Questioningone Posted December 12, 2018 Share Posted December 12, 2018 Hello everyone I’m trying to find myself after Christianity. I’m trying to find interests. I lost them all due to me thinking it was “idolatry” I suffer from depression on top of things so it’s making it hard. Also physical health issues. I used to be into several tv shows and some kpop and I have recently tried to listen to that again, after ditching it in forsake of Jesus. I like the music but it doesn’t make me feel good like it used to. I’ve lost that side of me. Jpop doesn’t appeal to me at all anymore and I was into that a lot. I have no desire to see the tv shows again as they make me feel sick to think about. I trashed the dvds, films etc and don’t feel right about it as they were huge parts of my life which did destroy me as well.. it became obsessive and one caused issues in my life I don’t care to discuss. I feel they are just not “me” anymore. I did try a tv show and finished the season but just..meh... you know? It just isn’tthere for me anymore. The elements in it that go against Christianity bug me inside. I also have started an online game I used to play which I find an average sense of enjoyment in. I ditched that and pretty much destroyed it due to me thinking it was an “idol”. It’s ok but can’t play it all day. I also have tried a film genre I was kinda into. Not a lot but I have seen two or 3 movies in full in this genre since my deconversion. I have no interest in anymore. Seen trailers and just the ones I saw were ok. I really want to find a tv show to binge on or something but it just isn’t working I’m really into Japan and want to find some Japanese interest.... I am not into anime at all. I have tried to find an anime , I just find it an interesting country and I like the politeness, cherry blossoms, scenery, shops, fashion, stuffed animals... I like Sanrio as well a lot. But these aren’t “hobbies”. I tried colouring books but they just frustrate me. I used to be into sticker collecting... which I will try to get into but I have a limited interest in stickers so it’s not something to spend lots of time on. I trashed many of my albums due to thinking it was “evil” what I was collecting (I thought Disney was 666 and wicked.. I had many Disney stickers I spent so much money on..hundreds!). A time long ago I was into pokemon but I think I lost interest in that due to the voice actor change. I tried to get into period drama movies but I just am not finding myself drawn to them. I was into them. I have an interest in healthy diets and do try to eat healthy every single day. Does anyone have any idea on how to find hobbies? I am meant to go walking for health but I’m really rundown and sick right now. 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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