mick Posted December 12, 2006 Share Posted December 12, 2006 I had led a friend into reason recently only to see him make himself a intellectual martyr once again for the sake of making peace with his wife. He actually claims to believe once again. (Though he had told me God was a murderer and tha tthe Bible was clearly false.) I spent some time tonight thinking about all the horrors of the God of the Bible. I stopped talking to God very early this year. However, tonight I was home alone with my autistic son and decided to verbally accost Yahweh, and told him this would be the last time ever talked to him like this ever. I told him that if all the scripture and the doctines are true, then he is a total mother fucking bastard. I screamed at him, I cried at him. I told him he sucked. I dared him, over and over, to fucking kill me with a lightening bolt. Of course he never did. I challenged him. I told him he supposedely parted the red sea but he won't even sent a measly lightening bolt to kill me. I called him an impotent piece of shit, which he would be if he were real. I called him a baby killing disgraceful bastard. I yelled as loud as I could in my house. When I was done. I told him I would NEVER speak to him again as if he were real. I told him him he was not real (as crazy as that sounds) , and this would be the last time I talked to him like he was real. I told him I hated him. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
riverbank Posted December 12, 2006 Share Posted December 12, 2006 I had led a friend into reason recently only to see him make himself a intellectual martyr once again for the sake of making peace with his wife. He actually claims to believe once again. (Though he had told me God was a murderer and tha tthe Bible was clearly false.) I spent some time tonight thinking about all the horrors of the God of the Bible. I stopped talking to God very early this year. However, tonight I was home alone with my autistic son and decided to verbally accost Yahweh, and told him this would be the last time ever talked to him like this ever. I told him that if all the scripture and the doctines are true, then he is a total mother fucking bastard. I screamed at him, I cried at him. I told him he sucked. I dared him, over and over, to fucking kill me with a lightening bolt. Of course he never did. I challenged him. I told him he supposedely parted the red sea but he won't even sent a measly lightening bolt to kill me. I called him an impotent piece of shit, which he would be if he were real. I called him a baby killing disgraceful bastard. I yelled as loud as I could in my house. When I was done. I told him I would NEVER speak to him again as if he were real. I told him him he was not real (as crazy as that sounds) , and this would be the last time I talked to him like he was real. I told him I hated him. Ah, another case of someone making a decision because of family. Understandable in a way but your friend is probably not being honest with himself. When I was at my worst, I was afraid of God killing me for sinning against him Now of course I know that even if I call the Holy Spirit a devil or biblegod the most evil devil in history, I ain't going to get struck by a lightning bolt or anythin like that. Hehe. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kurari Posted December 13, 2006 Share Posted December 13, 2006 You're friend is probably going to waffle for a while, but the seed of doubt is pretty clearly there. I wouldn't worry too much about him, some of us just need to hop up and down on the fence a few times before we realize it's safe. And I don't think you're weird at all for yelling at god. That's actually a very effective healing technique, and one that is actually recommended to people who are healing from religious abuse. I think I did that off and on for about a month when I started really deconverting from Christianity. The point isn't whether god exists or not, it's that your straightening out bottled up emotions. Even after I deconverted from Christian to theist, I still told god off occassionally because I believed that god was a truely loving and forgiving individual that was omnipotent so He really understood what was going on anyway. And, well, if you really have a loving relationship with your deity, you should get to tell them when they are fucking up! *L* Never got a lightening bolt for it. Now that I'm Atheist, I just don't care anymore but sometimes I still think YHWH is a complete idiot and should be working in corperate middle management, not running the universe. Give it time and let your anger come out, it's a healthy thing to do. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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