Inception: An Ex-Christian Love Story

[gandolfication]

I wrote this to my wife after watching the film, Inception...and thought this may be the most approporiate forum to post something like this. Near the beginning of 2010, I tumbled down the rabbit hole from being a fundamentalist, literalist, evangelical Christian.

 

 

Dream

Once I lost my way in the world and thought I should never regain it.

For moments, I wanted to die and hated myself.

I lost god and meaning and all good was lost.

It was the dimming of the world as it closed around me.

No light could escape my vortex of despair.

Impossibly, your love broke through – even while I couldn’t feel it.

In a world without meaning or sanity you cried, then laughed with me,

And turned absurd futility on its head.

I had a dream within a dream.

You were there. And my family and friends.

I had a hard time leaving Kansas behind.

You stayed with me in both dreams.

And made me willing to risk living again.

I am willing to take the chance that none of this is happening anyway,

And put too much hope in you again.

In a life without guarantees, my breath is proof of love returned.

And diminished fear, when fear is all there is.

If this madness must come, let it come with you.

When my vision of death was nearest, you shouted loudest to my soul.

For me, the story turned, with obviously no purpose for writing another page.

You spent your widow’s mites on me, after I’d slashed the tires of hope.

And I found that with you – I don’t need a rational motive.

No prodigal son knew redemption like this.

You loved me without boundaries or borders.

I am still afraid, but I choose to be afraid with you.

You loved me in a way I never thought I could be loved.

And made me want to come back – when I didn’t want it for myself.

As the soft blue glow faded, you replaced a need for a sane reality.

In a world of madness, you made madness function.

I can be content with you that the world never makes sense again.

Because you outstripped the senseless and unnecessary pain of being awake.

Once I lost my way in the world and never want to regain it with you.

 

[Leinad89]

That is really beautiful. I could have written the same thing to my girlfriend of 2 and a half years (soon to be fiancé perhaps? ).

She really helped me see reality through love and not through a mocking of my beliefs, like other unbelievers might have done.

Also, INCEPTION (or I N C E P T I O N, as I like to call it) is a really good movie.

[gandolfication]

Thanks Leinad89,

And congrats (hopefully). I'm happy for you.

That's why I shared this - 'cause I knew there are others would would relate pretty closely to the sentiments.

Happy New Years!