Guest Shiva H. Vishnu Posted May 31, 2006 Share Posted May 31, 2006 Earlier this evening I got a call from an off and on girlfriend of mine. Actually I kind of love this girl in my own very jaded and limited way. Romantic love seems impossible for me to muster these days, but I do love her as a friend as well. In addition to all of this, she's also the hottest girl who's ever given me the time of day. She's the corner of a head in my profile pic. I know we would make a horrible couple, but there's alot about us that works. Neither here nor there... So, she called me, and I haven't seen her for about a year. She has usually been dating a particular rockstar, and when they were on the outs we'd be on the ins. So I suggest we meet at a local bar and she suggests that I come over to her house instead. Twist my arm. I arrive to a warm reception and some premixed vat of alcohol and juice. Yippee! We catch up a little, smoke a few bowls, flirt like kids and then the topic gets around to the rockstar boyfriend and why they're not together anymore. She says that she couldn't stand his lifestyle anymore because she's a christian. Now, I could have (should have) let it go but I am not yet that strong and I'm sick of apologising for it. So, I calmly ask a few provocative questions and she quickly determines my intent, and runs to get More Than A Carpenter, which she says is proof that Jesus was real and blah, blah, blah..... In retrospect I had plenty of chances to drop it and put my tongue in her mouth, but I wasn't interested as long as this whole christianity matza ball was hangin out. I mean, I have priorities and fucking is rarely one of them. (yeah I'm a porn addict, so what?) I just wore her out, I was seeing her as any old debate opponent, and she couldn't argue. In spite of the fact that she was probably mostly annoyed that I wouldn't let it go, she grinned like the bejeezus whenever she got my points, and had to just reiterate her "faith" as the unquestionable personal ideology that it is. I volunteered to leave when I saw I was knocking the wind out of her, but she made sur ethat I knew that "next time" would be different. Really, I wish this shit didn't own me like it does. I can't not talk about it. I try not to bring it up but when it's been brought up it's fucking on! I'm a moron who's sleeping with my rather jagged and ice cold integrity tonight. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Knightley Posted May 31, 2006 Share Posted May 31, 2006 Awww. Well its who you are Shiva. I couldn't be with some religious person or fundy, there's just no way. But there are open minded people out there, don't give up hope. =) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
pandora Posted May 31, 2006 Share Posted May 31, 2006 Smoking a few bowls while having an almost-argument... hmm... never had that happen. Seriously. Usually, after a few minutes of debate, Ithe brain stimulation makes me horny and conversation ends if hubby is around. Anyway, that does take integrity. It's hard to find a guy like that... but that also means you must have a pretty big ego if your brain got in the way of your mini-me. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Clearview Posted May 31, 2006 Share Posted May 31, 2006 Well, I'm proud of ya. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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