Deidre Posted July 29, 2014 Share Posted July 29, 2014 All This Time All this time I spent chasing You When I could've spent it Chasing my dreams All this time I spent trusting in Your Word When I could've spent it Trusting my intuition All this time I spent in church Waiting, praying, hoping For You to show up All this time I spent on my knees When I could've spent it Dancing or swimming or something else All this time I spent feeling guilty When I could've spent it Planting a garden All this time I spent loving You When I could've been Loving myself 5 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
bfuddled Posted July 29, 2014 Share Posted July 29, 2014 Awesome. my sentiments exactly. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
FreeThinkerNZ Posted July 29, 2014 Share Posted July 29, 2014 I was going to say "awesome" too, lol. Will have to think of another word... excellent? Fantastic? I liked it. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Overcame Faith Posted July 29, 2014 Share Posted July 29, 2014 All this time Spent reading so many posts When I could've spent it Reading your excellent poem. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Deidre Posted July 29, 2014 Author Share Posted July 29, 2014 Thanks, everyone! I wrote it last night after leaving the chat room. Guess after all this time, I'm still hung up on wasted time. :/ Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Moderator Margee Posted July 29, 2014 Moderator Share Posted July 29, 2014 That's a good poem Dee!! Excellent. Could be used on a relationship also!! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Deidre Posted July 29, 2014 Author Share Posted July 29, 2014 Margee; Thanks, and yes, I agree. Unfortunately, I've wasted too much time, in general. Human; You are too kind. You are right, but it was painful to think about all that. It's been a while now since I deconverted. I feel like I shouldn't still be hung up on this but I am. I can't seem to get past the fact that I can't get all this time back. I don't know what to do, anymore. 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Moderator Margee Posted July 29, 2014 Moderator Share Posted July 29, 2014 Margee; Thanks, and yes, I agree. Unfortunately, I've wasted too much time, in general. Human; You are too kind. You are right, but it was painful to think about all that. It's been a while now since I deconverted. I feel like I shouldn't still be hung up on this but I am. I can't seem to get past the fact that I can't get all this time back. I don't know what to do, anymore. You can't get time back sweetheart. You can only learn the hard lessons we have to learn as humans and move on. I did the very thing you are doing. I was angry about all the time I wasted on so many things that did not benefit me and that includes relationships. Do not waste one more minute wishing for the past to change. It's not going to happen. It is a waste of time my love. Start right now and go do something special for yourself. Go write us another one of your wonderful poems!! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Moderator TrueFreedom Posted July 29, 2014 Moderator Share Posted July 29, 2014 “There is nothing else than now. There is neither yesterday, certainly, nor is there any tomorrow. How old must you be before you know that? There is only now, and if now is only two days, then two days is your life and everything in it will be in proportion. This is how you live a life in two days. And if you stop complaining and asking for what you never will get, you will have a good life. A good life is not measured by any biblical span.” ― Ernest Hemingway, For Whom the Bell Tolls 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Deidre Posted July 29, 2014 Author Share Posted July 29, 2014 Margee; Thanks, and yes, I agree. Unfortunately, I've wasted too much time, in general. Human; You are too kind. You are right, but it was painful to think about all that. It's been a while now since I deconverted. I feel like I shouldn't still be hung up on this but I am. I can't seem to get past the fact that I can't get all this time back. I don't know what to do, anymore. You can't get time back sweetheart. You can only learn the hard lessons we have to learn as humans and move on. I did the very thing you are doing. I was angry about all the time I wasted on so many things that did not benefit me and that includes relationships. Do not waste one more minute wishing for the past to change. It's not going to happen. It is a waste of time my love. Start right now and go do something special for yourself. Go write us another one of your wonderful poems!! Thank you, Margee! You always say the right thing when I need to hear it. Yea, I'm wasting time thinking about all the time I've wasted. Rather dumb. You have helped me more than you know. Hugs! @ True Freedom...LOVE THAT quote -- one of my all time fave authors. Thanks for posting that for us all. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Moderator Margee Posted July 29, 2014 Moderator Share Posted July 29, 2014 Rather dumb. It's not dumb my darling...it's just what we silly humans do!! Do NOT waste one more precious moment beating yourself up about any of your past!!! You hear me??? go pick some flowers or something!! Hug Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Moderator TrueFreedom Posted July 29, 2014 Moderator Share Posted July 29, 2014 I struggle with depression and also waste time dwelling on regrets about decisions that I've made and things that I've missed out on because of religion. Returning to a focus on the moment is helpful sometimes, though I am often unable to enjoy the moment or come up with much to look forward to. *hugs you* ((Diedre)) and ((Margee)) 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Moderator Margee Posted July 29, 2014 Moderator Share Posted July 29, 2014 I struggle with depression and also waste time dwelling on regrets about decisions that I've made and things that I've missed out on because of religion. Returning to a focus on the moment is helpful sometimes, though I am often unable to enjoy the moment or come up with much to look forward to. *hugs you* ((Diedre)) and ((Margee)) I totally understand. (((((True Freedom))))) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Deidre Posted July 29, 2014 Author Share Posted July 29, 2014 I struggle with depression and also waste time dwelling on regrets about decisions that I've made and things that I've missed out on because of religion. Returning to a focus on the moment is helpful sometimes, though I am often unable to enjoy the moment or come up with much to look forward to. *hugs you* ((Diedre)) and ((Margee)) I've reached my positive quota for the day I need to learn to enjoy the moment. I can't change past choices. Thank you so much. You are a special person. hugs 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Deidre Posted July 29, 2014 Author Share Posted July 29, 2014 Rather dumb. It's not dumb my darling...it's just what we silly humans do!! Do NOT waste one more precious moment beating yourself up about any of your past!!! You hear me??? go pick some flowers or something!! Hug Thank youuu for taking the time as you have Margee. I'm grateful for your advice and to know, we are not alone in this. I wrote a haiku and posted it to celebrate the moment. Oddly, writing poetry helps. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Moderator Margee Posted July 29, 2014 Moderator Share Posted July 29, 2014 I just got through (trying ) to sit through a 'discovery' where they tear you to sheds...because of my car accident. They bring up EVERYTHING from your past and use it against you. This asshole lawyer who couldn't give a flying fuck about me threw everything up at me from my past to win his case. It shell shocked me for 4 days..I had been completely depressed. Then I woke up this morning and said...''i'm done with my past''. I'm not going back to that room (because I walked out within 2 hours and it was supposed to last for 6 hours). NOBODY is EVER going to do that to me again!! NOBODY. They can take their fucking money and shove it up their ass. Today, I choose to have fun on EX-c with all my wonderful friends and enjoy life!! Keep writing your beautiful poems honey!! Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Moderator TrueFreedom Posted July 29, 2014 Moderator Share Posted July 29, 2014 Wow! Sorry to hear that, (((((((Margee))))))). Have some more hugs and kisses. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Moderator TrueFreedom Posted July 29, 2014 Moderator Share Posted July 29, 2014 I struggle with depression and also waste time dwelling on regrets about decisions that I've made and things that I've missed out on because of religion. Returning to a focus on the moment is helpful sometimes, though I am often unable to enjoy the moment or come up with much to look forward to. *hugs you* ((Diedre)) and ((Margee)) I've reached my positive quota for the day I need to learn to enjoy the moment. I can't change past choices. Thank you so much. You are a special person. hugs Thank you, Diedre. You are special too. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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