Hunter93 Posted September 5, 2013 Share Posted September 5, 2013 It's been much easier than the first time I de-converted. It's been a little more than 3 months since my OCD got really bad and it's still there and it's still bad(and I'm still dealing with really bad anxiety) but I feel like I'm getting better. It's definitely an improvement from before. Maybe that's why it wasn't as bad as the first time. Although this time was different. I decided, out of the blue, that I was done with Christianity. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Lerk Posted September 6, 2013 Share Posted September 6, 2013 That's great news! Accepting the truth is really difficult when we were taught the mythology from the time we could understand. There's the day you realize it's all bogus, and you know it, but because of the indoctrination you're not sure you can trust your own understanding. You've been told specifically, as part of the myth, that you can't trust your own understanding. That's why Christianity is such a successful meme! So, you lapsed. You fell back into it because, frankly, it's hard to get yourself un-brainwashed. But if there's one thing the Bible says that's right, it's that the truth will set you free. The truth is that the Bible is a book of myths and legends, and that truth has begun to set you free. Congratulations and good luck! 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
TheSpiritualPilgrim Posted September 13, 2013 Share Posted September 13, 2013 Good for you for being honest with yourself and coming to a solid decision based on that. You are moving forward and I'm sure that the decision to leave the religion is already helping your anxiety. For my last year as a Christian I dealt with a lot of anxiety and I think it had to do with living a double life and having what psychologists call a cognitive dissonance. I believed and I did not believe. Actually it was more like a part of me wanted to believe but when being honest I really didn't. The brain does not like being in the middle of that game. I hope your anxiety continues to get better. If you feel the need to rant or get things off your chest then please post more and keep us updated here! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
kolaida Posted September 15, 2013 Share Posted September 15, 2013 I hope Hunter comes around again sometime soon to let us know how he is doing. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Hunter93 Posted September 28, 2013 Author Share Posted September 28, 2013 I hope Hunter comes around again sometime soon to let us know how he is doing. I'm having issues with ADHD but other than that I'm fine. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
kolaida Posted September 29, 2013 Share Posted September 29, 2013 I hope Hunter comes around again sometime soon to let us know how he is doing. I'm having issues with ADHD but other than that I'm fine. Good, I'm glad to hear that!! I hope you keep sticking around the boards! We like you here! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Hunter93 Posted September 30, 2013 Author Share Posted September 30, 2013 Thanks. You know, I prayed constantly hoping these bad thoughts would go away. Obviously, they didn't. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
kolaida Posted September 30, 2013 Share Posted September 30, 2013 Thanks. You know, I prayed constantly hoping these bad thoughts would go away. Obviously, they didn't. Yeah, I did that, too (the praying constantly). They don't go away without treatment. There are just too many things you can't pray away and that is frustrating. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Hunter93 Posted October 1, 2013 Author Share Posted October 1, 2013 Although, one thing I keep noticing is that I keep getting very depressed lately. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
mymistake Posted October 1, 2013 Share Posted October 1, 2013 Hang in there guys. I hope the best for you. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
kolaida Posted October 1, 2013 Share Posted October 1, 2013 Although, one thing I keep noticing is that I keep getting very depressed lately. Depression and anxiety usually go hand in hand, unfortunately. Mention it to your counselors, too, in case it's a side effect of the meds. I had to go through treatment for both depression and anxiety (took about two years) and even then, it'll still sometimes bring you down. Thanks, MM! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Hunter93 Posted October 1, 2013 Author Share Posted October 1, 2013 Thanks MM. Now, if only I could deal with my fear of karma... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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