Death for me over the years has rarely been difficult to process and move on. I've buried quite a few, only mourned a couple. The two I mourn are now memories I guard so earnestly a mother bear could not rival my ferocity. These two people immediately bring on the wet eyes and short tight breaths when I just so much as think on their lives, their influence, and my loss.
This past January I experienced a third loss of someone very important in my life. It's hit me very hard, and I am surprise
Ain't it amazing?
There they go, ranting about how all those Evil Foreigners have nothing better to do than to come to Germany and supposedly ruin our country out of sheer malice... demanding that we let no one in, for any reason, because the foreigners (so they claim) will just take away all the jobs, and kick out those foreigners who are already here (unless, I'm sure, they make and sell Gyros or other "outlandish" fast-food )...
...but they have their propaganda papers printed in Pol
One of my big brothers is into videography in Chicago. Each time I see him or talk to him lately, he's all about using my animals in his videos. He did it once before, for the movie he makes for his annual 3-day party in Mom & Dad's back yard. Wonder how he can be so enthusiastic after that experience.
My brother and his best friend were making a movie, most of their friends and family were in it, but no one was to know what it was about until they showed the movie at the party. But
I'm going to have to eat crow tonight, among other things.
My man-friend and I went out for wings last night, and he was telling me that the little drumstick-looking things were part of the chicken wing. I said not so, that it was the leg. He even asked the waitress, and she agreed with me and we poked fun at him together. I was thinking that I had met yet another "winner", a clueless idiot. I even went so far as to tell him that if he was right, I would do anything he wanted.
Man I am soooooo depressed. Why oh why oh why did I have to get myself into this. I can’t even think straight to write this thing.
Self employment. My own business.
I’m not up to this. I thought I was. I deluded myself into thinking that I was. It had always been a dream of mine, to start and grow my own business, be my own boss and profit from my own success, to be like my father and my uncles and aunties, a “successful” business owner. But now it looks like its nothing more th
My brother and his wife are expecting their first kids, a set of twins, in a few months. The girl is to be named Summer Joy.
Sounds like a feminine hygeine product. Spray-on. The commercial for it will have a woman in a flowing cotton dress twirling on the beach on a misty morning. Ahhh, the freshness!
Hmf. I think it's a little weird. Bro & sis are upscale, trendy people, but isn't Summer a redneck name? I met a girl named Summer at a barn I kept my horse a
Some may think that 60 years are more than enough time to cope with your country's past.
Not so. Not in Germany.
(Warning - I had some Vodka, maybe not all of the following will make sense)
It is now 4 pm local time. Since about high noon, the German news channel N24 broadcasts only the current news, life transmissions of the ceremonies in the Bundestag (our parliament), and documentations about WW2 - mainly the "color of war" series, with color pictures and movie
It's a little embarassing to look at my last post... I was really riled. I wonder if that is why no one is reading this... much less commenting.
On a related note, I met someone who shares my view on Ruiner... the last verse in particular.
Strange comfort... but a comfort nonetheless. I'm a weird kid anyhow lol.
Found a very nice bible at the library bookstore... Both old and new testaments, as well as the Apocrypha.
The Bible: Complete with deleted scenes!
Aaaah, our dear politicians...
(This seems to develop into a political blog, eh? )
...in the news: The German "Bundesagentur für Arbeit" (federal agency for employment), faced with the crushing load of some 5.2 million unemployed persons, decided to do something that <sarcasm> really will create countless new jobs.
They chose a "new" logo for them. € 25,000 for a sign above the entrance, some € 75,000 for new paper et al.
What's "new" in that logo? Before, it was a st
There will always be a few things you aren't good at, or wouldn't voluntarily choose to do. Some things fall into both of those categories. Learning to drive stick was something I didn't choose to do for a long time and chose not to do when I found myself living in Florida with no choice of vehicle other than a huge F350 diesel with 4 on the floor. I eventually did it, begrudgingly, and found that I liked it and was good at it. That was a rare occasion, because I'm usually right about whethe
GAAAAAHH!!!!!!! I have a very very VERY STUPID LAPTOP!!! Haven't even had the stupid thing a year and the stupid thing is breaking down on me! It keeps overheating and shutting down on me!! And it's taking less and less time to overheat! I was only on it an hour and a half today when I had to shut it down because of overheating! GRRRRR!!!! How the HELL am I supposed to write final papers on it if it keeps overheating on me?!?!
At least I'm able to get on to the library/lab computers... Got
I've been thinking lately about other ex-Christians and the spiritual paths they have chosen. It occurred to me that it is a bit unusual that I left all of my supernatural belief behind in one fell swoop. A glimpse through the forums will offer deists, agnostics, Wiccans, etc. The only thought that crosses my mind when I see that is, "Why?" I respect them just the same, just as I respect when my parents say "God bless you", because, in my opinion, belief is not entirely voluntary.
I am sure that anyone reading this blog is aware of the elective Bible course that is to be offered in the Odessa, Texas school district. While I don’t have any particular problems with this course (it might even open the eyes of some kids), I dislike the manner in which it was being justified, so here is the letter that I sent to the Editor:
An article on the elective Bible course to be offered in the Odessa (front page April 28) caught my eye. Mr. Johnson made a comment, on the Odessa b
I had to go to an open house for a local non-profit which provides interview gear for women re-entering the workplace. Several months ago, I was asked to submit some logo ideas & they wound up choosing one of mine. I thought it was kinda neat, plus I enjoyed doing something on my computer other than reading & typing. As with any artistic endeavor of mine, once I was finished and handed it over, I no longer liked it very much. Ah well, I suppose the enjoyment of the creation process b
I went to a pub tonight, all by myself, for the second week in a row.
I had a pint of Guinness, for a second week in a row. Although this week it was much better as it was out of a tap rather than out of a can (different pub, different town), and it was also 2 bucks cheaper and it actually filled the glass. The pub, the local “Irish theme pub”, was fairly quiet though. Early in the night perhaps? (about 9:30pm). A few nice young ladies passed through the pub. But I was in no position t
I am feeling pretty good about how things are going just now. Several years ago, I started responding to the more virulent of the Christ Cultist “Letters to the Editor” in the local newspaper. At this time, no one was responding (other than on a point of dogma) or rebutting such lurid claims as the validity of the “Great Flood” and dinosaurs living along side mankind! Since I was grossly outnumbered, I invented 5 identities (we are allowed only one letter per month) to allow me to rebut any a
The International High IQ Society does not want me.
I took their verbal IQ test and scored 123-- 3 points shy of the 126 needed to join the ranks of geekdom. I could probably take it again and pay attention (who really concentrates on the web, anyway? I've been conditioned to skim and scan, especially while on break at work.) But then again, some of the questions would never have come to me. I know when I don't know something.
I wonder how they decide how to figure out how smart
Phew. Don't think I should look too closely at TFN... a lot of the threads scare me. Yes, scare me. One can't help but wonder how far we've come since the Crusades. Makes it hard to get up in the morning, let me tell you.
Maybe that's what I should say. "I don't fear Death, I don't fear Damnation. If that is my fate, so be it. If I am to be damned for knowledge, so be it. No, what scares me is a life spent with you holding the reigns. Damnation, to me, is letting the ignorant, the blind, th
Since I have this blog now, I guess I might as well use it. This will probably be the first of...one entries that I make in this section, the purpose of obtaining this blog was mainly for my stories that are soon to come.
The reason I decided to make an entry here is to blurt out some shit that's happened recently. I found out that a friend of
mine died last Monday. Kid named Josh. I'm a little
broken up about it, although not too much given that
we weren't horribly close, given a
I have been posting in the shoubox under two assumed names - Genis Sage and Presea Combatir. These names are both taken from the Gamecube and PS2 game Tales of Symphonia, which I have been playing a lot of.
I use these names solely to bait, though. I will stay as Vulgaris Prime for most of my shoutbox postings, and all message board posts.
I cancelled my "date" tonight. We were supposed to watch a movie at my place, but I got to feeling exhausted and spread too thin and felt like I needed a little alone time.
I've been going out to dinner, drinking, and watching movies with him a lot since we first went out. I felt a wee bit guilty for wanting a break, but there really isn't anybody I want to see every day. I don't even want to see myself every day. There is probably something wrong with me. I'll attribute it to being ig
I've been looking at Xianity and corporate advertising for a long time, now, and I can't help but notice some similarity between their sales pitch.
Step 1: Convince the people they have a need or flaw that isn't being met or compensated.
Xianity: All have sinned, and fall short of the glory of God. Sin keeps us apart from God, and prevents us from being good and happy.
Corporate advertising: You're not attractive because you're not a carbon copy of Pamela Anderson or Brad pitt. Y
Well then. First post on my first blog. I haven't spent much time reading these things, so I don't know exactly what I'm supposed to do here.
I suppose I should start with what I'm doing. Just sitting around at the moment... started this blog on a whim in fact. I'll probably be browsing the other blogs on the forum... see how other people do it.
Waiting on an email from a good friend of mine... I haven't heard from her in a while and I'm getting a little worried.
Beyond that, I'm
The fat kid bully on the schoolbus was the only one to ever taunt me. I don't know when it started, and it didn't last very long, but he called me "Mole Monster". When nothing else was going on in the bus, he would simply chant in a low & drawn out fashion, "Mooooooole Moooooooonnnnssssssstttttteeerrrrrrrrrrr...."
I was born with a birthmark on my left cheek; all that's left now is narrow vertical scar. They removed it in the doctor's office when I was 14 while I held a towel to the