--Human Nature--

One thing that is slowly dawning on me (though I've known it for a while, I guess now I'm comprehending it) is the fact that no matter how advanced humanity is technologically and sociologically, we are still animals bound by our internal instincts and constructs. Though we try to pretend we're above animals, we really are quite similar. I use to get pissed at human nature thinking we're better than animals and that we should be way beyond are primitive instincts but I realized no matter how much we denied it we're still bound by our evolutionary chain.

No matter how much we criticise society for judging people based on their external experiences and positions in society it is still going to happen because such thinking is inbuilt into us. Fighting against it seems like a fight in futility. Society doesn't function as we would have it to function and as a result we have to go with the flow. Sure, some things we can and should change but some things seem so ingrained into us, it seems like it is an impossibility to change them. Time will tell no doubt.

--Morality--

I've been thinking about morality as well. What has got me onto this topic was the cat we adopted. The reason I say that is we've been looking after it a few weeks now and it seems to have improved quite a lot. Yet I've noticed some things that concern me and now that I am jobless I cannot take an (unnecessary) expensive trip to the vet because I just don't have that money at the moment. Like my mother I am a worrier and the slightest little thing sets me off and gets me worried. I wish it didn't but I can't help it.

I have numerous examples of me freaking out over the cat for no good reason. Mostly it has to do with the cat sleeping. I'll see it sleeping and I can't see it breathing and I freak out only to see it pop its eyes open. I have this wave of guilt hit me thinking what would I do if I found the cat dead and I could have done something. In the end the cat is on borrowed time. We saved it from dying out on the streets. If it was to die today because of negligence on my part I shouldn't feel bad because i gave it several more weeks of life that it otherwise wouldn't have received. The problem is I don't feel what I know. In other words the morality I follow internally is one that differs from the one I believe intellectually.

This got me to thinking about our moral constructs and how effective/useful is it to debate over them when such things are generally feelings coming from our soul that do not always have a logical and rational support to them. They are just what they are. Even when we are shown otherwise, our feelings speak louder to us than any words of wisdom ever could. Therefore is morality simply an individual's belief insofar as it doesn't conflict with the rest of society? At the moment I would think so.

--Unconditional Love--

I've got a bit of an intertwining theme here but this leads me to Christianity's unconditional love claim. You see, unconditional love is a very attractive offer for most people as most people haven't really seen unconditional love. The love we receive from friends and family is mostly based on our treatment towards them. If we treat them well, they will treat us well. If we treat them poorly, then we shall expect the same from them. If I don't meet their expectation than I may lose their "love" for me. This is very hard for a lot of people to swallow, knowing that acting the part is how people get by no matter about their true colors.

The closest most people see unconditional love is from their parents, more specifically their mother. When I'm around my mother I feel really loved and cared for. I feel a deep emotional connection to my mother because I feel I can be whoever I want to be and she will bear no judgement against me. I can say this of no one else. There are some people who come close and it feels great to be around them but my mother is way ahead of them all. Even if parental love is unconditional, is it really worthy to be praised when it's inherent in their genetics? In other words, praising someone for unconditionally loving their child is a bit like praising them for the skin, hair or eye color.

Even God the Father's unconditional love comes with conditions and I guess that's where the human origins are clearly seen in Christianity. You see, if Christianity preached unconditional love from God, that would indeed be amazing. Imagine your creator having no expectations from you at all? That the mere fact that you exist is reason enough for him to love you? That doing anything or nothing will in no way change his love for you? That would be amazing but Christianity's God doesn't fit this bill. You see, his love comes at a price and isn't unconditional. Even once you meet his conditions and Christian theologian will tell you that he doesn't love you because of you but he loves you because when he looks at you he sees Christ.

--Logic & Reason--

Lastly, something that I realized was intertwined with most of these thoughts in this post is how logic and reason apply to human behaviour. Though most people hold these things in high esteem, most of us fall pray to our baser nature and fall prey to our instincts and our emotions. We act and react according to these more than we do to our intellect. When I think about this I wonder if pursuit of the intellect is really a worthwhile cause when all in all it is neglected? Though I will continue on pursuing it, the thought does come to mind that maybe it is all an act of futility..