Anyone else feel this?

[skysoar15]

As an evangelical Christian, I prayed for God to bring light to my mother, who lived out a pseudo-Christian univeralism faith lifestyle. 

 

For years I prayed for God to open my mom's eyes to Jesus being the one way, but I never saw change any of the few times we spoke. Being in a small college town without a car, she lives 3 hours away.

 

I eventually asked her this weekend what her opinions were on there being one God. She believed that people who preached that were bigots. Here I was...delicately bringing up the topic when for so long I felt I had the answer.

 

Apparently for 50 years, God didnt feel like opening up my mother's eyes. Some God. I guess Jesus just expected that I would choose him over the one person who was always there for me. If he truly exists in Spirit form, he thought wrong.

 

Now for my real life to somehow begin. 95 percent of my closest friends are Christians. 

[Geezer]

I assume those Christians that were beheaded by Isis were probably wondering why God wasn't answering their prayers too when they felt the knife touch their throats. 

 

That begs the old question, "What's the difference between a God that won't act in the face of evil & one that can't act?" 

[L.B.]

I understand how you feel... I haven't had a meaningful relationship that wasn't centered on our shared church/faith experience in decades.

 

After I mostly quit playing secular music, I stopped associating even casually with the people I had most in common with - music and performing.

 

I never did get to be more than "Sunday friends" with the musicians I played with at church - some of whom, admittedly, were/are talented.

 

I haven't had contact with any of those people in 8 months now, and no one has reached out or tried to contact me.

 

I often don't know where to begin; I, too found myself surrounded by an almost entirely Christian social bubble.

[MOHO]

Yup.

 

Spent months and months praying for some guidance/direction/feeling/sign/help with fleeting faith yada yada. Never heard anything but crickets. The only thing I ever felt was a little euphoria after saying that come into my life Jesus prayer with the pastor. That lasted about 20 minutes - then I felt sick to my stomach and quite humiliated that I had allowed my brain to run off like that.

 

 

[DarkFlash]

Funny how the most simple of things such as healing can't happen from this 'God', and this is coming from people that actually believe if not more than myself when I was immersed in the fictional for years at a time. Shouldn't the all powerful be making all sorts of differences? Changing lives and opinions? In fact, a talk with him shouldn't 'come to pass' if the all knowing has answers to solve it all. Saddening, really.