It's been almost a month since I posted my first blog entry on this site. That's a long time for me, I posted quite regularly on the site I used to hang out on before it closed.
I'll tell you what has been on my mind lately-my wife. She is still a believer and she gave me hell when I first told her 2 years ago that I didn't believe the bible anymore because she was and is embarrassed. She was (and is) more concerned about what her friends would say than she is about my "eternal soul". In fact, she has never once expressed any concern over my spiritual well being. It has always been, "how could you do this to me?" statements.
Then there is church attendance. We left our last church for other reasons around the time I deconverted and I promised her I would go to church with her when we found one she liked. Well, guess what? It's been 2 years and we've been to church 3 times. It's like she's not really interested in going to church, it's just something she tries to use against me.
There are other things as well that I won't go into, but suffice it to say that if there were no other reason for me to not re-embrace Christianity, her actions would be sufficient.
Couple that with the statistics that Christians are not better people than atheists and I have to wonder what it is they think they have? What did I think I had? I honestly don't know, but I know that I used to be cock-sure that I knew.
Enough rambling for one night. I just wanted write something. I'm going to try to be more regular with my blog, its therapeutic.