Things did go much better this week. I have refused to read certain literature because i feel they are biased toward christianity. It like having a belief and then going out and finding evidence to support it. this premise means you have to neglect all evidence against your belief. I explained this to my wife and she seemed to understand but she still make comments like "as a christian you should......" im thinking "did she not get my letter or what" Shes dont this before. making comments to imply tat Im still a christian that is just struggling with doubt. However she chooses to deal with it is fine with me but i feel like she is at least more understanding of my premise. she is even wanting to change churches now because she see that ours is dead. i think it great because all church is dead. at that point i think we can at least agree together that all church is bs.