Godless

[lethargicsweetheart]

Hello all. I can not express how thrilled I was to discover that this forum exists! I have written songs my whole life, and over the years it has become my escape. I was debating whether or not to share one of my songs, so I'm going to quit rambling and get on with it. 

 

Godless 

by LethargicSweetheart. 

 

Verse 1. I don't tell my momma about the devil 
But the devil tells me what she's done 
We talk about God in the streets 
But fight our demons when the doors are shut 
I don't tell my daddy about his god 
But he puts the fear of god in me
I don't speak of my religion 
Because there's nothing left to believe

And I still have the locket I got that Christmas, the one that shows 
A mom so pretty , a dad so sober 
Three blonde kids, a family without secrets 
And I tried to burn it, let it go 
But at three years old
There were no ghosts in the home I've grown to know as a prison where the devil roams, and whispers every deadly sin to a girl too young to feel so old

(Chorus) Daddy please don't yell 
Momma please don't cry
I know this life is hell
But maybe it's all right 
I can hide my face from the teachers 
I can do great in school
I can try and do better 
I can try and play it cool
Oh, just please be normal
oh, should I feel so mortal?

Verse 2. The devil said he loved me, momma 
And oh, I said it back
I know it sounds so crazy, momma,
But he reminds me of my dad- 
You said I'd never be good enough, dad 
And I guess you were right 
So I guess it'll be ok, dad
When I slit my wrists tonight
And I still have that scar, the one on my arm
from the time I fell too hard 
For my past with innocent eyes, before you tore it apart 
This home is a prison I've grown to know as a place where the devil roams, and whispers every deadly sin to a girl too young to feel so old

(Chorus) Daddy please don't yell 
Momma please don't cry
I know this life is hell
But maybe it's all right 
I can hide my face from the teachers 
I can do great in school
I can try and do better 
I can try and play it cool
Oh, just please be normal
oh, should I feel so mortal?

I'm sorry I wasn't enough. 
I'm sorry I wasn't enough. 
I'm sorry

[♦ Fuego ♦]

Someone said this weekend that "art tells us what needs to be said". It does so in ways that bypass arguments, though it may generate some. When people won't talk about the steaming pile of shit in the room, art paints a picture of it and displays it, writes songs about it, does plays about it, and keeps it in our face so it can't be missed. Comics talk about it openly, making us think while they temper harshness with humor. Dancers move and show the emotions without words.

 

Thank you for showing your experience to us, the reality of who you are and what you deal with daily.

[TrueFreedom]

It's great to have you here, LS!  That is heartbreaking and beautiful.  Have you put it to music?  If not, would you mind if I gave it a shot?

[Dreamer]

On ‎1‎/‎17‎/‎2017 at 9:56 AM, Fuego said:

Someone said this weekend that "art tells us what needs to be said". It does so in ways that bypass arguments, though it may generate some. When people won't talk about the steaming pile of shit in the room, art paints a picture of it and displays it, writes songs about it, does plays about it, and keeps it in our face so it can't be missed. Comics talk about it openly, making us think while they temper harshness with humor. Dancers move and show the emotions without words.

 

Thank you for showing your experience to us, the reality of who you are and what you deal with daily.

That's one of the things I love about art! It really does keep these images in the forefront of our mind and ensure that they get addressed. I'm thinking of putting a lot of my own experiences into my art as well.

[Dreamer]

I think your song was really beautiful! I hope there are more to come. It would be really amazing to see more artists raise awareness about religious and spiritual abuse. 

[whatever]

Beautiful song!