religion. Emotional endurance is another feature, and many good people have been virtually crushed by the demands that religion and church and so on can place upon a person.

 

Add to that marital and family complications, and it's enough to break even Superman.

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I was discharged from the Air Force with a "character and behavior disorder". I have also suffered from anxiety for a long time. I'm on new meds for the anxiety. My old doctor would give me xanax like candy, the doc I have now wants to try other drugs. I hope they work, sometimes I catch myself in the middle of a conversation and next thing I know everyone is staring at me like I"m crazy. I guess sometimes I get a little to excited/angry during conversations. That may be one reason I don't like large groups of people. :shrug:

 

I'm not sure how much of my disorders I can contribute to being born and raised in a Baptist home and now an Ex-C-ist, but my brother seems to be normal and he is still in the cult.

I'm beginning to think that jsut about everybody on the internet has some sort of anxiety/depression thing on some level. Not like "stfu, you don't have Asperger's, now quite looking at Wikipedia and find some porn or something" more like, people who regularly post on the internet tend to have problems being social face-to-face period, or are anxious about some aspect of themselves. On Ex-C nearly everybody seems to have anxiety or depression (the numbers don't seem to be much different from other forums I've seen) but a lot of people here seem to have OCD and bipolar disorder too, a far higher number than any other forum. It seems that the OCD, depression, anxiety, and bipolar-ness made Christianity a bazillion times worse for them/us. I'm one of the few here who isn't totally fucked up by it (though being raised in a "lukewarm" Baptist-ish family helped), but I still have depression and anxiety that still makes it hard for me to completely let go. And I've been out for almost 4 years.

 

 

It's weird for me beign out for so long. The only time I really think about Christianity anymore is when somebody mentions youth group, or when I come here. Or, oddly enough, during thunderstorms. I grew up hearing "God is watching you!" so now I'm scared that if I fuck up, God is going to fuck me up. Even though I don't think there is a God. Or a heaven, or a hell. During thunderstorms, though... arghhhhhh. Christianity+God's wrath+storm phobia= utter fucking madness. I'd be fine if it weren't for that damn storm phobia.

 

I used to think that disorders were rare, now the more I read online the more I think disorders are just the norm.

 

I'm just now starting to understand where some of my disorders came from. Maybe when I understand them a little more I'll write about them. Just recently I've started to put together some of the pieces of my childhood that were pretty fucked up and I don't quite understand it completely but I am starting to see things now that I could not see for more than 40 yrs.

 

I've got to go to the hospital now, the wife is going to have a baby today. They will induce labor when a room comes available. More anxiety :twitch:

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I'm beginning to think that jsut about everybody on the internet has some sort of anxiety/depression thing on some level. Not like "stfu, you don't have Asperger's, now quite looking at Wikipedia and find some porn or something" more like, people who regularly post on the internet tend to have problems being social face-to-face period, or are anxious about some aspect of themselves. On Ex-C nearly everybody seems to have anxiety or depression (the numbers don't seem to be much different from other forums I've seen) but a lot of people here seem to have OCD and bipolar disorder too, a far higher number than any other forum. It seems that the OCD, depression, anxiety, and bipolar-ness made Christianity a bazillion times worse for them/us. I'm one of the few here who isn't totally fucked up by it (though being raised in a "lukewarm" Baptist-ish family helped), but I still have depression and anxiety that still makes it hard for me to completely let go. And I've been out for almost 4 years.

 

I think thats a little unfair to say. Though like I'm one to talk...

 

But there's something I want to bring up on that. I frequent another forum on this site meant for people who have social anxiety disorder. Many people on that site (not all) are atheist or agnostic. And during one debate a fellow atheist posted this:

 

I believe the majority of SA is due to a lack of dopamine receptor stimulation. This translates into tendency to depression and a lack of social drive (i.e. shyness). Dopamine receptors are blocked to treat schizophrenia and other psychotic disorders, and this action will shut down "superstitious" thought and promote logic. Thus, many SA sufferers are logical people: atheists/agnostics. They don't get carried away in delusional trains of thought.

 

Ketamine blocks NMDA(glycine) receptors to give the experience during which some "contact god". The same receptor is blocked during psychosis in schizophrenia. Schizophrenics are also often hyper-religious. Just some food for thought.

 

Wouldn't that be something...

 

I've got to go to the hospital now, the wife is going to have a baby today. They will induce labor when a room comes available. More anxiety :twitch:

 

Hey, congrats! :beer:

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I believe the majority of SA is due to a lack of dopamine receptor stimulation. This translates into tendency to depression and a lack of social drive (i.e. shyness). Dopamine receptors are blocked to treat schizophrenia and other psychotic disorders, and this action will shut down "superstitious" thought and promote logic. Thus, many SA sufferers are logical people: atheists/agnostics. They don't get carried away in delusional trains of thought.

 

Ketamine blocks NMDA(glycine) receptors to give the experience during which some "contact god". The same receptor is blocked during psychosis in schizophrenia. Schizophrenics are also often hyper-religious. Just some food for thought.

 

Seems possible, but I'd like to hear a more detailed explanation with more evidence.

 

That being said I too have a lot of dislike for social situations. A couple years ago when I was working from home I intentionally tried to live by going outside as little as possible. Mainly just to get groceries and take out the trash...it was a very enlightening experience for myself because never did I experience the same peace as I did before then.

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I've had social anxiety as long as I can remember. That's the only disorder I have. Thankfully I've never experienced depression (I've been hurt a lot but I wouldn't call it depressed) because I don't know how I could deal with both. I'm generally a very happy person.. even happier when I'm not socializing. But having SA is a nightmare; I try to avoid a lot of uncomfortable social situations because I prefer to stay happy.

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