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Hey!

 

I’m thinking about leaving the Roman Catholic Church and maybe Christianity entirely. I found this site after looking for a place with people that were in a similar boat, who might be able to help me figure out some things. 

 

I grew up confused when it came to religion. My parents were nominal Protestant Christians but my father, although having only a negligible fraction of Native American blood and no Jewish ancestry, incorporated Native American faith and Zionist elements to what I was taught. I grew up confused and so in response to this, I became Christian only in name and was more of an agnostic in secret.

 

Then I was a closet catholic for several years. I think it might have been the need for community or the need for faith after a series of traumatic events that led me to the RCC.  Eventually I won my family over to the idea of me joining (they were staunchly anti-Catholic) and I joined a few years ago.  Everything was going well (I was even seriously considering becoming a priest) when a few events (I don’t know how else to say it.) "shook" me to the point where I knew I couldn’t stay in the Church anymore.

 

I have a couple of reasons for wanting to do this, but I think I found another section on here specifically for talking about that, so I won’t ramble too much just yet. Suffice it to say that the “final straws” were pretty recent and I guess I’m still in the mourning/grieving phase of things.

 

Anyway, I’m grateful that this site exists, and I hope to grow and heal with all of you.

 

Thanks,

 

-knighterrant

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Hi, Welcome to Ex-C!

 

My best buddy went from cultic Protestant Pentecostal (Maranatha on a college campus) to Catholic because it was calm and the rituals gave him some sense of comfort and stability. He never could bring himself to part with the idea of a god in charge. I think that would make him feel like the world was too chaotic. We don't talk about it much these days, just grab a beer and chat about life. 

 

I left the faith after a year of solid questioning. The questioning started when I was "shook" by finding a trusted preacher was lying repeatedly about miracles and healings. His whole thrust was that god was blessing them because of their ultra-committed stance that didn't coddle sin (as opposed to the fat comfortable Western church). It was a message that sold well, and I promoted him worldwide for 9 years. Then I finally caught him making up a long involved tale about a coven of witches in Germany (the charismatic churches absolutely love hearing about witches). My worldview began unraveling, and hundreds of questions I'd built up over the years began falling down off the shelf where I'd put them. After a year, I found this website and read what others had come through, and I completed my de-conversion from Christianity. That was 12 years ago and I have a far more stable and happy life that isn't governed by invisible creatures at war, where I no longer treat my natural desires as evil, and I don't spend thousands of dollars yearly promoting my imaginary friend. 

 

We come from all walks of life, and all flavors of Christianity. Again, welcome.

 

 

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Welcome knighterrant

I'm quite new here - and find it a helpful place. After 60 years a Christian, many of them as a minister of the church, I could no longer make sense of the concept of god. For reasons explained elsewhere I do sometimes attend church with my partner although less frequently now. And I, too, look for 'community'.

Your comment about growing and healing is so true.

Do you read? There are some excellent books available, mentioned in other places on this site, which you might find helpful as you explore non-theism (as I like to call it).

I'm not sure what stage I am at now - feelings change. I get angry, frustrated with church. Overwhelmingly I have a sense of freedom and joy having given up all belief in gods for me.

Sometimes I enjoy getting angry - like this morning's hymn which included these words: 'How blest are they and only they who in his truth abide'. What rubbish, patently untrue.

Stick with it, find your place, find yourself. Enjoy being here.

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Welcome. I read about your troubles within your church life. What you can gain here is insight into the fact that Christianity is just man made rather than factual so you can be free to decide how to live in whatever way seems best to you. If you decide to go to church anyhow for the social aspects at least you will have the knowledge that all the claims of unseen forces and miraculous happenings are just woo and even the historical stuff is very often inaccurate or just made up. Hopefully you will come to the realization that it serves no purpose to suffer at all over church affairs or church doctrine that is not based in reality. Enjoy your time here and feel free to comment and ask questions. 

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Hi and welcome to Ex-C, knighterrant! A good place to find out how others in similar positions have fared is the "testimonies" section. Some inspiring stories there :)

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On 8/11/2019 at 10:50 AM, knighterrant said:

Anyway, I’m grateful that this site exists, and I hope to grow and heal with all of you.

 

Thanks,

 

-knighterrant

 

Welcome aboard!!! 

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