Jesus was a show off.

[mandyjane]

I wanted to share the significant insights that led to my rejection of Christainity and how I am now.

Every church I ever went to blamed all the faults of christainity on the church or the individual people and never the founder of the faith. Always the excuses.

I was part of a twelve step programme for a couple of years before I lost my faith and despite its spiritual emphasis that I can no longer deal with, I loved the democracy, the equality, the structure of the twelve step organisation and still do. It was clear to me that Bill W had done a much better job than Jesus or st paul in founding of a spiritual group and I realised that it would be wrong for me to ever hold a position of spiritual authority, to lord it over others with so called wisdom at the front of a meeting or church.I then reaslied it was wrong for anyone to do this. I ponderred church leadership realsing that most people in church were there to be seen and not heard and that thier self esteem must be utterrly in thier boots to sit through a service being told how to live thier lives  by one enflated ego at the front. Then I realsied (this all took months) that Jesus was the biggest inflated ego of the lot and that he was a creep and a show off. Big time esoteric show off with all those public miricles and great I ams. No wonder the romans had the good sense to kill him, shame they did it so dramatically.

They used to accuse me and many others of bitterness in the church, any menton of injustice and the words forgiveness or the accusation of bitterness was quick to silence people. I am these days deeply contented, , loving myself, discovering the self that was so distorted, so unauthentic due to religion, emerging and beginning to acheive. I love the birds in my garden, the walks in the park and my bedroom sanctuary. I am strong and unlike during my christain years free of confusion, depression and poor judgement. I am who I am. Am I bitter? YES  Do I forgive?  NEVER.That creep took the best years of my life, filled them with false promises, lies and critical people. The happier I become without him the more I hate what he did to me . He will never silence me with words about forgiveness and bitterness again. I am now free.

[1989]

I've been thinking lately about he goodness of Jesus as it pertains to Ray Comfort's street epistemology, and I've come to a lot of the same conclusions as you did.  The best person ever speaks truth to a tiny strip of the Middle East, then gets himself killed.  During that time he threatens everybody with everlasting torment if they don't buy into his rhetoric.  That's pretty egomaniac to me.  Of course, we only have Paul's word that the Word was for the whole world and not just the Jews, and his views on pretty much everything are, well, strange.  The whole thing is just messed masochism and most of us would be better off without it.

[NeverHealed52Years]

On ‎9‎/‎1‎/‎2018 at 6:35 PM, mandyjane said:

I love the birds in my garden, the walks in the park and my bedroom sanctuary

Meee Too! Love feeding and watching all the awesome little creatures in my courtyard and garden/yard. Can't live without walking often. And spend hours daily in my bedroom sanctuary trying to release and let go and purge out all in me that isn't what should be in me. And put in me what is missing. I never did have a SELF. I am 62 years old and trying to find that person that never got to be.

 

Good for you. Hope you are getting to this point much younger!

[DevilsCabanaBoy]

On 9/2/2018 at 11:35 AM, mandyjane said:

I wanted to share the significant insights that led to my rejection of Christainity and how I am now.

Every church I ever went to blamed all the faults of christainity on the church or the individual people and never the founder of the faith. Always the excuses.

I was part of a twelve step programme for a couple of years before I lost my faith and despite its spiritual emphasis that I can no longer deal with, I loved the democracy, the equality, the structure of the twelve step organisation and still do. It was clear to me that Bill W had done a much better job than Jesus or st paul in founding of a spiritual group and I realised that it would be wrong for me to ever hold a position of spiritual authority, to lord it over others with so called wisdom at the front of a meeting or church.I then reaslied it was wrong for anyone to do this. I ponderred church leadership realsing that most people in church were there to be seen and not heard and that thier self esteem must be utterrly in thier boots to sit through a service being told how to live thier lives  by one enflated ego at the front. Then I realsied (this all took months) that Jesus was the biggest inflated ego of the lot and that he was a creep and a show off. Big time esoteric show off with all those public miricles and great I ams. No wonder the romans had the good sense to kill him, shame they did it so dramatically.

They used to accuse me and many others of bitterness in the church, any menton of injustice and the words forgiveness or the accusation of bitterness was quick to silence people. I am these days deeply contented, , loving myself, discovering the self that was so distorted, so unauthentic due to religion, emerging and beginning to acheive. I love the birds in my garden, the walks in the park and my bedroom sanctuary. I am strong and unlike during my christain years free of confusion, depression and poor judgement. I am who I am. Am I bitter? YES  Do I forgive?  NEVER.That creep took the best years of my life, filled them with false promises, lies and critical people. The happier I become without him the more I hate what he did to me . He will never silence me with words about forgiveness and bitterness again. I am now free.

Jesus would be rolling in his grave if he heard this, but I loved it. 

[Casey]

On 2/14/2019 at 5:05 PM, DevilsCabanaBoy said:

Jesus would be rolling in his grave if he heard this, but I loved it. 

 

Jesus probably turns a complete 360 whenever he thinks of this one, which originates with Christopher Marlowe, or so 'tis said:

"If the Jews, among whom Christ was born, crucified him, they knew him best!"

Casey

[DevilsCabanaBoy]

11 minutes ago, Casey said:

 

Jesus probably turns a complete 360 whenever he thinks of this one, which originates with Christopher Marlowe, or so 'tis said:

"If the Jews, among whom Christ was born, crucified him, they knew him best!"

Casey

Good on you Casey, may all your dreams come true.